An Experience [without using psychedelics]

[Genius100x]

I just remembered this. 

In early childhood, I used to experience reality fundamentally differently than I do today in adulthood. 

I don't have words to describe this. It even goes beyond feelings. It was  FUNDAMENTALLY DIFFERENT. It was narrow. It was limited. Reality looked very different. 

Why? 

Because I had a different chemical configuration then. 

••••

Those who condemn psychedelics are ignorant. They don't realise this simple fact that their natural brain is already full of "psychedelics" (I mean, chemicals). 

This experience that we are currently having, is subjective. 

•••• 

I somewhat understand what it feels like to experience a new and completely different reality. Even very basic things (perceptions) we take for granted CHANGE. 

Everything is different. 

 

Edited October 26 by Genius100x

[Keryo Koffa]

I started revisiting that rabbit hole and it goes deep! It's pretty jarring, uncanny valley, liminal.
Nowadays feels grounded but the earlier I go, the more like a fever dream it feels.
A time when senses weren't yet connected, no context given, pure interpretation.
When there was just infinite noise, organizing itself into shapes and everything alive.
The very qualia of experience in its very core being experienced at full depth.

[Genius100x]

@Keryo Koffa I was in existential crisis when I first gained consciousness. I couldn't remember what happened before that.  I said, "what the fuck", I didn't know such thing as before? Who am I? "Whyi am not like others?" "Why I am trapped in this body?" Can something exist? EXISTENCE was very surprising. 

I was also doubting, "maybe all other people are fooling me, maybe this is a conspiracy of others against me". 

 

But as life moves forward, you have to forget these things, otherwise you won't be able to do your work and survive. So I have put philosophy for future. Not leaving it. Just postponing. 

@Leo Gura says in solipsism video, "your parents didn't give birth to you". How come I came into existence? Is this all a constructed story? 

 

Edited October 27 by Genius100x

[Nemra]

I would say that learning about the existence of psychedelics is also kind of an awakening. My life turned upside down when I learned about it from Leo.

[Genius100x]

Just now, Nemra said:

I would say that learning about the existence of psychedelics is also kind of an awakening. My life turned upside down when I learned about it from Leo.

Of course. Psychedelics is an extension of your powers. 

[Nemra]

28 minutes ago, Genius100x said:

Of course. Psychedelics is an extension of your powers. 

Just the awareness of them cuts through all of the cultural and spiritual BS.