Quitting Pornography and Tobacco Journal

[Someone here]

This is for my own benefit. There is not much to read in this journal.  This is just for my own personal development. Not for a reader other than me .

I'm realizing an increasing dependency on cigarettes, sugar,porn,music,video games to regulate my mood .I feel like absolute piece of shit whenever a day passes without some or all of these things .I'm confident to say I'm addicted to them .

This journal is just a public recoding of trying to quit these things for an entire year ..starting from today 14/11/2024 until Christmas of year 2025 . Then I will see where I will be moving from there .

I'm also going to stop posting in the main  forums. I will only stick to the journaling section until December 2025.

I'm not gonna quit music and video games as I do need something pleasurable to regulate my mood . I'm not ready for a complete monk mood .

So I'm going to quit cigarettes and pornography. 

There we go .

Today is day 1.

I will keep a day count here .

Edited Thursday at 04:45 PM by Someone here

[Someone here]

Day 1 done.#

[LSD-Rumi]

sorry to intrude on your journal but make sure to use nicotine patches or gum to decrease physical withdrawal symptoms.

[Someone here]

13 hours ago, LSD-Rumi said:

sorry to intrude on your journal but make sure to use nicotine patches or gum to decrease physical withdrawal symptoms.

Thanks for the advise .you are welcome to comment on the journal. But actually I don't want to substitute one addiction for another .I'm still going to use sugar and videos games as I mentioned. Because they are less harmful than porn and smoking. 

Edited Saturday at 03:27 PM by Someone here

[Someone here]

Day 2 done #.

[Someone here]

Relapse . I watched porn today for 2 hours .

Back to day 0.

But I didn't smoke . I think it's better to keep a separate record for each. 

Porn: day 0.

Smoking : day 2.

Edited Sunday at 07:18 PM by Someone here

[Someone here]

Smoked two ciggies Marlboro Red while taking a walk in the darkness of my town.

Back to zero . This shit is more difficult than I have thought . At this point I have no doubt that I have neurological addiction. Its not just a vice or something that I enjoy doing .it's something my whole freaking life depends on . 

Porn :day 0.

Cigarettes : day 0.

Edited yesterday at 05:28 PM by Someone here

[Beans]

Keep at it. Effort is the Siamese twin of success. 

[Someone here]

18 hours ago, Beans said:

Keep at it. Effort is the Siamese twin of success. 

Thanks for the uplifting comment . Appreciate it .