The Whole World Is Made To Make Us Forget That It Isn't Death To Forget

[Barna]

So after my 5meo experiences the effects of weed completely changed. 

Last night I was smoking with my friends and when I started "tripping" they told me that I say strange things and I act strange every time I'm smoking weed, but I didn't remember the previous "weed-trips". So last night I started taking notes. Most lines don't have logical relationship with each other. The only intended relationship between the lines is that they are in the chronological order of appearing to me. 

But before you read the notes I should explain the meditation I learned on the trip, and I should explain my state of mind while tripping.

This is the meditation: Close your eyes and ask yourself: What is the last thing that you remember right now? Concentrate on the gap between the last thing that you remember and the present moment.

The state of mind: "There is no remembering in the gap.  The gap is the present moment, and that is infinity itself. I don't feel fully the present moment because I insist on remembering the past. I think that if I forget the past completely, that is death itself, that is dying to the present moment. But if I live in the gap, I live in infinity. It seems like the whole world is made up to make us forget that it isn't death to forget, it is infinity. And we keep reminding ourselves that the fear of facing the forgetting is too big. But it's okay, it's all Love, we don't have to face this fear if we don't want to.  "
I did let go of my memories and I entered the gap. And in the gap I realized that my memories are not gone if I forget them, they are part of the infinite nature of the present moment.  

Here are the lines I noted down while tripping:

Quote

What's the last thing that you remember right now?

We remind ourselves that the fear is too big.

You don't have to do it.

To me: I should write a book.

This is perfect.

You don't lose your memory

You just become everything

And the truth feels only

But you don't have to be afraid

You are infinite

And "It is only seeming as if a world isn't talking about that truth because it is only you who can declare it so." ~ Matt Kahn

That's gonna be for now :))

You don't have to fear of having infinite number of thoughts

What is the last thing that you remember?

Remember the gap!!!

Preaching and forgetting

Don't need to be afraid of forgetting

The whole world is made to make us forget that it isn't death to forget

In the gap there is no remembering

Matt Kahn never remembers anything

We fear the future because we forgot it. Because of this shock of forgetting we are afraid of forgetting the past.

If you dare to forget it, the ego goes to infinity and the body does the divine will

Maybe I dared to forget every time that's why I don't remember the previous trips.

Choice of leaving the body and going to higher dimensions

Today while doing the gap meditation:
The present moment is like a burning point on the line of time. The future and past is originated from this present moment. Like the two rays of the supernova (pulsar) is originated from the supernova itself.

There are a few lines that I didn't explain because I don't know if those are relevant for you, and I don't want to make this post any longer. If you have any questions I will be happy to answer.  

Edited May 5, 2017 by Barna

[Sevi]

@Barna I have a theory:

so, that can mean that we can concentrate on the gap between from now and the first thing into the future. So that, taste and test thus calm the fear of it might be possible.

Since we would still be in now, but a little bit into the future part of that equilibrium..

?

Edited May 5, 2017 by Sevi

[Barna]

@SeviThe future never happens, it is always now when it arrives. We only know that the future happened when we already have a memory of it. 

I find no meaning on paying attention to the future because it is even more illusory than the past. At least when you're meditating.

But maybe I will have a clearer understanding next time when I smoke.  

[Sevi]

@Barna please don't smoke often..

[cetus]

@Barna For whatever it's worth, I experienced time standing still for what seemed like a millisecond today. I mean time just suddenly stopped on a dime. Realizing it had stopped made time start to pass again because I was back in thought/mind. But for a second, I could have swore that time stood still.

Edit: Time solidified.

Edited May 5, 2017 by cetus56

[Barna]

@cetus56 On my first bad trip on weed I could have swore that I was stuck in an infinite time loop. The same ten seconds repeated over and over again. It felt like hell. I thought my life will never continue, I thought that I will never break out of those 10 seconds. And I forgot everything that wasn't present in that 10 seconds. That was the first time when I was really afraid of forgetting everything. 

I entered this loop by thinking that I predicted the future. I was with friends and they showed me a song on youtube and I just asked:

- So what is so interesting about this singer?
- The interesting thing about the singer is that he was the first openly gay singer in the world. But how did you know that there was something interesting about the singer?!
- Because I've seen it in the future...

And then I entered the loop...

Edited May 5, 2017 by Barna

[cetus]

@Barna Are you sure didn't experiance a time warp? " It's just a jump to the left"

 

Edited May 5, 2017 by cetus56

[Barna]

This is some bizarre shit right here :)) 

[cetus]

You gotta see the rest of it! But that's already 4 minutes of time you'll never get back again.  haha...... or will you?

[Barna]

1 minute ago, cetus56 said:

You gotta see the rest of it! But that's already 4 minutes of time you'll never get back again.  haha...... or will you?

Right, I hope not! :))