I've had an Insight

[pausona]

Hey Leo, I am your biggest fan in my universe, Well, ive been struggling with nonduality and existential stuff, im on a path of very rapid growing. In short, its too much a bit, that's why ive joined this forum. I'm in process of empirically testing 'reality',. Im very peculiar universe, I would really want to have a conversation with my Leo, I have some insights that came from inside and ive yet to find any 'other' . i think ive solved the solipsism problem, I believe I understand fully how everything exists, i had that ta daa moment in my last awakening and it finally seems like a Truth. I owe You alot Leo, You taught me so much, as my 'parents' toughed so much untruths i believed my whole life until recently. in SD terms, ive went through green yellow and arrived at turquoise at least a little bit in relatively short time, less than 2 years. needless to say im starting my life from zero now, because my projections see me as weird, crazy or a loser in life. I feel like i know all the answers but i am just starting to practice what ive learned. I need guidance, i need a friend, i ve gained vast knowledge but im noob at how to use it. my ego is still lively but my consciousness knows its not me, i feel like my mind is always having a storm, 'physicaly' i get tired and weak, socially im alone, and psychologically its non-stopping storm. I feel like im both crazy and genius at the same time. Leo, if you read this then find a way to contact me. cause this post is my experiment, im only starting to diagnose the rules of my philosophy.  

[Leo Gura]

Hey there.

Sounds like you have a lot of work to do on the basics of mastering survival and life. Be careful not to skip over that part. You have to work on developing into a stable, balanced, effective, social person. Otherwise you will be a lonely miserable spiritual lunatic.

This is the trap of spiritual bypassing: using spirituality and philosophy to avoid engaging with the challenges of everyday life.

Edited October 10 by Leo Gura

[Rishabh R]

@Leo Gura Can philosophy and other therapeutic approaches be used to face the challenges of life ? Like Stoicism , ACT therapy or radical acceptance , CBT and shadow work .

Edited October 10 by Rishabh R

[Leo Gura]

9 minutes ago, Rishabh R said:

@Leo Gura Can philosophy and other therapeutic approaches be used to face the challenges of life ? Like Stoicism , ACT therapy or radical acceptance , CBT and shadow work .

Sure.

But ultimaty you just gotta take massive practical action. No fancy technique is the answer. Hard work is the answer.

Edited October 10 by Leo Gura

[Rishabh R]

@Leo Gura Yeah actions are the things without which thoughts are just thoughts and nothing else. But I wonder what mindset has to do with overcoming challenges ?

[pausona]

Leo I am way past the point of no return. Imagine insane person beyond repair. If you could increase your hornyness at a cost of losing potency. Im feeling like impotent but infinitely horny. Imagine being too creative to be able to concentrate. To become all knowing you have to sacrifice being. But to be You have to pretend that you dont know. Imagine having two sides of the coin showing upwards all the time in your 'head'. Imagine not being to able to say anything because you know everything. I would love to teach you because You taught Me. I dont know whether it will look like im lunatic, or crazy, or genius, or narcissistic, or maybe You will understand.

[pausona]

Imagine that Truth makes you Crazy. Be careful , but if You ask, I'll tell you what I Think.

Edited October 10 by pausona

[pausona]

And for all the confused ones, just trust me, You are perfectly imperfect. 

[Leo Gura]

@pausona Do not confuse Awakening for mental derangement. Look for ways to ground yourself. If you come off as unhinged to others, that's a problem.

Edited October 10 by Leo Gura

[JosephKnecht]

58 minutes ago, pausona said:

Imagine not being to able to say anything because you know everything. I would love to teach you because You taught Me.

Do you know the power of a silent mind? 

From where does all 'knowing' originate? 

[Ero]

1 hour ago, Leo Gura said:

 If you come off as unhinged to others, that's a problem.

It’s moreso about still being able to function in society, to have normal conversations.

Above a certain level of drive and vision one is most certainly going to be perceived as unhinged, even if  “down to earth”. 
 

Edited October 10 by Ero

[pausona]

Leo. Mental derangement? I used to be a doctor. I believed in science then. Ill try tune down my language, because I am forever grateful but at the point of no return All words lose meaning. Everything either is a falsehood or crazy, The way I project you here is the Leo I love. I like to imagine that in my universe I have Leo to be grateful to, and the Leo Universe gets the intent, while both of us are alone in our solipsistic bubbles for now (I'm actively trying to suspend my disbelief of 'reality'). Because  too much knowledge too fast made me very mentally deranged. so i value now those memories those naïve memories, when everything was unquestionably true. I guess those dreams of reality and experiences we had, thats what makes us uniquely unique. So many paradoxes in my reality, but things are gonna change, and fast, and soon.

[Ero]

2 minutes ago, pausona said:

Everything either is a falsehood or crazy,

Because  too much knowledge too fast made me very mentally deranged.

You definitely want to ground yourself. There is a way to deeply experience spirituality and still be grounded and a highly-functioning individual. It takes hard work.

[Leo Gura]

@pausona What exactly happened to you and what is your history of mental health?

What is it that has you so agitated?

Edited October 10 by Leo Gura

[pausona]

Thank You for your sincere advice, brother, but Leo's message that answers are Always coming from inside. So be careful with your sincere advices, because each time you believe your own advice - you sink deeper in the 'reality'/Maya/Grand Illusion. She is hidden in our subconscious mind perfectly tricking and hurting you as hard as she dares, Only because She Loves You, and want You to remember all the bad times especially. It will sound like lunatic ramblings here, I am not experienced with words, neither English is my birth language. I lie with every word, and thats the only True thing I say. It cannot be any other way. And Gentle Maya will always interpret everything to trick and trick and trick . And the tricky part is - The tricks is the part.

[pausona]

Leo, infinite god is much much crazier. Please dont lock us up.

[UnbornTao]

Remember to be centered and to tell the truth about your experience, regards.

[pausona]

I cannot tune down the crazy talk, because I dont want to tell lies. Yes, Leo, your teachings helped me to achieve the insanity and  Ill be forever grateful. Your teachings helped me to Actualize Myself. I can choose what I want to believe because your way of teaching reached me. At first I was curious, then I was amazed by your bravery exploring taboo ideas and ways. And Yes You are so honest in your videos, I owe Everything to You. You question everything - i love how daring and authentic you are. Its like the videos are made for me alone? Am I alone? Oh no! Oh, such a relief? Am I even real? Should I test reality? What if everything I ever believed was lies? Maybe I am just a projection? I feel real, as we all do, but Am I real? How would I know? Why I dont remember anything from early childhood? Maybe I have implanted memories and everything is just a code, am i a selfhating robot? Am i an NPC? Why? Would i choose to be that? hell no! so why god why? But why the world seems to revolve around me so much? Why if Im creative enough I can imagine Everything being Perfectly in order although it looks like chaos. Why I fear death? Leo told me to rely on personal empiric experiences to gain knowledge. Ok , I should test it yes? 
Ok, real talk. You could test it but im sure something will go wrong and you wont succeed in scientific method. Philosophy stands much higher than science. I can say that I would never try to commit suicide. Not because i could die, no, I ve gained enough evidence from Leos teachings that I dont want my Maya to shatter this world. Of course maya protects us by giving such Real fear of the one thing which is impossible... She has your best interests in mind, dont worry. I dont ever know what you really answer to these messages because Im only getting Mayas futile attempts to keep me real by everyone seeing me as a crazy mental madman. I accept that title with honor.   I its still a long way up ahead and its gonna be even more 'insane'. I prayed the god to decide where to lead me and only to be gentle,in my wildest dreams ive never expected that I prayed for insanity, but im gratefull. I achieved it. Fully insane. And lovin' it! 

[Keryo Koffa]

@pausona I was in your State of Consciousness before, it's explosively mind-expansive but also unstable.

Once you flow out of it, there will be a Pendulum of Integration waiting for you, a spiral into the next stage.

There are Levels of Reality, between Imagination and Actualization, you're tuning between the frequencies.

This stage has an intense sense of urgency, you have to slow down and make it part of your baseline instead.

As a wise psychonaut once said: "Everything is everything is everything is everything"

[LoseYourvelf]

15 hours ago, pausona said:

Hey Leo, I am your biggest fan in my universe, Well, ive been struggling with nonduality and existential stuff, im on a path of very rapid growing. In short, its too much a bit, that's why ive joined this forum. I'm in process of empirically testing 'reality',. Im very peculiar universe, I would really want to have a conversation with my Leo, I have some insights that came from inside and ive yet to find any 'other' . i think ive solved the solipsism problem, I believe I understand fully how everything exists, i had that ta daa moment in my last awakening and it finally seems like a Truth. I owe You alot Leo, You taught me so much, as my 'parents' toughed so much untruths i believed my whole life until recently. in SD terms, ive went through green yellow and arrived at turquoise at least a little bit in relatively short time, less than 2 years. needless to say im starting my life from zero now, because my projections see me as weird, crazy or a loser in life. I feel like i know all the answers but i am just starting to practice what ive learned. I need guidance, i need a friend, i ve gained vast knowledge but im noob at how to use it. my ego is still lively but my consciousness knows its not me, i feel like my mind is always having a storm, 'physicaly' i get tired and weak, socially im alone, and psychologically its non-stopping storm. I feel like im both crazy and genius at the same time. Leo, if you read this then find a way to contact me. cause this post is my experiment, im only starting to diagnose the rules of my philosophy.  

Duel me to the death