I want to die

[Spiritual Warfare]

Even if it’s a simulation, a dream, a game, or anything of that sort, this does not change the fact that experiences such as being burned alive or tortured by a cartel are horrific and brutal realities that can and do happen to people. The pain of such experiences does not become any less real, even if they are unreal. Similarly, losing your entire family in an accident is a tragedy that remains devastating, regardless of the context.

If consciousness is responsible for all of this as part of some game, it raises intriguing questions about the nature of consciousness itself. The prevailing belief seems to suggest that pure consciousness, in its non-dual perfection, lacks nothing. This leads one to wonder whether the desire to engage in play arises from a need for entertainment, implying that consciousness is not entirely content simply being. Does this mean that consciousness seeks to do something in order to alleviate boredom or escape from loneliness?

In this context, life often feels like a torture chamber, a trap. I frequently feel deceived, surrounded by negativity in a world that seems to go nowhere. Prejudice, wealth inequality, and homelessness are pervasive issues. Whatever improves here often seems to worsen, and this cycle is likely to continue until it ultimately ends.

I believe I would not experience boredom if I had everything I ever wanted. What I truly desire is to create my own world, where I can express all of my creative talents without any outside interference and without the existence of any form of evil.

[Sugarcoat]

You’re speaking as if consciousness has a will. I don’t believe it does. Everything exists including horrible things just because it happens to appear for no reason I believe. I can relate to your title though. I’ve been having a hard time lately . Embracing the ugly aspects of life, the suffering is the hardest thing one can do. Many days I just want to die too so I feel you there. What we can do though is to try to create the best out of our situation as best we can 

Edited Monday at 08:28 PM by Sugarcoat

[Spiritual Warfare]

Just now, Sugarcoat said:

You’re speaking as if consciousness has a will. I don’t believe it does. Everything exists including horrible things just because it happens to appear for no reason I believe. I can relate to your title though. I’ve been having a hard time lately . Embracing the ugly aspects of life, the suffering is the hardest thing one can do. Many days I just want to die too so I feel you there. What we can do though is to try to create the best out of our situation as best we can 

I give up…

[Sugarcoat]

1 minute ago, Spiritual Warfare said:

I give up…

What you gonna do? 

[ChrisZoZo]

4 minutes ago, Spiritual Warfare said:

I give up

Give up hardcore trying to depress yourself.

[Spiritual Warfare]

2 minutes ago, ChrisZoZo said:

I can tell you a response but you just reject it. Do all you care about if posting your opinions to just reject everything.

Why should I listen to you? What do you have to offer? Nothing. You can only speculate. If you don’t know exactly why existence is the way it is or if Jesus was a madman or if I will burn in hell or what exactly will happen to me when I die and what words will come to my mind just as I die, then I will not listen to you. I want to know 100 percent, not 99 percent.

[Sugarcoat]

@Spiritual Warfare you’re looking for satisfactory answers, those are hard to find I’ve noticed.

[Spiritual Warfare]

3 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

What you gonna do? 

Crying inside for the rest of my life. I’m too afraid to take my own life.

[Spiritual Warfare]

Just now, Sugarcoat said:

@Spiritual Warfare you’re looking for satisfactory answers, those are hard to find I’ve noticed.

I know, but I need them.

[Sugarcoat]

Just now, Spiritual Warfare said:

Crying inside for the rest of my life. I’m too afraid to take my own life

I had this thought today that I don’t think suicide is such a big of a deal as it’s made to be. We didn’t chose to be birthed and shouldn’t have to stay alive if we don’t want to. Imagine how much suffering could be ended if it was easier to kill oneself, maybe helped medically. Some cases can be very hopeless for the person, so I think getting help to die should be more accessible. But I’m guessing it’s a controversial opinion. 

[ChrisZoZo]

4 minutes ago, Spiritual Warfare said:

Why should I listen to you? What do you have to offer? Nothing. You can only speculate. If you don’t know exactly why existence is the way it is or if Jesus was a madman or if I will burn in hell or what exactly will happen to me when I die and what words will come to my mind just as I die, then I will not listen to you. I want to know 100 percent, not 99 percent.

Forgot me you don’t listen to anyone. All you care about is depressing yourself. Do it depress yourself no one‘s gonna change you no one‘s gonna stop you.

[Spiritual Warfare]

4 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

I had this thought today that I don’t think suicide is such a big of a deal as it’s made to be. We didn’t chose to be birthed and shouldn’t have to stay alive if we don’t want to. Imagine how much suffering could be ended if it was easier to kill oneself, maybe helped medically. Some cases can be very hopeless for the person, so I think getting help to die should be more accessible. But I’m guessing it’s a controversial opinion. 

I agree, but the problem is also the unknown. Life might get worse if we end it. This existence sucks badly.

[Spiritual Warfare]

3 minutes ago, ChrisZoZo said:

Forgot me you don’t listen to anyone. All you care about is depressing yourself. Do it depress yourself no one‘s gonna change you no one‘s gonna stop you.

It is obvious that you know how depression works. It is not something one chooses.

[Sugarcoat]

1 minute ago, Spiritual Warfare said:

I agree, but the problem is also the unknown. Life might get worse if we end it. This existence sucks badly.

You mean if you incarnate into something bad?

[ChrisZoZo]

@Spiritual Warfare 90% on this people planet can help you get out this mess you if you actually listen. Find a therapist and get out u can do it.

[ChrisZoZo]

1 minute ago, Spiritual Warfare said:

It is obvious that you know how depression works. It is not something one chooses

I got out of it before In my life. 

[PurpleTree]

Somebody move this thread to the mental health section.

[ChrisZoZo]

You think you’re the only one who has it and incurable? Watch this. 
 

 

[Spiritual Warfare]

2 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

You mean if you incarnate into something bad?

Yes, or that I will be tortured by God for eternity just because I did not believe in Jesus as the savior of humanity.

[Sugarcoat]

I strongly believe there is hope in your situation for improvement even if I don’t know much about what you’re going through. The brain is malleable.