My True Purpose in Life

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Yeh this current type of life simply isn't conducive to higher states, to PRESENCE. it's a specific lifestyle where you act consciously, wisely, direct your energy only to pure and positive and white and blissfully, no more lower-realm distractions; 

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 28:00 soo important, I saw people believing in demons and ego, and yes, they do begin o appear and exist if you believe in them. that's a huge mistake, never do that. No ego. no demonds. no karma. all forgiven. innocence. presence. son of God. dreamer of the dream. 

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yeees:
 

 

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“Angel” - M.K.Čiurlionis 

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Blessed to be able to listen to these pieces: 

https://open.spotify.com/track/7myPpOqmwwanw03CkZEtqn?si=p2eIK2HjQJOX6cRNgLWdNA 

https://open.spotify.com/track/2XdyZQ9jI1E4aX9xUp1263?si=hPZNuYbSRSO0iGkEtds_vA 

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I feel fullness when I am Holly Spirit 

there is nothing lacking inside of me 

 

the space is full of Self itself and when Self simply rests in Himself he is perfectly fullfilled. Nothing is lacking. 
 

finances flow efortlessly when you feel whole, when you feel broken inside -   financially, you become broke. 
 

 Dreams are our reflections. Let us delve and live from Being which is always fulfilled and wealthy. Then finances will reflect that state.

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What an idea - stop trying to control a single piece of life. Choose to be conscious and let all else flow with no resistance. Be guided by intuition. By feelings. Divine Silence is Magical.

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A thin layer of snow covers the forest 

The Spirit of the woods invites me to be still.

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Woooooowwww  

 

It’s what I’d call enlightenment. Love her wow. I am afraid of a session with her as she will call out my BS. Means have to do it.

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So what’s the next step? It seems like that’s the point - no note steps. It’s a step back into Now, where there are no steps, only Flow. Love it. So mysterious and fun. 

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True ending of The Matrix: 

 

Neo enters the architects room. 
 

There, he finds himself, only with white hair. Simbolising not only wisdom but Oneness. 
 

The old Neo speaks: 

You are seeing a program you pre-wrote yourself. I am not sitting in front of you now, Neo. I am the past you, who decided to create this twisted game and fall asleep into it. 
 

It’s your dream, Neo. A play you wrote and are now living it. It’s all a simulation within your mind. The simulation reflects your beliefs and true feelings.  
 

You created the Matrix, the agents, the war and being the saviour within the war. The Messiah. Ahh the games we play, Neo. 
 

Movie ends. Credits do not roll. Silence. Out of the darkness letters apear: You are the author of this movie and the movie of your life. What life will you live? Who will you be? A sexual guru? A 22nd century monk? The canvas is blank.  Your desire is the paint.  
 

What if you dropped all control and decided to follow your feelings alone?
 

      The great Unknown is ahead.  
 

There is no road and nowhere to turn back to. The path you came in no longer exists. It never did, it’s all now. No past and no future, only enjoyment of the Now. 

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It's true; the longer you use it, the more the side effects creep up, and the positive effect goes down. Do I feel good when I'm high? Well, it accentuates pleasure, so porn is amazing, but is porn good? Or does it overload my nervous system and leave it drained and then all else seems dull?

With weed -there's a dullness to that state, like I'm under water. It does fix one chemical imbalance but then creates another as well. I hate not being sharp-minded. So, stopping it immediately. 

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omg, I know intuitively this is true. Can't depend on mushrooms or weed. Need to fix myself naturally. 

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Yess, I know the type of deeper, spiritual sex he talks about it with a spiritual girl. I also couldn't sustain only this caressing type of sexuality, which is deep and peaceful; I was addicted to the more animalistic sex and releasing the energy. I need to see that it's not all good, the sex thing - I feel like it's even better, at least for me now, to not ever have sex, perhaps some light touching, caressing. Yees, that's what I desire the most and I think it's the deepest form of sexuality - it has various forms, just the highest one I've seen is more like caressing, it's tantric, spiritual, not animalistic. Yeeees.   

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uh oh why is he exposing me  

He said you can't even get into a deep meditation if you're still lusting. And lusting can be as simple as dressing nicely to impress others, he calls it edging. It's a part of lust. I do that. i knew it's bad, just did;t know how. I Thought I liked passion and compliments, but it's actually just another form of LUST. He also said what is meditation - if not a space between your true self and this 3d experience of human life - wow so true, and how can you have space when you are Lusting? It's the primary thing that attaches you deeply to this dream. 

The title is amazing and feels true - lust burns up spiritual fruits.

He said that sexual energy is the most potent energy the body makes. It allows us to be present. we don't have any inner strength if we are stuck in lust. We wont have soundness of body to have a meditation. SOOO TRUE. i NEVER MEDITATE a lot during the day, I am not conscious if I am lost in LUST. 


Yees, lust is the CORE ISSUE in life that causes not only nervous disbalance, but also disconnects from Spirit, makes us lose touch with our Spiritual Self. And when that ground is shaken, lost, destroyed, then all other little unhealthy habits come in after much easier, because the core is destroyed. 

Lust is... wow. it's the core of the human condition, the thing that destroys spirituality. If we could just let go of it - of trying to be beautiful, look good, dress nicely to impress, have a good-looking body for others, have a nice house for others, and so on - it's all based on lust - that feels like a level of development where you are very close to enlightenment. It feels sooo freeing to doo. Soo healthy for the soul. i;m doing it now. I see how it hurts me - it disconnects me from God, it makes me lose energy, it makes my mind dull, it makes me chase, it makes me disappointed, it makes me experience shame, even sometimes. It makes me lethargic. If I just didn't have this - everything would flow 10x smoothly. My meditation would be better and deeper - I wouldn't go to clubs, wouldn't feel disappointed, wouldn't hang out with girls I don't like just because of sex accept, which I don't even want, I like the chase, but that's part of the lust. I will have much more money, I won't have to work more or do anything else - what I have now Is enough for living a monk-life lifestyle or purity and no lust. No need for beautiful clothing, which saves sooo much money. So it's all around the best choice - letting go of lust. God help me do it, please. 

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Omg, he also said, "I thought it was all about meditation. Just meditate; don't look at other areas of your life. All will be fixed if you are meditative." 

I thought that as well, but it's not true! You have to change your life to get closer to God - it's a life of no lust. it's probably, well, very likely, the core of spirituality- the letting go of lust. completely. that changes the whole dynamic of you with life, now, instead of you being in life and chasing shit, now you have a lot of space between yourself and life. 

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Oh wow it's so true - when you try to let go of low-vibrational habits, like junk food, porn, and so on, then the mind becomes enraged, the system, the matrix thinks - oh, he's trying to escape the matrix, let's send another 1,000 troops to stop him. Like Neo in Matrix we have to deal with more and more the stronger we become. 

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Let me try. I plan to do this for the rest of my life, but let me just check back in 2,3,7 days. 

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I haven't listened yet but I hope he says - your desire for a soulmate is what's keeping you stuck in maya, it takes you await from Spirit. Hoffmesiter basically said the same thing, how it's one of the primary things that are keeping us asleep - this chase for a soulmate. Need to drop it together with lust and I'm on my way to a hiiiigh high state, combine it with sexual abstinence and good diet and meditation - wow.

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Yeees, I already had a deep, "perfect" soulmate experience. I'm blessed to have experienced it, but it's not God and it has HUGE drawbacks. Nothing in the world, I guess even psychedelics, can work long term without a backlash of pain, as Jesus said - it's impossible to seek for pleasure through the body and not find pain. Serve SPirit or Body. Ofc take care of the body perfectly, but he means don't lust, don't chase, drop all sexual-related activities - see where they got you to - working, disappointed, lusting but never satisfied, lethargic, life feels meaningless ,having bad experiences with weed -- I've tasted enough of these desires. I feel like it's so helpful to fully, deeply dive in to the hedonistic lifestyle, with girls, money, etc, just to experience those desires and see what comes about - usually fun, but a lot of confusion, disappointment, too. It's just a game of duality. If you want the duality to end and experience deep serenity and bliss - only God can give that. 

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