I don’t care about bliss

[Sugarcoat]

3 hours ago, An young being said:

Enlightenment in my opinion is all about being contended and being in a state free of attachment. It's about being in acceptance with what you are and  experiencing life without being enslaved to the selfish tendencies of the ego and  resistance to life. But generally enlightened people are blissful because they prefer the blissful nature of the union and egolessness over pleasures, simply because they know pleasures are costly and pushes us deep into the illusion, not because they hate them.

The neutrality you are describing is a state of light bliss for a prolonged time period.When you are being neutral without being in a state of bliss, the feeling of peace will be overwhelmed by feeling of boredom and longing after desires, that could happen if you are inactive and egoistic at the same time.

Do you want low levels of bliss for a prolonged time or intense bliss for a short period of time? You can choose to be highly blissful all the time, but that's rare and means you have to put more effort in the form of intense meditation, devotion or selfless activities. To live life peacefully, you don't need to do that.

I’m content with neutrality as I said 

[An young being]

1 hour ago, Sugarcoat said:

I’m content with neutrality as I said 

That's a good thing then. If you love peace, that's the best thing you can have.

[Breakingthewall]

1 hour ago, Schizophonia said:

Why in your case ? Would you feel able to describe a bit ?

To me, it looks like i "take conscious" of reality more and more and it feels like an absolute loss of control, It's like being locked in the world's biggest roller coaster and feeling it go up, except that it's not the fall that's scary but the vertigo.
If what I'm saying makes sense.

Yes, I can describe it easily because it is something quite simple and not at all mysterious. At first you do 5meo and all the structures of your mind are erased, then you perceive reality as an absolute void, absence of everything, death. It is a soul-shrinking, soul-crushing feeling, extremely depressing and with no escape. If you continue doing it at a given moment you realize that it is you perceiving the inherent emptiness of reality, then an movement happens, you merge with the emptiness, it is not you perceiving the emptiness but you are one thing, then the unlimited emptiness is no longer empty, it is full of you, which expands to infinity. then the reality that you are everything, the absolute potential, manifests. Everything that exists, existed or will exist is in you, the unlimited that is, and that's it, there is no more possible realization because any "more" is in the realm of the relative.