Time changes everything, even our family.

[Lyubov]

I had a conversation with my parents yesterday and it was challenging for my inner child cause I realized how far apart I’ve grown from them. I live in an entirely different country. I have my career and path to focus on. My siblings all live in different places. We all have different interests and stuff we are focusing on in our lives. My dad is 74 years old. I really only have it in me to visit once every year or two due to the distance and where I’m at in life. I can see how time really changes everyone and that once whole family we grew up in as children will one day split up. Mine basically has, not sure we will all get together again, maybe? It doesn’t seem at the time it will happen but eventually it does. I suppose this is where Wu Wei comes in and practicing non attachment and acceptance for change. It’s a little hard to accept though. Can anyone relate?

[integration journey]

Yes in a way. I haven’t seen my dad in almost 8 years. War and immigration separated us. He lives in Syria while I live in the US. I don’t know what’s he like nowadays  or how he has changed. 
In a way it was a blessing because I become so independent in my thinking but also I miss my family.

wishing you all the best❤️

[Sabth]

I am very close to my mom and my fam and never felt like split up. No matter how far I am, I will always have connected with them. Through messages and always updating. That used to be it. But since about a month ago, I decided to cut my fam off because of something that happened. It was unusual to me. And it wasn't easy. I could have done it last year. January 2023. But I was too weak. Having lost everything. So I followed them. But this year, somehow, I think I'm back. Idk. And I'm stronger now. I have become myself back again. I don't know. Even though I've lost everything. But it's weird that they're trying to act as if everything was okay and that nothing happened. Tryin to be nice. When they have robbed me. (It wasn't "they" . It could be anything. One person? Maybe? I want it to be investigated. I have lived in such a way that I have suspected everyone "except maybe my parents?" Who was in the house while I'm gone. Which isn't my two other siblings. So whenever they are with me, deep in my heart I would be like , "this is the thief , this is the person who steal from me. " You can't act fake or as if you're close with me. Hate their fakery. Evil. But I still have yet to know. Who does it . My brother in law have complete access to this house too. And my parents aren't helping me when I bring it up. 

So I'm not with them either. 

Now, it wasn't me who choose this. It was them. I would never , feel like I want to en strange my relationship to my fam. But they choose this. So I have no other option but to do it. maybe , until it was settled.

To think of going forward with my life without them isn't easy for me. (Or rather , my mom . Only) The rest can go to hell because we're already not close. And they dared steal my possessions so there is no forgiveness to it. I said there is no forgiveness to it. Cut their hands. Their family's hands. And it still wouldn't suffice. Burn in hell.

[Sabth]

Look at all my books it had been destroyed. 

 

Edited October 9 by Sabth