Life Purpose Synchronicity

[jack k]

yesterday something very profound happened to me. Earlier in the day I was mediating and had a deep intuitive feeling that my life purpose was to alleviate as much suffering as I could in the world, and that I wanted a job where I could do this and work with people. Specifically dying people is what came to mind. Anyways I was on my way to subway before I had to go to work (boring, unfulfilling 9 to 5), and the whole car ride was just thinking about how much I wanted to dedicate my life and time to alleviate suffering, and it felt really good, like for the first time I KNEW what I wanted to do, what my life purpose was. And so i got into subway and as soon as I walked in a man came right up to me shook my hand and told me his name. right from the start i could tell he was very high on something other than weed. Maybe very drunk. His eyes were glossed over, and he was stumbling and mumbling. I knew he was suffering deeply. He looked like he was about to cry and told me he was having a rough day. He said he had been jumped and they beat him up pretty good. He had a terrible gash on his thumb that was dirty and bandaged up very poorly. I was anxious because its scary being compassionate and loving towards people that aren't acting "normally" in society. The people in subway were annoyed and watching him like it was a funny show, so my ego was telling me not to take to much to this man. But I just put my hand on his shoulder and was just there, present with him. Not getting involved in his karma, and just told him to hang in there everything is going to be ok. He asked me to pray for him and have him in his thoughts. As i left subway i got into my car and just started crying. For at that moment it hit me how much suffering there is in the world and how deeply people can actually suffer. But I had an undeniable feeling that this was a message from the universe that this is what I need to do. It affected me so profoundly i can't really describe it. But in that moment in the car everything felt so perfect and beautiful, like my existence had meaning. And that the meaning of life is to grow with and through suffering.

 

But now its the next day and I feel stuck. I don't know what jobs I could go for so i could work with suffering people. I dropped out of college but I'm not totally apposed to going back. It would just be hard. Does anyone have any recommendations on jobs or maybe even volunteer work I could do? Advice? thanks dudes!