Metamorphosis

[Elton]

It's been 10 years of actualized.org, 10 years of trying to get better in life. 10 years of having planted the seed in my mind that I can do something great with my life, that I can fucking change the world, that I can contribute to society, that I can be free financially, emotionally, have a good health, have a lot of time, be creative, be a leader, radiate love and happiness.

But what have I done? 

My only accomplishments in life are just that I cleared my engineering in 6 years which was a 4 year course, managed to find a job and I'm doing that job since 8 years now. Promoted to a team leader position, and earning INR 1080000 per year.

Any normal person could have done this shit, what did meditation do? What did not consuming social media do? What did having a better understanding of the world through actualized.org do?  What did kriya yoga do? 

It did nothing 

People who didn't do all this shit are at better places them me, self help says don't compare yourself with others, well I couldn't even fucking learn that lession right.

Greatness is not a fucking choice.

It's either written in your destiny or it's not! 

Whats the use of self Actualization when I'm so fucking average. Where is my extra ordinary life? where! 

How come I'm not strong enough to create that life that I want?

How come I didn't learn to not be a victim? To make 100 percent commitment? To take 100 percent responsibility?

How come ?!?

Even after being so average, also a failure in self Actualization, I have the will to not quit, the will to get up again and keep moving forward, my hope is the light that shines in these dark days of my life, the darkest days of non achievement, which gives me strength to try again with focus and concentration to break free from these limiting beliefs and move in the direction of my calling. To move in the direction of good health, to move in the direction of creating the life I desire, to be the artist and make my life my art, to love my life in such a way that if I have kids they would look in awe and draw inspiration from me, that the world looks at my life in awe and draws inspiration from me, that when I die I create a whole in this word. 

May this small ray of hope give me the strength and courage to move forward and become the architect of my life and design it in the ways I want to create it. In powerful wonderful and beautiful ways.

Here I come life, you can make me feel worthless, you can strip me of everything, you can call me a loser or average but you can't take my will. 

I will do it.

Where there is a will there IS a way.

I am willing to do whatever it takes to create my dream life. To fulfill my vision.

 

 

 

Edited October 16 by Elton

[Elton]

The first step I'm going to take is to have a successful Powerfull routine. 

I've still not been able to act in a self Actualization superstar way yet but I'm going to start soon.

I'm going right away to design my powerful routine.