Dissociative Dialogue

[Nemra]

Every day I have internal dialogue for quite a while. When I talk to myself, I'm aware that I'm talking, but while I'm talking, I imagine that I'm talking to another person and thinking that person is listening. I even imagine myself answering my own questions from the perspective of the person listening. It can go very deep, like I might imagine what the person imagines of another person might imagine.

Also, I somewhat believe that the people that I imagine exist while having an internal dialogue.

I've been listening to trip reports on YouTube about Slavia and Datura. It seems that people in those states of mind make stuff up without knowing and then live in another reality for a while. I'm not saying it's completely like that, like my reality doesn't completely change, but while talking to myself, I think that the person that I'm talking to exists, even if before the dialogue I know that it's me.

Is this something to worry about?

Could this be considered a mental disorder?

To be honest, I like it, regardless of what it makes me feel in the moment. Often, I talk to myself to educate myself and self-reflect, but in that way I described above.

Edited yesterday at 05:51 PM by Nemra

[Ulax]

@Nemra Just sounds like parts work to me.

[Nemra]

18 hours ago, Ulax said:

Just sounds like parts work to me.

It might be.

I could get frustrated, but in the end I would gain perspective.

[Nemra]

@Ulax, if I knew a little bit about you, I would start having conversations with myself as you. It's like I'm copying you to talk with myself. It doesn't matter if I do or don't have accurate information about you. It's like being an AI.

Edited yesterday at 06:23 PM by Nemra

[Ulax]

9 hours ago, Nemra said:

@Ulax, if I knew a little bit about you, I would start having conversations with myself as you. It's like I'm copying you to talk with myself. It doesn't matter if I do or don't have accurate information about you. It's like being an AI.

Okay I see. From a parts perspective I’d say that perhaps you have a part which has the role of impersonating other people to protect you in some way, ie predict other people’s reactions.