Self-Inquiry/Awakening question

[Busta]

I started meditating about 2 years ago just with the aim of improving my concentration.After about 6 months I started doing open awareness sessions and I also started researching meditation as a spiritual tool. By the end of the year I was meditating for 30 to 50 minutes a day, one concentration session in the morning and one where I was trying to "observe observation" in the evening.

Unfortunately I wasn't able to maintain the habit with such high volume but I continued anyway and a few months ago I began to have experiences with a particular meditative state that I called "layer of awareness".

When I try to observe the observation I have an instant where I can observe it and what I was observing seems to "move away". But immediately afterwards I realize that the observation to the observation is something to be observed and because of that I can not be it, so I observe it and the same thing happens: it goes into the "background" (that's why I call them layers). But then I realize that observation to observation is something to be observed and the cycle continues. It usually takes less than a second to create another layer.

What I call layer is similar to when you have an emotion or pain but, due to a high level of concentration and consciousness, a detachment is created between what you are experiencing and you

The problem is that even if I keep chasing the observation of the observation I never find it.

 

Has this ever happened to anyone? I'm becoming more and more interested in the concept of awakening and I'm curious whether this could be a sign of being on the right path or not.

Thanks for any advice <3.

[Rafael Thundercat]

13 minutes ago, Busta said:

I started meditating about 2 years ago just with the aim of improving my concentration.After about 6 months I started doing open awareness sessions and I also started researching meditation as a spiritual tool. By the end of the year I was meditating for 30 to 50 minutes a day, one concentration session in the morning and one where I was trying to "observe observation" in the evening.

Unfortunately I wasn't able to maintain the habit with such high volume but I continued anyway and a few months ago I began to have experiences with a particular meditative state that I called "layer of awareness".

When I try to observe the observation I have an instant where I can observe it and what I was observing seems to "move away". But immediately afterwards I realize that the observation to the observation is something to be observed and because of that I can not be it, so I observe it and the same thing happens: it goes into the "background" (that's why I call them layers). But then I realize that observation to observation is something to be observed and the cycle continues. It usually takes less than a second to create another layer.

What I call layer is similar to when you have an emotion or pain but, due to a high level of concentration and consciousness, a detachment is created between what you are experiencing and you

The problem is that even if I keep chasing the observation of the observation I never find it.

 

Has this ever happened to anyone? I'm becoming more and more interested in the concept of awakening and I'm curious whether this could be a sign of being on the right path or not.

Thanks for any advice <3.

You basically is trying to grab your left hand using the left hand itself. 

[Hojo]

The second you try you fail. If you have ever closed your eyes an started to see images the second you try to see the image it stops. You gotta be brain dead.

[James123]

@Busta let go the one who has been meditating. 

[Yimpa]

2 hours ago, Rafael Thundercat said:

You basically is trying to grab your left hand using the left hand itself. 

I’ve got two left hands