Dissociative Dialogue

[Nemra]

Every day I have internal dialogue for quite a while. When I talk to myself, I'm aware that I'm talking, but while I'm talking, I imagine that I'm talking to another person and thinking that person is listening. I even imagine myself answering my own questions from the perspective of the person listening. It can go very deep, like I might imagine what the person imagines of another person might imagine.

Also, I somewhat believe that the people that I imagine exist while having an internal dialogue.

I've been listening to trip reports on YouTube about Slavia and Datura. It seems that people in those states of mind make stuff up without knowing and then live in another reality for a while. I'm not saying it's completely like that, like my reality doesn't completely change, but while talking to myself, I think that the person that I'm talking to exists, even if before the dialogue I know that it's me.

Is this something to worry about?

Could this be considered a mental disorder?

To be honest, I like it, regardless of what it makes me feel in the moment. Often, I talk to myself to educate myself and self-reflect, but in that way I described above.

Edited Tuesday at 05:51 PM by Nemra

[Ulax]

@Nemra Just sounds like parts work to me.

[Nemra]

18 hours ago, Ulax said:

Just sounds like parts work to me.

It might be.

I could get frustrated, but in the end I would gain perspective.

[Nemra]

@Ulax, if I knew a little bit about you, I would start having conversations with myself as you. It's like I'm copying you to talk with myself. It doesn't matter if I do or don't have accurate information about you. It's like being an AI.

Edited Tuesday at 06:23 PM by Nemra

[Ulax]

9 hours ago, Nemra said:

@Ulax, if I knew a little bit about you, I would start having conversations with myself as you. It's like I'm copying you to talk with myself. It doesn't matter if I do or don't have accurate information about you. It's like being an AI.

Okay I see. From a parts perspective I’d say that perhaps you have a part which has the role of impersonating other people to protect you in some way, ie predict other people’s reactions.

[Hojo]

I think its normal. We all were forced into schizophrenia by learning how to read silently. This creates a voice in your head that will not stop. Just let it ride. If you want do it with every voice in your head including the one you think is you. Label the voice you think is you thinking as someone else and see if you can find yourself. You aren't any of the voices its just programming running its course. The human mind is capable of insane feats. You noticing them is good.

Edited Thursday at 12:21 AM by Hojo

[Nemra]

On 11/27/2024 at 7:58 AM, Ulax said:

Okay I see. From a parts perspective I’d say that perhaps you have a part which has the role of impersonating other people to protect you in some way, i.e. predict other people’s reactions.

I somewhat agree.

I have actively imagined multiple contexts of situations since I was a kid.

I guess, when exploring them, I'm making them more real.

[Princess Arabia]

Anything that's not harming you or others, taking away from your normal life in ways of functioning and is not a detriment to society and anything else along those lines shouldn't be a concern for alarm. We make up words for all these mental challenges we believe isn't normal because we have a desire to fit into society's norm. 

What you've described I don't see a problem with as it doesn't seem to be hurting you or anyone else. You'd be surprised what people are going through mentally in their heads and still functioning in society.

I have a name for my ego and I talk to it all the time. I'm not here to destroy the ego because I'm aware I'm not the ego but is only a character I've created to function in society. I talk to it in loving ways. I try to console it and it is my friend. We play hide and seek games and when I can't find something, I'll ask it where it is, and it leads me right to it. Sometimes I think it's the other way around where it's my so-called "higher self" that's talking to the ego. Either way, we have a rapport going and it's fun.