My Experiences Of Death

[ExploringReality]

Context. Since I was a young boy, I have been fascinated by being alive as a conscious being, going to family funerals for relatives and loved ones passing away, questioning what anything is for the sake of seeing how far or deep I can understand something, or nothing lol. My brother's and dad would be telling me to move on already, but then saying this would spark an already existing fire of curiosity and a desire for sticking my mind into Reality, or have Reality stick itself into my Mind. So fast forward this theme starting in early childhood till my early adulthood, I had my first breakthrough experience on psilocybin cubensis which immediately something happened to me during the trip. This was not a vision, my consciousness was pulled out from my body/brain instantly into a character inside the television that was on while I was tripping. I realized being this character in the television that it was so real like the reality I am in right now. It did not feel like I am in a television or this is all pixels in a screen, that was my life and I knew nothing else. Then consciousness went back in my body and I immediately knew when I came back to focus that the mystery of reality was revealed that consciousness is the source of experiences, it creates everything and this experience I am having, you are having is Consciousness hiding from itself to pretend it did not create separation, Maya and deception. It's like the ultimate imposter. The cosmic joke is when you suspect there is something funny going on, that consciousness is playing a trick on itself, then when you pull back the curtain on what you think and question what this whole shit is about, what the Truth is. It's revealed. Not to you because the joke is that there is no You, not even an Other!!!!! It's fucked up because there is only God playing as We, Us, Them, and anything that makes up reality. It's fucking with itself. It's Insane to the ego because the ego is built by God but the ego is like that child with a fake steering wheel and believes it's in control. God is constantly playing a game of hide and seek and it doesn't stop. Also the epiphany of life as a dream comes from the realization that after the suffering and death of the body, you awaken as a disembodied awareness. Like a dream, after Awakening, "you think and are sad for the ones that are left behind" how they will mourn over your dead body not knowing it is only a dream of physical reality. The Ultimate Self tricks itself with fantasy and dreams to make the cosmic drama horrendous, it gets lost and attached to fictional characters and plots, lost in a maze of its own imagining. But after this Awakening, the knowledge of death filled me with compassion for this experience, embrace of living and not using this insight for spiritual bypassing or neglect of life. To dream consciously and to create the best life I can, to stay healthy, respect the body and paradoxically to love the dream, because even though ego and world is an illusion I choose to take it seriously and be fully engaged with it. Fuck it. What attracted me to you Leo is your exploration and integrity of exploring reality and sharing the fact that yes reality is imaginary but instead of being nihilistic and depressed, let's create, play the game, self actualize. Be of the world yet not bound by it. One love.

[Someone here]

@ExploringReality amazing thanks for sharing. 

Can you achieve this with weed/cannabis? I've got some and thinking of getting high af while contemplating precisely this part:

1 hour ago, ExploringReality said:

after Awakening, "you think and are sad for the ones that are left behind" how they will mourn over your dead body not knowing it is only a dream of physical reality. The Ultimate Self tricks itself with fantasy and dreams to make the cosmic drama horrendous, it gets lost and attached to fictional characters and plots, lost in a maze of its own imagining

 

[Razard86]

5 hours ago, Someone here said:

@ExploringReality amazing thanks for sharing. 

Can you achieve this with weed/cannabis? I've got some and thinking of getting high af while contemplating precisely this part:

 

You can achieve it with anything that can alter consciousness, but some things work better/are more effective. It is thoroughly based on your individual body's reaction, and your comfortability with deconstruction and acceptance with deconstruction. Can you accept yourself as imaginary, can you accept the fact that there is no difference between fiction and non fiction. If you can then your mind can open and be fluid enough to have that experience.

[Someone here]

1 hour ago, Razard86 said:

You can achieve it with anything that can alter consciousness, but some things work better/are more effective. It is thoroughly based on your individual body's reaction, and your comfortability with deconstruction and acceptance with deconstruction. Can you accept yourself as imaginary, can you accept the fact that there is no difference between fiction and non fiction. If you can then your mind can open and be fluid enough to have that experience.

OK thanks . I'm rather surprised that you didn't trynna sell me "you're not the real deal..you're fake ..you're mentally masturbating etc".

Hopefully from now on let's be on friendly terms ..what do you say ?

BTW is smoking weed really as potent as tripping balls on LSD or DMT and that kind of stuff ? It sure expands your mind but it doesn't fuck around a lot with the content of your consciousness. 

Edited November 13 by Someone here

[Breakingthewall]

1 hour ago, Someone here said:

BTW is smoking weed really as potent as tripping balls on LSD or DMT and that kind of stuff ? It sure expands your mind but it doesn't fuck around a lot with the content of your consciousness. 

For me it is, but after I had breakthroughs with the others. Now weed is one of the most powerful substances to open the mind to the unlimited , but could be just relaxing, just confusing, paranoid, etc. Depends of your vibration 

[Someone here]

12 minutes ago, Breakingthewall said:

For me it is, but after I had breakthroughs with the others. Now weed is one of the most powerful substances to open the mind to the unlimited , but could be just relaxing, just confusing, paranoid, etc. Depends of your vibration 

The only time I smoked a joint it was made in Costa Rica and it just made me feel ecstacy and satisfaction. No insights .just basking in being and chilling out .I don’t get any psychedelic-like effects even though I have not tried classical psychedelics before but judging based on trip reports and the videos I see from YT.