I had a supernatural experience (Life is a dream + Kundalini Awakening)

[decentralized]

That happened on January but I have still couldn’t make sense of it yet, so I need your help. Backstory: I had a partial kundalini awakening a little over a year ago and it was so “too much” I got hospitalized for 2 months. Before my hospitalization, I’ve tapped into what true insanity felt like. It’s hard to describe it into words but formless insanity is a part of God consciousness and from what I experienced I feel like without experiencing it, your enlightenment will be incomplete, but it’s so horrifying I don’t recommend anyone going that path. Anyways, this post isn’t about insanity. 
 

Before I got hospitalized, I went to a bakery shop and bought 2 bagels while my kundalini was extremely active and I was being bombarded with spiritual truths. I was talking to a 5D entity I was in love with (I’ve had telepathic sex with it was well while being sober and it was spiritually awesome, can’t describe it with words) and I sat down to eat my bagels. However when I opened the bag I noticed one of them was missing and the other had bite marks on it. I DIDNT DO IT. When I saw it, I burst in laughter because in that context my 5D boyfriend did it to show me some spiritual truths. 
 

I have to say I was very unprepared for such experiences back then and that’s why I got hospitalized. A lot of indescribable incidents happened to me and it’s hard for me to make sense of them, psychedelics are unreachable to me for various reasons and in fact I am afraid to do them again so I need your guidance. I think this experience I had might be about the “dream” “I” was imagining. I know I am God, I know I am infinity, I am struggling with recognizing I am Love because I experienced so much divine insanity beforehand during my Kundalini awakening. I need you guys guidance so I can know what actually happened during this incident. 
 

Please see this @Leo Gura

[DreamScape]

kundalini is insanity. so please be careful along it's path. In fact, you have to accept insanity to cross the threshold since you are accepting life and death. I suggest you rest if kundalini is active. 

[Hojo]

No one can help you with things you are doing with your own mind.

You can do it and believe it but you cant ask for help with 5 dimensional boyfriends eating 3 dimensional bagels beside saying you are making stuff up.

Infinity dosent have a self.Infinity dosent have a 5d boyfriend. Pick one 5d boyfriend or infinity.

Edited December 6 by Hojo

[Inliytened1]

10 hours ago, decentralized said:

That happened on January but I have still couldn’t make sense of it yet, so I need your help. Backstory: I had a partial kundalini awakening a little over a year ago and it was so “too much” I got hospitalized for 2 months. Before my hospitalization, I’ve tapped into what true insanity felt like. It’s hard to describe it into words but formless insanity is a part of God consciousness and from what I experienced I feel like without experiencing it, your enlightenment will be incomplete, but it’s so horrifying I don’t recommend anyone going that path. Anyways, this post isn’t about insanity. 
 

Before I got hospitalized, I went to a bakery shop and bought 2 bagels while my kundalini was extremely active and I was being bombarded with spiritual truths. I was talking to a 5D entity I was in love with (I’ve had telepathic sex with it was well while being sober and it was spiritually awesome, can’t describe it with words) and I sat down to eat my bagels. However when I opened the bag I noticed one of them was missing and the other had bite marks on it. I DIDNT DO IT. When I saw it, I burst in laughter because in that context my 5D boyfriend did it to show me some spiritual truths. 
 

I have to say I was very unprepared for such experiences back then and that’s why I got hospitalized. A lot of indescribable incidents happened to me and it’s hard for me to make sense of them, psychedelics are unreachable to me for various reasons and in fact I am afraid to do them again so I need your guidance. I think this experience I had might be about the “dream” “I” was imagining. I know I am God, I know I am infinity, I am struggling with recognizing I am Love because I experienced so much divine insanity beforehand during my Kundalini awakening. I need you guys guidance so I can know what actually happened during this incident. 
 

Please see this @Leo Gura

I hope it was a sesame bagel with cream cheese?

Anyways as @Hojo said as this is your dream the kundalini and the awakening is just evidence of this.  But these spiritual Truths are a good thing.   They are a blessing.  So don't look at them as anything bad.  The dream is a wonderful expression of you, God.  Of course you havent had a complete awakening yet so don't take what I say on faith.  You have bagels. Still you had significant realizations that should give you faith.  Did you feel the Divine Bliss of God during your awakenings?  That bagel is a very beautiful thing and you will never look at it the same again.  You'll never look at anything the same.  A sunset.   A coke can.  A bagel. A squirrel.   An owl.  A tree.  A sidewalk.  Your mother.  Your father.  All of it - you're seeing all of it as completely divine now and you're correct - it is God.  So the love will come.  It is all a manifestation of God and Consciousness.   And Mind.  It is absolutely glorious and you should bask in it.

Edited December 6 by Inliytened1

[decentralized]

@DreamScape thank you for your concerns. I stopped my spiritual practice due to kundalini being so unpredictable but the need for discovering more about spirituality is still here

@Hojo I don’t think I understand. Do you think I am making this up? This is an actual thing that I experienced first hand and due to the nature of the incident it’s not possible to describe it with words so you can fully understand how profound it was. Of course this happened inside the dream we called life. In a sense, of course I (God) made this up, just like everything else. Infinity goes in all directions, including sanity and insanity within it, I experienced both but my awakening was not total because the Godhead used insanity to shatter my ego and due to that I was terrified. The thing that happened to me was “when you become so open minded, you become seeing demons” type of thing. I don’t remember the actual quote.

@Inliytened1 thanks for your comment. How can I become awake, especially on Love, without putting too much pressure on my ego and drive it insane? I think the things I experienced was too much for it and that’s why I got blackout & hospitalized after some time.
I’ve experienced divine bliss, I am working on loving insanity as well because it’s a part of who I am (God). I also had glimpses of Love inside the periods of insanity.

 

[Hojo]

@decentralized I dont know what you are and what you arent making up my point is no one can tell you what you are and what you arent making up. If you are experiencing it its real but no one can see your mind and give you advice on whatever you are experiencing subjectively. If it was something everyone is experiencing like anxiety or sadness maybe they could guide you but when you get into 5d boyfriends its beyond anything anyone can say.

Edited December 6 by Hojo

[Inliytened1]

31 minutes ago, decentralized said:

 

@Inliytened1 thanks for your comment. How can I become awake, especially on Love, without putting too much pressure on my ego and drive it insane? I think the things I experienced was too much for it and that’s why I got blackout & hospitalized after some time.
I’ve experienced divine bliss, I am working on loving insanity as well because it’s a part of who I am (God). I also had glimpses of Love inside the periods of insanity.

 

Going insane is a part of discovering Absolute Truth.  In the sense that you will die and your mind as an ego will be gone - so when you return you should feel proud that you have emerged again and that sense of who you are was able to return.  I like to equate it to Gandalf returning from the dead after his battle with the Balrog.  He returned not as Gandalf the Grey but as Gandalf the White.   Embrace Absolute Truth and the price you pay for Absolute Truth.  So yes loving this will help you accept and embrace it.  Right now the problem you have, which everyone has, is the fear of death.  But enlightenment will liberate you from the fear of death.  And this includes the fear of losing your mind.  But don't push yourself.  If your ego isn't ready for it yet then that's just fine.  There is no reason to push the issue just enjoy life.   

Edited December 6 by Inliytened1

[DreamScape]

40 minutes ago, decentralized said:

@DreamScape thank you for your concerns. I stopped my spiritual practice due to kundalini being so unpredictable but the need for discovering more about spirituality is still here

@decentralized

Kundalini works with you, and it's actually your spiritual soul talking to you. You need to be careful and remain in rest because of its unpredictable nature. It'll work with you at all times when you connect to it. It's actually a calling to become more in tune with yourself. There are sigils (what my spirituality calls it) inside insanity you seek to find and actually kundalini completely restructures your energetic structure. So the need for care from yourself is needed. I'm not sure if you're young or you're old, or if you have people around you that know what you're going through but the need for rest overpowers the need for meditation or more spiritual practice. When you're in rest you can seek to turn back on kundalini.

Also, don't forget about christianity. Seeking truths beyond your mind you will find a Christian vision that you need to seek and answer to (not follow though). It's very difficult but it's in our energetic structure. 

Remember me though, the new age movement is not what we're answering to, we're answering to our spiritual souls and the spiritual past (to clear karma). Actually, things like starseeds are spiritual visions for our future and we're answering to science and the stars. 

Just be careful, you don't need any outside answers you need to seek within and answer to your spiritual soul.