From Achiever to contruct aware, and IT

[Abe27]

I recently started my bachelors in machine learning and data science, since i find the epistemic methods in data science very interesting! But also to get an education i can use to find a well paying job and good career, something my perents seem to push onto me as being quite important.

Where i once saw math as a important skill to develop, such that i could earn money and achiwe a good career, i today just can't get myself to belive in that story anymore. I find the practical doing math quite boring and non furfilling in any way, other than to pass an exam. In my strong achiwer stage i accumulated a small fortune, which i partially live of the dividends while studying. But while this is nice, i really feel no diffrent than before, the only diffrence being that i now don't have a vision of money being nice.

I've thought of stopping my bachelors, perhaps in some months to give myself an oppotunity to see if it's more for me. Else i am really unsure about how to design my life, i suppose i should take some time of to really get into finding my life purpose, and not just deny the metaphysics like i have in the past as an achiwer. It was much simpler times back then, the problems could be solved by simple reason.

Advice appreciated  

Edited October 7 by Leo Gura

[PenguinPablo]

@Abe27 on the other side of the coin you might yourself avoiding the harsh realities of survival

If you can for sure live off of the fortune you made, in a long-term sustainable way

then go for it 100% 

but if their is negative long-term implications I might consider that and plan accordingly

[Abe27]

i agree about the harsh realities of survival, in some sense i might also very much not be contruct aware, and just cope myself out for not wanting to do difficult work. 

my money situationen is not that good, it would only work on a very tight budget. I don't think that would be a good life honestly, then i would have to become much more spirritual than i am now.

but i remember a time where people could help solve problems for or with me. I feel like now that the problems that really can be solved, have been solved by science, and then i suppose the rest is more luck and chance than anything