I want to die

[Ishanga]

Get back to the basics, Your too full of characters, ego and fantasy stuff brought about things You think You know, and psychedelics I would assume based on what You have shared here..

Go out, deep breaths each morning when You wake up, stretch your arms above Your head at the edge of the bed when You first get up, clean up in the washroom, have a cool shower to wake up and energize, do some asana routine for 15-20min, then get clear, don't have any technology on, just be clear for 5 min the first week of doing this then increase this time span as the weeks go on, in a few months you can be clear at will for an hour easy, then if You are not working get out of the house and walk around, try to enjoy the simple things, the fresh air, the nature, the very fact that your heart is still beating and you can breath and walk and think and do stuff, set up some simple tasks, writing, cooking, cleaning, don't sit around and think  yourself to death that is what is killing You.. don't watch videos all day or come here all day, that will make it worse, do some activity, take a nap after lunch, make things simple and relatable again.. Get out of Your head, your too attached to it...

Edited 22 hours ago by Ishanga