My True Purpose in Life

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So yes, this lesson is so important to learn and I am constantly learning it -this life is dualistic, whatever pleasure you experience, the universe will bring you an opposing energy you wont like. If I use drugs and have sex - drugs will disbalance my psyche or my chemicals and I will suffer a lot. Sex, pretty simple - got an std, had to spend time with people I really do not enjoy, spent a lot of money, so left broke, a lot of disappointment, so the story is always the same, I need to see through it, the pain of chasing something besides GOD, and then choose only God. 

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I'm happy that I've dived so deep into hedonistic pleasures of life - spent soo much money, went to clubs hundreds of times and in I feel satisfied with it now. It's always the same story - good and then bad. But the good is often shallow and the bad is actually bad. With a soulmate - now that's when you get an actually good experience, heavenly so - at first. And theeen does the hell begin and its even deeper than the bad part of the one night stands. So you can't win this game - I've tried. I'm good now.

 

I know what fashion, good body brings - pleasure and then pain. That's how the letting go happens - by experiencing it, seeing the pain of it and then deciding to drop it as it's not what I expected it to be - something amazing overall. Noo in the end you can't even call it good because of the pain that it brought. The same with DRUGS, psychedelic medicines even - they have huge backlashes, like psychotic breaks and so on. Keeping a good diet is soo important, and being healthy, meditating, being outside, but besides that - no extra "cheat codes" that will have a backlash. 

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When mystics talk about goinng above idols, they are saying That you need to drop your dopamine addictions. Because they are things of the world, thsy have a duality - they give u pleasure and then a backlash of Pain. I thought oh let me optimize things for pleasure - staying at home, not being in the drama of the world, just chilling, smoking, porn, social media, music, junkfood. But all of these destroyed me in some way. It’s either frying my nervous system and leaves me lethargic (couldnt even get out of bed without porn, porn can give some energy to move but without it I wouldnt have energy to get out of bed. Sooo damaging. And I thought going out to clubs and meaningless sex is bad. Actually, on demand sex at home foreevet is soo bad. This world is a prison for our Souls. Dopamine addicts us to the world and its exceptionally hard to transcend, there are withdrawl symptoms, but they get better. I dis perfect withdrawl From the mateix for a few months and it was amazing. Did bad things come up? Sure. Did I feel serenity and sometimes even see visions of Heaven and expetience bliss? Yes. Did I feel very stable

in myself? Yes. Still did mstbartion which hindered my progress. Sex is such a deep deep addiction in the human experience.  
 

its so dangerous because its so sneaky. You dont really see what it does to you in the larger sense, how it destroys your nervous system, your energy, your motivation and in the end, even your connection to God and ability to get enlightened.  
 

i see people doing tantric practices saying its for energy and love, but it’s just how the mind convinces itself that this is good and spiritual, when in truth it’s just the same addiction being put on a spirituality label. Connor Murphy with his pramnanda yoga does this.  
 

whrn I delete social media and stop porn I feel like a great fog has been liften from my mind. Like I was hypnotized by a magic spell of the matrix, inprisioned by it’s pleasures, my energy drained my the vampiric things of the world. 
 

i have to become angry at it and say no. This is not acceptable. I know it will be hard to drop it all forever but this is why I am here - to do it and come back home to God.   
 

diet is corr as well ofc, sativic diet is a must, food becomes us and chsnges our chemistry, it can heal, make us light and wnergetic or heavy lethargic and sick. 
 

 

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Yes, sex does change things in a relationship — in a bad way. The best relationship I had was when there was no sex - just caressing. There wasnt that animalistic aspect and it was amazing, much purer. Id call it naturally tantric. So I think that yes as Jesus said in ACIM sex should only be done for procreation, I dont think it’s wise to do it for pleasurr - it ends up destructive in the end / ruins the relationship. I know most will disagree but thats because they are so deeply addicted there’s no eay they can accept this. So even if I do have a person that’s vety spiritual and I can just see that this is a soulmate - I wont reject, but there wont be any sex, perhaps just some light caressing. Yes, this is what I want. It feels right. Oh not really. I looked at my mind and intuition now and I know that even that much pleasure through the bodies will bring pain. A truly pure telationship which I dont see any backlash of duality is one where we are joined in Purpose - to awaken - but not with bodies - as bodies are what keep us here - addicted to the matrix, the world created by the ego. 
 

mm yes it feels so right and honorable to simply see people as purely companions in the quest for truth, not for any other reason, and then it’s clear who to be with and who not to be with.
 

 I know some people who seem to be doing spiritual stuff but actually, they are just a spiritual ego, not truuly developed, just got theough osmosis things from me and they think they are spiritual, but they are 100% still in the dream and there is no gap in their mind which would allow for Spirit to say - let go of the dream. When I do tell them that they have to start letting things go they get mad and say - I think I can get enlightened through, with my desires, the letting go doesnt feel right. Well, it might not be the time to let go now, but you need to be conscious of the fact that you will have to at some point. 
 

I find that if I dedicate myself to enlightenment -  I cant even be around these “friends”. Because they are friends of the matrix, apart of maya, awakening is not in their destiny, they are not chosen. But they are temptations, agents in the dream that attempt to bring me down to their level. Scary scary, need to be careful. Basically all they say, the way they live, how they view life is the opposite of truth. Do I want to be affected by that? Because I am if I just spend time with them. No good. 

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Need to resert the nervous system to its natural state so that merely breathing is euphoric. And then be conscious about not slipping back. Yes then things will be more pleasant bexause I am sk sensitive but then the overall enjoyment of life will drop. Careful. 
 

the diality of this universe - the bigger the increase in dopamine, the lower it drops below baseline

and you feel bad. Look at the chart, literally shows waves of duality. Only God is above duality and only that can give me eternal pleasure without a dualistic backlash.

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true, society plays off of thay addiction for profit. It leaves you not only mentally broke but financially, too, because we pay for those addictions in cash - clotjing, clubs, and a million ither things. The matrix runs deep.

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Yes, even “spiritual connection” with people is an addiction. It’s all a dream, so if you get a dopamine hit from chocolate or from a human - the dynamic is the same - you will need more and more experience of the same thing to feel as good as before, the side-effects will become stronger and stronger and then something will break, become disfunctional, etc - eithet it’s porn, romantic relationships, social media - it’s all the same dualistic flow of this universe - pleasure from and object, then getting addicted to thay object, then needing more of it, then side effects become intense, then a breakdown and either a spiritual revolution or just another cycle of the same thing just in a different form. So now instead of an addiction to drugs it’s whay a person will see as healing - I now only play video games and social media and porn - lol - so nothing changed just the form of the addiction. This is so importsnt. Grasping this and doing your best to de-addict from the whole matrix is the path home to God.

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What’s interesting is how this type of content is not only something ai look at and it has no transformstive effect, but actually I do it after the realization. Most people will consume this content and move on. No! This has to be changed. It’s literally a life or death, or reincarnation, to be precise, matter. If you want to reach heaven - stop with the dopamine addictions of this universe. It will be hars but you Have to tryy!

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Yeh not going to clubs anymore, the stimulation there is other level, not only is there drugs booze and ultra loud music, but also soo much lust. A place of ultra dopamine release, and as a consequence, a big hangover and a destruction of the netvous system. Now you will need more druga more strimulation more sex to keep up the dopamine. Wow it’s literally programmed to destroy ourselves - this whole human chemistry and society. 

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So the whole dopamine system is related to motivation, so that’s the destructive side of it - it zaps you of motivation and makes you a mindless slave who doesnt even have the motivation or energy to unplug from the matrix. Not that it matters since its a maya, but it’s ultra important for the One to do it.

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So modern ascetisicm, where you enjoy the comfort but also detach is the highest form of self love, which might seem radical but only from the matrix POV, actually it’s coming back to our natural self.

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So dopamine is wired to be released when we get a kill from hunting, build a house, etc. but now the whole system is fcked up because tou can be in bed and release as much dopamine as someone who just conquered a kingdom. 
 

So porn is literally having a harem on demand with new girls everyday. Ofc its addicting. Tbh I dont see hoe you can manage this wisely - I think the best way to go about this is to try and try and try to stay conscious and go beyond this addiction cycle in the matrix until you re-train your system and it allows you ti be focused on God. It takes effort and will. This human game wasn’t design by God, but by ego, so we have to learn how to outplay it and it will be hard.

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When I letgo of the Matrix, after a month or two I begin to wake up in bliss. I guess my body is full of energy of dipamine and it just flows so beautifully. So a blisfull life is possible, considering it’s a life of stillness and naturalness, 

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Yesterday I decided to make my life’s purpose let go of the matrix as best as I can and immediately started dreaming my biological father.

i think he symbolizes God the Father in my mind and it’s showing that this Is the correct choice, as in the dreams I  playing, chilling with him on vacation. A re-connection of the Son and the Father. 

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Hmm so wakingup requires a certain chemical coctail, but if I oversleep, then it gets out if whack and the body thinks I need more sleep and then the sleep chemicals can or seem for me, to seep into the waking time, so Im always tired. So if I overlaeep the feeling is that even when I wake up I’m still sleepy, the opposite effect to ehat I want. Spent 14hrs in bed. I know why that happens - fried nervous system, due to social media, porn, junk food, music, enviroment. 

 
 
i know it’s not possible to let go of maya quickly and all at once, it’s a life-long project, so I must have a strong determination aaand also be gentle with myself, allowing the addiction to decrease day by day, week by week. Doing it quickly will not work long-term, it’s a slow burn. 
 

I cut off porn, junk food and drugs for good, but I will allow myself to watch an episode of anime daily, just a bit of comedy on yt, and aome coffee at work 2x per week. Perhaps some healing music here and there. No more shopping for sure, got enough clothing to last my whole life, literally. If I need to release that wnergy once a month or something that’s fine as well, dont count it as a fail, just part of the healing.

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I noticed that when I'm high on weed or other drugs, in that state my mind is impaired but I don't know it. Only in retrospect do I see that what I said and did was stupid. I never want to be in that state again, ever. It's a degrading, unhonorable, disrespectful thing to do for myself. I will never do it again. It hurts me in so many ways. Because it has a positive side to it, and it is from this dualistic universe, it will have a negative side of a similar scope. And I love it, and I hate it, and I can't handle it anymore. It's a stupid thing to do. I much prefer walking, talking, and being wise, peaceful, having a sharp mind. That's what I want. I want to make wise decisions, speak wisely, peacefully. No more of this stupid, degraded mind due to drugs.

 

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Telling a underdeveloped ego that life is a dream is a mistake. He will most likely laugh at you and scoff at the idea, but if you have enough authority and he accepts it, then if he’s not conencted to  Spirit, then if he had low empathy before, now there will be absolutely zero.  
 

To be honest, I am the true dreamer, the only one, so telling others that they are dreaming is a lie. I shouldn’t do that. What I should do is say that this experience is a dream. If they ask whose dreaming say them, just to avoid conflict, because dream characters atrack you like agents in the matrix when you tell them you are dreaming them and they dont really exist. But overall, keep this truth on the low, it backfired to tell my dream characters that it’s their dream. It’s not in their script to awaken so when I say it they just throw the idea away or become arrogant dream characters, like Leo.  

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If I let go of lust can I be friends with someone whose life is all about lust? I probably can, but I don’t want to. Ideas are infectious, and I am barely holding onto this pure lifestyle as is, I don’t need a negative influence in my life. Bye. 
 

this always happens when I decide to let go of the Matrix - friends that were with me when I was involved in the Matrx lose all appeal and I want to disconnect from them as quickly as possible.

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so timely: