My first experience with bufo

[Daniel123]

My first experience with bufo occurred about two weeks after completing my first dark retreat, the effects of which still lingered, putting me in a good state of mind. Having just started to dabble in psychedelics this year, I decided to attend an official ceremony instead of trying to go all alone for the first time with such a powerful substance. Allow me set the stage a bit and describe the ceremony.

Upon arriving at the location where the ceremony was to take place, I was warmly greeted and escorted to a waiting room, where over the next half hour, ten more people would join me.

When the time came to enter the ceremonial room, my gaze immediately fell on the young female shaman, who radiated such love, kindness, warmth and security and gave me a long motherly hug. I immediately knew I was placing my life in good hands.

After an introduction by the shaman, each of us was allowed to express our intention for the day. The correct breathing technique was practiced to make inhaling from the pipe as effective as possible. This was followed by an exercise in holotropic breathing, which allowed the last bit of tension to leave the body and prepare the mind. Each participant received their own glass pipe to hold close to their heart while staying consciously connected to their intention for the experience.

The shaman went seemingly at random to the participants and administered the medicine. The first woman to inhale the smoke sank onto her mattress and kept saying, “No, no, stop, please help me,” which briefly raised my level of nervousness. What had I gotten myself into? I tried to concentrate on my intention. I just had to avoid resisting the experience, let go and allow whatever was to come.

 

Suddenly, the shaman sat in front of me, I handed her the pipe, and I began the deep breathing. Then everything happened very quickly. In one long, drawn-out breath, I inhaled the smoke. Even before I had finished the inhalation, the medicine began to take effect. I was supposed to hold the air for ten seconds, but after two seconds, I had lost control of my body. The shaman pulled my sleep mask over my eyes and laid me on my back. I heard myself exhale.

With incredible speed, my experience deepened, and everything familiar faded away. I was no longer human, though that’s not quite accurate, for there was no longer any past in which I had ever been human. There was no future in which I would ever be human again either; all memories were erased. I was in a completely timeless and spaceless place made of pure being. Pure direct experience, completely without abstractions and concepts. A grand being brimming with profundity, life and potential. I was pure awareness of this single timeless, infinite moment and completely filled with a love that far outshines the most beautiful human love. I felt a profound connection with everything that is and is not.

The sound of my exhalation formed the sweetest background music, which shifted into a soundless melody, so beautiful as if angels were singing, yet so still and submerged that no one could disturb it. I was completely boundless and fulfilled. There was no lack of anything, and the mere concept of lack — if it existed in this moment — would have been laughable. I understood the entire universe, there was no mystery before me. I knew everything by being everything. I knew all, without needing pictures or explanations or details. Everything was crystal clear and obvious in a strange yet deeply familiar way.

 

From one moment to the next, I was human again. I instantly knew where I was, just as quickly as I had forgotten it. My mind re-engaged within a second. My first thought was, “The mind can never comprehend this; no human could ever grasp it.” Within a single second, I was infinitely far removed from the experience that had just lasted an eternity and that I was so close to as to be one with it. Everything I had just understood vanished within a single second. My mind was far too limited to even begin to grasp the greatness of it all. All the talks of spiritual teachers made sense now. Being it was the only way to really understand it.

I was overcome with a deep emotion and tore the sleep mask from my eyes. I began to weep out of awe at the beauty I had just witnessed. Shortly afterward, my crying turned into loud laughter in disbelief at what had just occurred. I looked around. More than half of the participants were still seated on their mattresses, waiting to receive the medicine. I couldn’t believe the ceremony was still ongoing, even though I had been gone for literally eternity. The shaman looked at me and nodded knowingly. I felt that she understood at that moment exactly what I had just experienced and her smile was the only way to really communicate it, because no words will ever do it justice. It was very clear to me, why God is talked about best in poetry, because it defies all explanation.

 

I am so deeply grateful for this opportunity, the hosts, you who is reading this, this forum and Leo. I would never have had even the notion to have this experience and I would have missed the most beautiful thing in my life. From the bottom of my heart, thank you all!

[Malelekakis]

thank you. Great experience.

[OBEler]

@Daniel123 Wow that was great to read! What do you think now about bufo? Would you be ready after this good experience to jump in again for the next bufo tomorrow if you would have the opportunity and time?

[integration journey]

Wow❤️

[Daniel123]

15 hours ago, OBEler said:

@Daniel123 Wow that was great to read! What do you think now about bufo? Would you be ready after this good experience to jump in again for the next bufo tomorrow if you would have the opportunity and time?

Thank you! That is an interesting question. Right after the ceremony, I had the feeling that it would take me a long time to want to do again. The experience was just so grand and intense that I felt I need a lot of time processing everything. Even though, I had no ill effects like dizziness or a general hangover or anything like that.

Now that a few days have passed, I feel like I could do it again soon, but I also feel I want to integrate some things first and I have no NEED to do it again soon. Interestingly, I get more scared thinking about doing it again than I was the first time. Maybe now the ego knows that it will die in the process and it gets terrified of the thought?

I am also a bit scared that the next time could be more challenging. The other participants reported more of a struggle during their trip.

[What Am I]

Really nice report. Just a couple questions.

Was there an experience of visuals of any type? Have you had any reactivations?

5 minutes ago, Daniel123 said:

Interestingly, I get more scared thinking about doing it again than I was the first time.

This is pretty common. It's hard to understand what you're in for the first time you do it.

[Daniel123]

14 minutes ago, What Am I said:

Really nice report. Just a couple questions.

Was there an experience of visuals of any type?

Thank you. For me, there were no visual effects at all, as far as I remember.

14 minutes ago, What Am I said:

Have you had any reactivations?

I am not quite sure what this means. I think about the experience all the time now and sometimes I feel like I relive parts of it, although with much less of an intensity. Sometimes I also feel like I smell and taste the bufo smoke during the day.

Edited November 13 by Daniel123

[What Am I]

11 minutes ago, Daniel123 said:

I am not quite sure what this means. I think about the experience all the time now and sometimes I feel like I relive parts of it, although with much less of an intensity. Sometimes I also felt like I smelled and tasted the bufo smoke during the day.

!!!

Jeez, lol. I'm surprised nobody gave you a primer on reactivations before serving you a breakthrough dose. Yeah, it's possible you can be essentially pulled back into the unitive experience, even days after your last 5-MeO-DMT usage. Different people have varying susceptibility, but it's relatively common that some form of reactivation happens to everyone. The events you're describing would be mini-reactivations. It can get way more intense.

Here's some additional info, as well as ways to handle it should it occur.

https://cdn.prod.website-files.com/5dab753665b2d985ff08d69b/5dab753665b2d9d9c808d6cd_Integration-Guidelines-CONCLAVE-28.05.18.pdf

And this site is good for other general info relating to 5-MeO-DMT.

https://www.theconclave.info/

Edited November 13 by What Am I

[Daniel123]

@What Am I I will read through this, thanks for sharing! Up until now it has not been negatively affecting me at least.

I was told that the medicine will work its magic especially over the next few days and potentially the next few weeks, but not exactly how or what this entails. I've been told that dreams will probably get more vivid and intense, but this has not been so in my case (so far).

[What Am I]

17 minutes ago, Daniel123 said:

@What Am I I will read through this, thanks for sharing! Up until now it has not been negatively affecting me at least.

I was told that the medicine will work its magic especially over the next few days and potentially the next few weeks, but not exactly how or what this entails. I've been told that dreams will probably get more vivid and intense, but this has not been so in my case (so far).

Sure, happy to share.

Reactivations aren't necessarily a bad thing. It's my understanding that they're part of a natural purification process, and those who become especially successful at meditation experience something similar. It'd just be good for you to be more aware of their potential to be disruptive. I've heard of it happening at unfortunate times, such as when someone is driving.

[Daniel123]

2 hours ago, What Am I said:

I've heard of it happening at unfortunate times, such as when someone is driving.

That's definitely scary. Good to be aware of these possibilities.

[OBEler]

4 hours ago, What Am I said:

Sure, happy to share.

Reactivations aren't necessarily a bad thing. It's my understanding that they're part of a natural purification process, and those who become especially successful at meditation experience something similar. It'd just be good for you to be more aware of their potential to be disruptive. I've heard of it happening at unfortunate times, such as when someone is driving.

I read probably over 200 trip reports of 5 Meo DMT so far over 11 years and never ever someone mentioned that reactivations can happen while you are driving or other risky activities. That's not the nature of reactivations which only occur if you are in a safe place. Your body isn't stupid.

Don't spread such rumors.

Edited November 13 by OBEler

[What Am I]

11 minutes ago, OBEler said:

I read probably over 200 trip reports of 5 Meo DMT so far over 11 years and never ever someone mentioned that reactivations can happen while you are driving or other risky activities. That's not the nature of reactivations which only occur if you are in a safe place. Your body isn't stupid.

Don't spread such rumors.

Good sir, I present to you your 201st.

This is the example I was thinking of when I made the comment. I have no idea if it's a common occurrence, but it's one example where it happened.

Honestly though, when I've had my own super intense reactivations, it didn't feel as if they'd have any mercy on me depending on my current activity. But it's possible you're right. I've never been driving when it happened.

 

[Leo Gura]

@Daniel123

[bliss54]

great to hear your experience

I have my first ceremony next sunday

[Daniel123]

18 minutes ago, bliss54 said:

great to hear your experience

I have my first ceremony next sunday

@bliss54 Fantastic, I wish you a pleasant journey and would love to hear your experience afterwards, if you are willing to share!

[Bogdan]

Reading trip reports like these always brings me to tears. Thank you for sharing, @Daniel123 !

[Daniel123]

@Bogdan  My pleasure, thank you for reading!

[Tboy]

Wonderful report, thank you. Can I ask the dosage they gave you?

[Daniel123]

@Tboy  Thank you. To be perfectly honest, I have no idea how high the dose was exactly.