I have a habit of talking to myself out loud.

[kyle barnett]

Is this hindering me spiritually by keeping my ego and all my problems more alive? I feel like it is but at the same time I feel it helps me contemplate. Yet ai do it and end up more frantic in life. I always go for solo walks and do this. Is there a way to keep it at bay without going over board?

Note. I'm currently unemployed at the moment so have a lot of free time. But struggle to get the develop to find videos to study or read without getting into distractions. 

 

However I always feel even if I wander outside and get lost in my head. I also manage to refrain from a lot of distractions so I take that as a win.

 

What are your guys thoughts?

[Princess Arabia]

Thoughts are energy and the energy of thought is sometimes released or expressed through words. We all do it. Ever notice sometimes a thought pops up and you feel the need to still say it out loud. E,g. A wordless thought, "I shouldn't have said that to that lady this afternoon", popped up and a few seconds later, you're repeating the same exact thought out loud. 

There's something to it and a reason why we do that, but I forgot why exactly.

[kyle barnett]

Yeah. I feel for me it can be a habit. Always going for walks. I end up contemplating all the drama in my life instead of watching videos or reading.

[Princess Arabia]

4 minutes ago, kyle barnett said:

Yeah. I feel for me it can be a habit. Always going for walks. I end up contemplating all the drama in my life instead of watching videos or reading.

We are thinking our lives away.

[Rigel]

I always get a phase of pacing around my room & talking to myself like a lunatic when I am tripping. Yesterday that happened & I was acutely aware of the sheer bullshitery of it. I was talking for 3hrs straight & noticing that none of my wording of the insights I was having were the actual insights. There’s no work around consciousness but thinking is also consciousness. There’s a meta awareness to be had here. Thinking is not bad per say but sometimes only silence will do it.

[KoryKat]

12 hours ago, kyle barnett said:

Is this hindering me spiritually by keeping my ego and all my problems more alive? I feel like it is but at the same time I feel it helps me contemplate. Yet ai do it and end up more frantic in life. I always go for solo walks and do this. Is there a way to keep it at bay without going over board?

Note. I'm currently unemployed at the moment so have a lot of free time. But struggle to get the develop to find videos to study or read without getting into distractions. 

 

However I always feel even if I wander outside and get lost in my head. I also manage to refrain from a lot of distractions so I take that as a win.

 

What are your guys thoughts?

Too much of Maya, the World of Illusion

What if the illusion is all concepts, all words. How could you find the truth, the nature of you, if you could turn off all external senses? Turn off all internal senses? What is left?

Your ego is playing a game, the game is called Thinking. In order to survive, Ego must keep thinking... thinking about how to stop thinking , for example.

To break free of the Matrix is to shatter this world of illusion, all your attachments, associations, connections with identity, beliefs, personas, etc are all mental constructs created by your mind to enslave you...

"The mind is a wonderful servant, but a terrible master"     
You are the servant who has found a sort of liberation through your mind's escapism.   

As to speaking out loud, it would not be a problem inherently in and of itself... but it would probably be a symptom of an underlying problem, a clue to a shadow that must be reintegrated a more conscious-intent manner of self-programming.

The way I would go about deconstructing your speaking-out-loud --- is trying a split testing A vs B (ill do it naturally, vs ill stop doing it) compare the results -- you will probably notice a resistance to stopping , which would signal there is unresolved shadow work there.


Funny thing is, not much different than you myself, probably.  Just trying to learn to take my own advice and embody the wisdom 


When you have real control over your mind, you can go perfectly still with perfect inner-silence, it can be maintained for hours... Its just the programming your ego has done on you is a lifelong conditiioning - since the name you were given at birth.

 

Edited October 14 by KoryKat

[Sandhu]

12 hours ago, kyle barnett said:

Is this hindering me spiritually by keeping my ego and all my problems more alive? I feel like it is but at the same time I feel it helps me contemplate. Yet ai do it and end up more frantic in life. I always go for solo walks and do this. Is there a way to keep it at bay without going over board?

Note. I'm currently unemployed at the moment so have a lot of free time. But struggle to get the develop to find videos to study or read without getting into distractions. 

 

However I always feel even if I wander outside and get lost in my head. I also manage to refrain from a lot of distractions so I take that as a win.

 

What are your guys thoughts?

Same Same.

Very embarrassing, when someone catches me doing it.

[kyle barnett]

7 hours ago, KoryKat said:

Too much of Maya, the World of Illusion

What if the illusion is all concepts, all words. How could you find the truth, the nature of you, if you could turn off all external senses? Turn off all internal senses? What is left?

Your ego is playing a game, the game is called Thinking. In order to survive, Ego must keep thinking... thinking about how to stop thinking , for example.

To break free of the Matrix is to shatter this world of illusion, all your attachments, associations, connections with identity, beliefs, personas, etc are all mental constructs created by your mind to enslave you...

"The mind is a wonderful servant, but a terrible master"     
You are the servant who has found a sort of liberation through your mind's escapism.   

As to speaking out loud, it would not be a problem inherently in and of itself... but it would probably be a symptom of an underlying problem, a clue to a shadow that must be reintegrated a more conscious-intent manner of self-programming.

The way I would go about deconstructing your speaking-out-loud --- is trying a split testing A vs B (ill do it naturally, vs ill stop doing it) compare the results -- you will probably notice a resistance to stopping , which would signal there is unresolved shadow work there.


Funny thing is, not much different than you myself, probably.  Just trying to learn to take my own advice and embody the wisdom 


When you have real control over your mind, you can go perfectly still with perfect inner-silence, it can be maintained for hours... Its just the programming your ego has done on you is a lifelong conditiioning - since the name you were given at birth.

 

Yeah. One insight I had was that my minds state has an impact on the story it tells.