Every meditative practice leads me to strong trauma releases

[Federico del pueblo]

This is a new development which has unfolded over about the last month.

It doesn't matter what exactly I do, any of the following practices after some time initiates a very strong energetic process in the body (I'll explain below what that means):

• Sitting in silence
• Doing nothing
• Being aware of the background witness
• Listening to some binaural beats
• Doing rhythmic breathing like "4 seconds in, 6 seconds out"
• Psychedelic breathwork (Dmt/shamanic breathing etc.)
• Being very aware of sounds or silence or that which witnesses the sounds/silence
• Staring at objects without thinking
• Sensing empty space
• Being aware of being aware
• And so on, anything that facilitates a meditative state

After some time of doing any of these, subtle vibrations, mostly along the spine start to appear.

Then as the state deepens muscle tensions in different areas of the body (especially the region of shoulders, neck and jaw) arise and these tensions also start to sort of rhythmically contract.

After a while my entire spine might rotate in circles or spiralling movements or back and forth/left and right, etc.

If I completely allow these movements to happen I basically need to stop my meditation and lay down so the body can do "it's work".

What then happens seems like a full blown physical emotional/trauma release (of which I "have" a lot), with very strong shaking, tremors, twitching while feeling the flow of subtle energies in the body. 

If I want to keep meditating I must not let the movements get all to fierce, otherwise I'd be involuntarily swinging in all directions. Even if I let the movements not get to out of hand, meditating/concentrating has become very hard this way.

I'm not entirely sure if this phenomenon is related to the Kundalini energy awakening, but it does seem like it, because so much is happening along the spine.

It also doesn't feel wrong or harmful in any way, it's just new and seems kind of "crazy" in a good way. It actually seems like a kind of catharsis or purging.

I'm just curious if any of you have made similar experiences or know anything about these phenomena?

What comes to mind for you when reading this?

Much love,

Federico

[Raze]

Try EMDR, trauma sensitive mindfulness, tranquil wisdom insight meditation, or break through difficult emotions by Shinzen young 

[PurpleTree]

Nice but how do you know that it’s trauma releases?

[Federico del pueblo]

30 minutes ago, Raze said:

Try EMDR, trauma sensitive mindfulness, tranquil wisdom insight meditation, or break through difficult emotions by Shinzen young 

Alright thanks! 

29 minutes ago, PurpleTree said:

Nice but how do you know that it’s trauma releases?

That is simply how it feels.

Every time I allow it to happen it feels like a massive discharge. I simply feel better afterwards and my problematic emotions seem to be continuously decreasing in intensity, although it's a rather slow process.

Also these tremors and shaking movements are exactly that which people experience when they do the so called "tension, trauma and stress release exercises" (TRE) from Dr. David Berceli.

They also tend to happen a lot in deep experiential therapies (e.g. holotropic breathwork) or other trauma modalities like somatic experiencing (according to my research).

[PurpleTree]

9 minutes ago, Federico del pueblo said:

Alright thanks! 

That is simply how it feels.

Every time I allow it to happen it feels like a massive discharge. I simply feel better afterwards and my problematic emotions seem to be continuously decreasing in intensity, although it's a rather slow process.

Also these tremors and shaking movements are exactly that which people experience when they do the so called "tension, trauma and stress release exercises" (TRE) from Dr. David Berceli.

They also tend to happen a lot in deep experiential therapies (e.g. holotropic breathwork) or other trauma modalities like somatic experiencing (according to my research).

So your body feels lighter and less contracted after the shaking and stuff.

And feels generally lighter than a month ago let’s say? Well that’s nice stuff. I also get physical symptoms from inner work but not as extreme.

[LoseYourvelf]

Good post, really makes you think, I relate a lot it's caused in p much everything like this (exposure type states) in my current life and emotional state

[Federico del pueblo]

40 minutes ago, PurpleTree said:

So your body feels lighter and less contracted after the shaking and stuff.

And feels generally lighter than a month ago let’s say? Well that’s nice stuff. I also get physical symptoms from inner work but not as extreme.

Exactly! 

40 minutes ago, PurpleTree said:

And feels generally lighter than a month ago let’s say? 

Right. The reactivity to specific emotional triggers is less and less with more time passing.

 

39 minutes ago, LoseYourvelf said:

Good post, really makes you think, I relate a lot it's caused in p much everything like this (exposure type states) in my current life and emotional state

Great!

Edited October 8 by Federico del pueblo