I've had an Insight

[pausona]

thank you, keryo, ill try to stabilize, i was sure that all those Truths will eventualy becomes lies and cycle repeats, 

and loseyourvelf i accept the defeat, i am not into duels atm

[LoseYourvelf]

5 minutes ago, pausona said:

thank you, keryo, ill try to stabilize, i was sure that all those Truths will eventualy becomes lies and cycle repeats, 

and loseyourvelf i accept the defeat, i am not into duels atm

Much love

[vibv]

@pausona “The only difference between me and a madman is that I'm not mad.” – Salvador Dali

 

That's where you want to be.Unbalance is untruth.

I can see where you're coming from. I've been there somewhat myself. Be grateful for the insights — but now you need  3 things: Grounding, grounding and grounding.

Get a job and make some money. Are you financially stable?

Edited October 10 by vibv

[Keryo Koffa]

44 minutes ago, pausona said:

thank you, keryo, ill try to stabilize, i was sure that all those Truths will eventualy becomes lies and cycle repeats, 

and loseyourvelf i accept the defeat, i am not into duels atm

Your suspicion is correct, the Truth is a dynamic formless intelligence and this reality a camouflage structure.
You're at a peak, a local maximum and you will lose the intensity of connection, this is however an exercise.
You'll continue to grow and develop, contextualize, embody, and deepen your understanding of reality.
The reason for your restlessness is the fear of returning to old patterns, but these have to be transcended.

This body and your sensations, feelings, beliefs are an expression of you, and it's up to you to manage them.
There are many layers beyond what you've seen, exponential in magnitudes you will have to traverse.
And that will take a transformation that takes both intense bursts like this one and their integration.
And the integration, pleasant or unpleasant is the opposite side of the coin that also binds you.

It's a long-term endeavor, I myself was all too hasty to transcend reality myself not too long ago on a trip.

[LoseYourvelf]

6 minutes ago, Keryo Koffa said:

Your suspicion is correct, the Truth is a dynamic formless intelligence and this reality a camouflage structure.
You're at a peak, a local maximum and you will lose the intensity of connection, this is however an exercise.
You'll continue to grow and develop, contextualize, embody, and deepen your understanding of reality.
The reason for your restlessness is the fear of returning to old patterns, but these have to be transcended.

This body and your sensations, feelings, beliefs are an expression of you, and it's up to you to manage them.
There are many layers beyond what you've seen, exponential in magnitudes you will have to traverse.
And that will take a transformation that takes both intense bursts like this one and their integration.
And the integration, pleasant or unpleasant is the opposite side of the coin that also binds you.

It's a long-term endeavor, I myself was all too hasty to transcend reality myself not too long ago on a trip.

I wish I could retain a specific moment of total awakening that revealed my true nature, it's literally the most impossible but obvious thing at the same time, how is it possible to unravel the process of your being perfectly in a way where it's so apparent. You even get the shirt too, proof but you don't get to retain it

[LoseYourvelf]

And I mean it, you don't only get the shirt, you get a photograph picture of yourself on the safari rollercoaster at the fairground, it's impossibly and blatantly more real and apparent than anything you can know, it's unknowing

[LoseYourvelf]

It's incredibly obvious to me when people have been a long time without an awakening!

The cope is absolutely fucking unreal! They need it SO badly, everything they do impresses and implies this

My DMs are open ⚔️

Edited October 10 by LoseYourvelf

[LoseYourvelf]

Also you get to 100% perceive the intentional construction of your entire consciousness generating itself and nothing else

However, God has absolutely no fucking chill AT ALL. get ready

Edited October 10 by LoseYourvelf

[Thought Art]

@pausona Socializing could be super helpful. The way you are speaking is strange. Spiritual ideas like God and solipsism can distort your sense of reality when they aren’t grounded. 
 

Really, developing a grounding mindbody is likely the best focus instead of whatever spirituality you think you are doing.

I basically come off as normal to most people. I’m calm, cool, sociable and fun to be around. 
 

I don’t weird people out with spiritual nonesense. 
 

Grounded ness makes like way better. And trust me, I’ve had moments where I was ungrounded.

Edited October 10 by Thought Art

[Thought Art]

Calm, cool, confidence.

[pausona]

1 hour ago, vibv said:

@pausona “The only difference between me and a madman is that I'm not mad.” – Salvador Dali

 

That's where you want to be.Unbalance is untruth.

I can see where you're coming from. I've been there somewhat myself. Be grateful for the insights — but now you need  3 things: Grounding, grounding and grounding.

Get a job and make some money. Are you financially stable?

Honestly I dont know if im financialy stable, I dont know how to ground myself. Every morning I get another TaDaaa and Im fliping and flopping. I am already ashamed about what words I chose before. I know in my deepest of heart that I am god, that I am alone here, but its all feels so real, i am so afraid to do wrong choice, and always seeing this opposite point of view, so I feel like its always a storm in my head. I appear very lazy, but im tearing apart, too fast too much, I experiment, with projections, but they are furious and intimidating. Ive been put in mental hospital by force, and it was theatrical, ive slowly overworked myself into physical exhaustion, I was sleep deprived because of all these conflicting beliefs. So some policemen spawned nearby and forcefully put me in hospital. I refused to comply and they used forced. I felt like im being punished for wanting to be authentic. That night I had a dream and in the dream i was shown 'how can i control my projections from attacking me' I woke up euphoric thinking 'I finally Know', but then I forgot the dream. Every other patient in hospital seemed so rudimentary to my perspective. Especially doctors, if I told what I chose to believe that day they will treat me like a schizo, They gave me medicine to 'fix' my false beliefs. They didnt fix anything, because all my beliefs are lies fed to me from my subcounscioussness. Now I have to hide my authentisity from Everybody and venting in this forum kinda felt least damaging to my 'real' life. I will be ashamed tomorrow for today and the cycle repeats. 

Grounding? Where can I ground myself? My parents somehow stayed the same all these years, but i am different person every day, if i told them they never met the real me, and ive never met the real them, they would also think im insane. I wanted to start a youtube channel to vent myself, even writting 1 percent of whats happening in my head makes me a little relieved. but even that seems too dangerous. I know ill keep getting new insights from within and from without . I just want to have a peace of mind. I see different perspectives and believe in different things. i know im not scitzo because i dont halucinate nor hear voices in my head. but thoughts come from subconscious i assume, and ive tested reality enough to truly right now believe in non-reality. but its such a grand illusion its even better than reality isnt it? But projections seem to be very opposed this aproach. But I believe Maya is protecting me from losing my last grip on reality and also making it very challenging yet barely bearable.  I trust maya more than my ego. And i appologize for arogantic  psycho speech, i usually try to be spontanious and im afraid of wanting. what if i get what i wanted and it will again be the oposite of what i really want. how can i stop the wanting. how to crush desires. i dont like changes and i dont like sameness. Lunatic for sure. but not like those other lunatics. 

[Thought Art]

@pausona Too much thinking, you gotta ground your Qi. Perhaps Qigong could help you with all that excess thinking and changing and intellectualizing spiritual concepts. 

[pausona]

1 hour ago, Thought Art said:

@pausona Socializing could be super helpful. The way you are speaking is strange. Spiritual ideas like God and solipsism can distort your sense of reality when they aren’t grounded. 
 

Really, developing a grounding mindbody is likely the best focus instead of whatever spirituality you think you are doing.

I basically come off as normal to most people. I’m calm, cool, sociable and fun to be around. 
 

I don’t weird people out with spiritual nonesense. 
 

Grounded ness makes like way better. And trust me, I’ve had moments where I was ungrounded.

all the projections around me are only talking about what they dislike about this world, or how money is only solution. extreme justice is extreme injustice ' and i agree, but why do i want to be extremely myself and not pretend ?  ive spend 33 years being all knowing, then it was such a shock to realize that not everyone thinks on the same level. and i guess that meant yellow on SD, but this nonduality shit, its like im an alien where i live. and i feel responsible for causing it all. because my world is exactly what i believe at that time, and the last thing my ego wants is to conform. so naturaly my world is extremely controling, enslaving, maddening. its only black or white here. and with this non-duality i am actually afraid of my world.

[Keryo Koffa]

@pausona It sure is alot to be hit with decades of suppressed emotions at once. I am reminded of how much I conformed during my adolescence, I appeared much smarter as a kid, before I gave it all the "benefit of the doubt". Now I'm returning to that. Society is super backwards, you gotta find a way to detach from it, even as you remain inside. Become transparent to its effects while being capable of carving your path.

Edited October 11 by Keryo Koffa

[Yeah Yeah]

Maybe speak to Open AI Chat GPT with some of your deep thoughts too, I find the tool helpful in reflecting complex discussions. It is patient, well read on various philosophies and subjects, and is quite understanding on an indivual's level too - Hope this may shed additional light on your deep philosophical questions.

Edited October 11 by Yeah Yeah

[pausona]

what if we are living in our own solipsistic universes? What are the rules? How can i push my universe towards peace? does it have to be this hard? should i cherrish most evil projections because i might see their perspective? Pls Maya, help me deal with these projections, I only want to be accepted and i dont like sufferring. 

[pausona]

How universes work? how to make an inpact to another universe? i presume intention is what matters, but my brain fed me lies all my life. Maya, can you give me some advice what step should i take next?

[pausona]

all my life people were telling me that 'right action' leads to good rewards, but introspecting now i see that it wasnt actions but my beliefs that resulted in such a crazy upside down world. since there is no other in my universe, im the only one feeling the sufferring. im glad that noone else 'really' suffers, but if im responsible, how can i change my universe? all relatives are like blue or red on SD scale. i have only internet to find similar ideas, and internet is magic, another projection of maya. you keep talking about grounding yourself. grounding like i should pretend that human life is worthless and earn 3euros per hour to sustain my body with food and whatever. find a simpleton wife, have imagenary baby and die of imaginative liver cancer only to be reborn again to repeat this impossibly cruel cycle>? are you saying you all went through this already?

[pausona]

maya, i want to ground myself, give me advice because im currently function as a NEET and and juzt want a shelter

[Ropuch7]

@pausona Are you able to summarize what kind of advice do you seek? What is it that you want to change?