darkspring001

Should I drop out of school?

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I am a 19-year-old second-year creative writing student attending an art school in Florida, who doesn't know whether I should drop out or transfer schools.
The school itself is bad in terms of the major I have chosen to pursue, and other systemic issues I have dealt with attending for one and half years. I changed my major midway through my first year from illustration to creative writing because of the toxic work environment (pulling all-nighters, terrible professors, not being passionate about the work I was creating) and more. Although I do go to an art college, I thought it best to change my major in creative writing to write screenplays for film, instead of going into the film major that I found subpar and seemingly wasn’t the best education either. 


My first semester in creative writing was good, it was a breath of fresh air from illustration and I enjoyed having more time on my hands to live my life. But there was something that was gnawing at me to have chosen film instead, but because I have no experience in making films I was scared I might end up not liking it. Despite having a high passion for film and television, I chose creative writing out of the belief I would build the skills to become a writer for television or film. Fast forward a year later to creative writing, and I have only written short stories and taken liberal arts classes to fulfill my graduation requirements. I don't feel passionate about writing short stories or writing for novels, and while the creative writing program does have classes to take for screenplay writing, it is not the central focus.


The program was not what I thought it would be at all, with all my teachers being novelists, and working as editors for magazines. The program is also severely small with little to no networking, with only about 10-15  creative writing majors in the program, while it is a popular minor for students at the school but not a major. I feel terrible having made the decision to change into this major despite my best intentions, I am depressed, unmotivated, and feeling like a victim because my parents don’t want me to drop out without having a real job. I also feel paralyzed by indecision and don't know what the best choice is to make, I just know I am miserable in this school and in this program and I want to find the best way out without wasting money, time, and not deceiving myself about what I would do if I was not in college. I currently have no job so I have not been saving up since going back to school, and primarily been focusing on schoolwork. 

I have considered transferring schools altogether and going to another school to major in film, but I missed the spring deadlines and would have to apply for the fall. And because I go to an art school my credits may not transfer, meaning I may have to do four more years of school. Unless I go to another art school, but I am not sure if I want to go to another art school, that is small and has high costs.

I have been told it is worth it to start over again if I don’t like the major and feel like it won’t lead me to job prospects, and I had made it my goal to transfer. 
And I know film school won’t guarantee me a job, and I'm scared if I go into it I won't like it, or it won't be what I thought it would be similar to my experience here at that school. And the costs are expensive to go to one of those big schools like USC or NYU (I have a scholarship that could get me 2 years of college for free), however, I would have to do school for four more years, and I am not sure if I move to somewhere like L.A or New York at 20 years old. I know film is something you can learn on your own, and if I had enough self-discipline I could learn how to write screenplays on my own without the help of school. But moving schools to LA or NYC could guarantee more jobs and better networking than I get in Florida. But the cost of living is high and moving out there with a plan, job, or car would be a bad decision on my part.


I am not sure if I should drop out of school and save up money create a portfolio, and move to a city like L.A or if I should stay in school, transfer to college for in total of 6 years, and incur the debts of going to a film school. I feel like I am only staying in school for my parents' sake and not wasting the money they already invested with me going to school. Also if I go home I will go back to a small town, with no good jobs in the surrounding area. (I have no job, license, or car currently only savings from working over the summer.


For those wondering I would transfer to the film program at my school, but I truly despise the experience I have had in this school. It is a small school in the middle of nowhere Florida, where I have trouble making friends and having relationships, and I can’t see myself going to school here for another 4 years considering my dislike of the school itself and the high cost.


I have the life purpose course and have deliberated on directing/filmmaking to be my medium, but I don't have enough experience to know what I genuinely like for sure. 

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@Leo Gura What are your thoughts on art school? Do you think it is worth it for artists to go get a formal education in subjects like film?

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I hear that you  are confused, which is normal, I have been there, still am often.

But asking someone else to make a big life decision for you is like asking someone to raise your kids for you.

What do you really want out of life? If you knew the answer to that question you would have a better idea of the right path for you.

Warmly,

Paul


Waking Call The Inspiration, Music and Perspective for an Authentic Life.

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