Help me to find meaning in life

[Boost]

How to create value to others, or to myself at all, if everything is available on the internet in videos. 
I believe that everybody is good at something and he must do it for the greater good and connecting with other people. For example Michelangelo's soul calling was to increase the aesthetic abilities of people. Colombus had the calling to explore new territories for humanity. So I want to make distinction between sould desires and body desires. 
Also I believe that doing what I like, raising my basic consciousness
I have an idea, that I have half year if free tine until I start college, and I thought I want to play on my saxophone in a way that I want to play the most quicly and artisticly the paticular music piece, the devil's trills final movement. But this feel bad idea at the same time I just want to contribute to the people I know and also I don't want to compete because there will be always better, and I can't give  value to youtube. Or I don't know why it feels bad.
Nowadays listening to classical music is my only intrest. I feel half-contect with it, or not at all.

[Realms of Wonder]

how old are you?

[Boost]

21

[Sheriff]

@Boost I had this exact issue 5 years ago fam.. I felt alone on this journey.. so I literally made a whole community around finding yourself. Try and find your tribe, or help them congregate around you!!

[Realms of Wonder]

I can only speak from my own experience. But my life has been pretty meaningless till I  started making changes I cared about.

 

For example, I started eating cleaner to feel my body and live longer. I started creating music because it was a LITTLE bit interesting, I built habits that  had heard were good for me till I felt results or not.

 

Now my life is REALLY meaningful, and I created that. I didn't "Find it" anywhere, I built it out of nothing.

[Raze]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tu-M2ZbXWl0

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oxAajtqS_XE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k74SCBDTHts

[Yimpa]

Have you taken the LPC? 

 

[Boost]

If I play a musical piece to Facebook, then it has value to my Facebook friends, or it is worthless because the internet is full of people playing this? 

Can somebody explain this to me?

[mmKay]

why does it matter if someone has done it before you? Why cant you just enjoy doing it and sharing it in spite of it being done in a similar fashion thousands of times? Even if you do something that someone else has already done, it's still not the same because you allways add your own twist to it or the details are different 

Edited January 3 by mmKay

[UnbornTao]

Act based on your desire to create things, not on the belief that they will somehow complete you. You're looking for reasons in order to validate your decisions, yet meaning is nowhere to be found "out there", as it exists as a construct of your own. So, generate your meaning, create what you want to create. Make sure it is powerful and intelligent. Certainly, a process is needed to get those results, but the key is to continually move towards that direction.