Fear of ego death

[TheSomeBody]

around two years ago i had ego death from dmt, really low level just to experiment, it wasnt even breakthrough, i bearly saw any colors and i just had ego death, ego death is just like dying and feels like dying. you feel uncomfortable in your skin and your ego slips out of your body and you loose all agency or feels of control and you just lie there like a dead person. then i had god realization, which is just seeing god and it ended .

so overall i know that if i have ego death it is a good thing and i know i can get through it and all of it but my ego is giving me such a knee jerk reaction of just thinking about it that i cant do it.

my ego does everything just to not kill him. on the other hand my ego really wants to be able to get knowledge that is accessible through psychedelic, it is the thing it wants to do the most.

my ego is really afraid of dying after this experience and giving my hell for wanting to do it, but it giving me hell for not doing it too.

any advice to get over this fear? it is really non logical fear. i feel like basic fear advices works for this

maybe i should do shrooms and more light psycadelics and then go back to dmt?

Edited November 28 by TheSomeBody

[Dazgwny]

We all know to conquer a fear is to face it and plough straight through it. Make of that what you will

[TheSomeBody]

18 minutes ago, Dazgwny said:

We all know to conquer a fear is to face it and plough straight through it. Make of that what you will

there isnt any better way? because it kind make me work agaist the ego and not with it

[Dazgwny]

Well you could always try other psychedelics. But be sure you can always potentially face ego death on those too. A good likelihood infact if you’ve been following this work. It’s a case of do it or don’t do it. 2 choices that’s it there’s no in between. Because the in between options as I say could very well dissolve that ego of yours too

[TheSomeBody]

4 hours ago, Dazgwny said:

Well you could always try other psychedelics. But be sure you can always potentially face ego death on those too. A good likelihood infact if you’ve been following this work. It’s a case of do it or don’t do it. 2 choices that’s it there’s no in between. Because the in between options as I say could very well dissolve that ego of yours too

i dont try to avoid it , i try to make it easier for me , so maybe i should get ego death with other psycadelic when it is slower so my ego can learn how to do that without giving me hell.
i am following this works for years so this is why i can get those results with doing low level of psycadelics , it does take time to warm up to the executing part