Pure Being

[Someone here]

Solipsism specially is going to be brilliant.  Because its such a tricky topic .

Solipsism is either the highest most radical truth ever ..or the stupidest bullshit ever .

[Someone here]

A very close sibling of mine who looks up to me and trusts me as a highly loyal and moral person and such .. has caught me watching porn on my tablet ..he didn't confront me then ..he told me after few days that I saw you watching sex videos .and that he is disappointed by me and that he longer considers me a relative to be proud of . I'm not gonna mention who exactly is this family member . I just feel like garbage rn.

Edited October 22 by Someone here

[Princess Arabia]

On 10/22/2024 at 0:06 PM, Someone here said:

I just feel like garbage rn.

First, nice you started a journal. I know it's been a while you wanted to do this. I'm still deciding what I want mine to be about and keep deleting the ones I started. I'll figure it out.

Secondly, let all your self-inquiry and all the things you've been learning about yourself and reality kick in right now. Use this experience as practice. This is true practice. Not just sitting down to meditate (which is good) and processes and rituals and mantras etc. Life experiences. Pure rawness, pure aliveness. It's time like these when your pure being shines through. Not just intellectually knowing, but pure being as your title suggests. 

You're feeling like garbage not from what he said but from your own judgements of yourself. How you feel is what's coming from inside of you, not what someone said. If you didn't feel like garbage for watching it to begin with, no amount of what he said would have made you feel that way. It's a reflection of how you see yourself. You judge yourself, so now when someone judges you, it hurts even more. You judge others and when they judge you, you respond with disdain. 

This is why morality can be counterintuitive; it will come back to you and hit you in the face. Morality is the devil, so-to-speak, and it teaches us nothing. He was just there to highlight to you how you already see yourself. It's to show you to stop judging yourself for watching porn and the reasons you do it. Watch your porn without judging it. Don't watch it without giving reasons why. Either way. This is not about it's not really you and you're the watcher and it's just ego and all that, it's about allowing space for things to fall away, for the self judgments and criticisms to seize. This is not who you are, and that experience you had was to show you how you really see yourself and for you to start loving yourself more and to see yourself in a different light. 

That experience will pass and you will see how the remnants and after effects change along with it when you allow for it to subside without giving it any attention. Let it be. Let the feelings of feeling like garbage be there without doing anything about it. Don't feed it. Give it space to go back where it came from. It's like magic, trust me. I know. I've practiced similiar things over and over and it's like it never existed. It goes back to the void from whence it came. Cheers.

[Someone here]

21 hours ago, Princess Arabia said:

First, nice you started a journal. I know it's been a while you wanted to do this. I'm still deciding what I want mine to be about and keep deleting the ones I started. I'll figure it out.

Secondly, let all your self-inquiry and all the things you've been learning about yourself and reality kick in right now. Use this experience as practice. This is true practice. Not just sitting down to meditate (which is good) and processes and rituals and mantras etc. Life experiences. Pure rawness, pure aliveness. It's time like these when your pure being shines through. Not just intellectually knowing, but pure being as your title suggests. 

You're feeling like garbage not from what he said but from your own judgements of yourself. How you feel is what's coming from inside of you, not what someone said. If you didn't feel like garbage for watching it to begin with, no amount of what he said would have made you feel that way. It's a reflection of how you see yourself. You judge yourself, so now when someone judges you, it hurts even more. You judge others and when they judge you, you respond with disdain. 

This is why morality can be counterintuitive; it will come back to you and hit you in the face. Morality is the devil, so-to-speak, and it teaches us nothing. He was just there to highlight to you how you already see yourself. It's to show you to stop judging yourself for watching porn and the reasons you do it. Watch your porn without judging it. Don't watch it without giving reasons why. Either way. This is not about it's not really you and you're the watcher and it's just ego and all that, it's about allowing space for things to fall away, for the self judgments and criticisms to seize. This is not who you are, and that experience you had was to show you how you really see yourself and for you to start loving yourself more and to see yourself in a different light. 

That experience will pass and you will see how the remnants and after effects change along with it when you allow for it to subside without giving it any attention. Let it be. Let the feelings of feeling like garbage be there without doing anything about it. Don't feed it. Give it space to go back where it came from. It's like magic, trust me. I know. I've practiced similiar things over and over and it's like it never existed. It goes back to the void from whence it came. Cheers.

Hi princess 👸. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for this comment. I did exactly what you're suggesting and it worked . I knew I had to do that but was second guessing myself . In fact I know there is no shame in watching porno..every young male in the entire planet watches porn. I think after a decade from now I will naturally outgrow it when I get married and raise a family . And when my male kids reach puberty I will sit with them and kinda teach them how to explore their sexuality in a healthy way . I will not shame them if they watch porn .but I will just tell them what are the pros and cons of this behaviour. 

BTW don't delete your journals ..you are a brilliant lady. Anything you write is of huge value . 

Don't make your journals about a specific topic..by doing this you destined them to be shortlisted. Make them for expressing whatever comes to your mind and you want to express .

Cheers🥂 

[Princess Arabia]

3 hours ago, Someone here said:

Don't make your journals about a specific topic..by doing this you destined them to be shortlisted. Make them for expressing whatever comes to your mind and you want to express .

Yes, funny you said this because this morning I said this to myself. I'll make it about every and anything that comes to mind and on any topic. Thanks. 

I'm happy to see you've gotten pass that experience somehow. When I saw you wrote how you felt like garbage, that's what inspired me to respond. All that just flowed right through me without me thinking about it, so I knew it was meant for you to hear. Keep expanding as you are, and I'll be popping in to see how the flower is blooming. Peace🕊️

[Someone here]

@Princess Arabia it's not "funny " ..it's called SYNCHRONICITIES . Somd weird esoteric shit is going on in the world right now for a while . Apparently not just for me 😁 . 

[Princess Arabia]

23 minutes ago, Someone here said:

.it's called SYNCHRONICITIES

 

23 minutes ago, Someone here said:

Apparently not just for me

You are me 😜😜The synchronicities have gotten more prevalent and frequent, that's for sure. 

[Someone here]

Free will is a total horseshit . If you pay attention to your experience you will notice that. I like this experiment.. Try to stop your thoughts and movements for just few seconds.. And notice how your body will carry on thinking and moving on its own. It can be a very scary experience. You have zero control over your body. I had a hard time with this realization few months ago. I thought Im losing my mind. 

[Princess Arabia]

On 10/28/2024 at 11:19 AM, Someone here said:

Free will is a total horseshit . If you pay attention to your experience you will notice that. I like this experiment.. Try to stop your thoughts and movements for just few seconds.. And notice how your body will carry on thinking and moving on its own. It can be a very scary experience. You have zero control over your body. I had a hard time with this realization few months ago. I thought Im losing my mind. 

You have control over what you put in the body but not how it processes it. You have control over the environment you subject it to, but not on how it grows within that environment. When you plant a seed, you don't have control over the  growth process only where you plant it, what environment it's in and how you water it - same as the body. 

Why have a hard time with something that takes the stress from you to oversee it's every move. Be thankful you're not operating it's organs and the mechanics of how they work. That's a relief.

How you think controls what the body does because of how that thought makes you feel, and we do have control over how we think. The thought patterns, not necessarily the thoughts themselves. They go by the frequency you're on and your vibratory rate. If you're attracting negative thought patterns, the body will sense and read that through your feelings and the cells will listen to which frequency you're on and communicate with each other to shape your body's response mechanism. This is why we experience dis-ease that manifests within the body.

Edited October 29 by Princess Arabia

[Someone here]

On 30/10/2024 at 2:27 AM, Princess Arabia said:

You have control over what you put in the body but not how it processes it. You have control over the environment you subject it to, but not on how it grows within that environment. When you plant a seed, you don't have control over the  growth process only where you plant it, what environment it's in and how you water it - same as the body. 

Why have a hard time with something that takes the stress from you to oversee it's every move. Be thankful you're not operating it's organs and the mechanics of how they work. That's a relief.

How you think controls what the body does because of how that thought makes you feel, and we do have control over how we think. The thought patterns, not necessarily the thoughts themselves. They go by the frequency you're on and your vibratory rate. If you're attracting negative thought patterns, the body will sense and read that through your feelings and the cells will listen to which frequency you're on and communicate with each other to shape your body's response mechanism. This is why we experience dis-ease that manifests within the body.

How can I aspire to awaken and become a detached monk when I'm addicted to cigarettes..porn..tasty food ..videos games ..?

I'm stil stuck in the perspective that choice is completely illusion. 

there is no choice. You are not choosing anything. And I mean anything. Everything. 

You are not in control of what's happening right now . Its easy to prove if you try to imagine the thought you're going to have in the next 10 seconds.

In a sense.. I'm not writing this.. and you are not reading this. It's all being played and it's all karma. Circumstances are infinitely complex and destiny is inevitble. As the awareness watching the movie.. we have zero influence over the plot.

"You're not doing it, it's doing you" - Alan Watts

You didn't choose your birth as this particular human.. In this particular world.. In this particular part of the world.. In this particular Era.. To this particular family.. With this particular genetics.. With this particular gender.. With this particular look.. Yada yada..you didn't choose the language that you are speaking.. You didn't choose your upbringing.. You didn't choose your cultural conditioning.. You don't choose your heart beat.. You don't choose your thoughts.. You don't choose your actions.. You don't choose your reactions.. You don't choose what you agree with.. You don't choose what you disagree with.. You don't choose your beliefs.. your desires.. your traits your moods.. your habits.. your chances.. your anything lol...simply because you are not real as an individual. you yourself are a thought or at a best a continuity of conditioned thoughts been shaped by your environment.