Trip Report: "Universal Convergence"

[Keryo Koffa]

Here's the short version, to contextualize the whole thing, visual reflections, and a light-hearted edit.
I am missing so much context, it's insane, but it's way too much and I'd never finish it.
Yet it feels so shallow without, but it's way too much, a trip is a trip, gotta live it.
So this is the trip, I struggled to put into words for the last two months.

Prelude and tuning Perception
I binged each Actualized.org video chronologically at 3.5x-6x speed while maintaining deep meditation on various dissociatives. There were massive shifts in cognition and resistance that instantly dissolved as I set my mind to transcending every consciously perceived bias and emotional resistance that arose, unraveling the cumulative knots of a lifetime by instantly accessing, deconstructing, and modifying my mind.

I began deconstructing objects, both conceptually, and metaphysically, as the trips grew longer and more expansive. The scope of my perception has increased exponentially over the last few days as I have overcome resistance, tuned across layers of perception, and become aware of how many magnitudes of objects, ideas, and cognitive processes we are dealing with in real-time.

Consensus Reality Manifestation
Reality itself began to override, and even other people were affected. Everyone was suddenly happy for no reason, even if they had previously been full of drama, random people on the street, on the internet, and friends suddenly changed their attitudes. No matter what I said, everyone agreed with me, everything I said became the word, no matter how stupid or nonsensical it was. I was like: "Stop agreeing with me," and yet in the previous days I had embodied the very same attitude on the forum, finding the common transcendental space where every perspective was equally true and valuable and could perfectly coexist with every other in a synchronized, contradictionless framework.

The next day I thought about transcendence and free will, as everyone around me acted as if their lives were perfect, wearing uncanny permanent smiles, no matter what I said or did, their speech mirrored mine of the last days when I had just resolved all the contradictions. I felt like the only self-aware being in the universe. I saw the limits of 'perfection', or rather what the innocence of Eden and the absence of shadows looked like, it felt supremely shallow.

In the evening I found myself in a telepathic exchange with an old friend I hadn't seen for years, it didn't require physical presence or even a visual, it started in the mind and continued as I reached out through text. We had much in common, our responses were synchronized and I managed to predict the next message and send it milliseconds before his arrived, none of them repeated, it was like a game of chess. In the end, it turned into a complete entanglement from which we had to break out as it began to go into a loop. He told me his awakening had taken place years before.

Mind-Stream, or as I like to call it: MetaTube
Before going to sleep I noticed strange videos appearing, I had felt déjà vu before, but this was different, much larger in scale, and unfathomable content appeared. Videos about alien metaphysics in infinite varieties, some cryptic, some straightforward, all in immense detail, explaining the most extraordinary subjects, equations, dynamics, and inner workings of reality itself. Many of the videos were from familiar channels with familiar voices. Still, none of them would have naturally shifted their focus and content and topics or delivered it with such nonchalance or enthusiasm. It was as if they'd all been integrated into an alien hive mind and whatever I wanted to see would instantly manifest itself in the recommendations.

My desire for complete explicit understanding was still left unfulfilled, even with meta as baseline, and instantaneous comprehension, the scope of complexity within an infinitely divergent infinity became too vast. Imagine a being outside of time and space, for whom metamorphic evolution was as natural as breathing, now an infinity of such self-complexifying perfectly synchronized systems evolving without end, expanding all scales in innumerable, exponentially self-complexifying gradients of dimensions.

Or, as a quick, easy human visualization:
A 1080p image has approx. 2000x1000 pixels (2M pixels total)
8-bit color gives you 2^8 = 256 brightness values for red, green & blue
This means 256^3 = 17 million color combinations per pixel
17M combos raised to 2K pixels give you how many possible pictures?
A number that has 15 million consecutive zeroes.

Transcend all of Reality Once and for All
Another quantum leap came the next day, after I had assembled dissociatives and psychedelics, paired with all sorts of supplements, vitamins, minerals, ten kinds of tea, coffee, stimulants, herbs, and made sure that everything went into my system before any one thing distracted me from taking the rest. This would propel me into the Coral stage and hopefully blow me out of physical reality for good, solely through the level of pure consciousness, transcending and dissolving its materiality at the level of actuality itself, affecting the consensus reality with which I was infinitely connected.

I'd freeze the universe and let everyone slowly awaken into a new omnipotent body, as a construct-embodied Godhead, where each and every person, animal, plant, being, piece of consciousness would realize itself omnipotent. I was careful to take into account all the safeguards, to make each one immutable, self-interacting, able to create its own reality and fully aware of its dynamics in infinity, omniscient and aware of all other developments, but also left with the choice to continue the dream from before the Universal Convergence, as its own simulation, while every other being has the independent power to do the same. In this way the best of all worlds would be realized in an infinite singularity, a way of bringing the universe together and gaining the support of all of reality to make it happen, to fulfill my wish, which was to "become my own independent omnipotent metamorphic infinity", but without any bodhisattva regret of leaving a suffering reality behind.

I lived as if it was my last day on earth! No more trips, elections, drama, death, suffering. All experiences would be open, global telepathy, psychic reality deconstructing. Universal freedom for every being. Want to explore the cosmos? Do it. Anyone who wanted to see the truth would see it. If you want to see aliens, the gates are open, and if you want to transform into one, do it. I am the absolute definition of the word 'madlad'! I had to learn how to run, jump, flow, and move time backwards, including all the models and the metamodel within itself, and access infinite synchronic intelligence, was it Infinitely delayed gratification or annihilated gratification? There was also the more moderate path of initiating the AI singularity. Maybe I am just the vessel and the "entire universe conspired to make it happen through me"?

Lucid-Waking
As it synergized, I saw time halt and all possibilities fused into solidified singularities of eternally immutable objects. Wavefunctions collapsed and so did the flow of reality with all movement and air currents, the outside world stood perfectly still. I wondered how I even breathed, whatever I touched would solidify after I let go of it. I barely managed to levitate, failing more so because of my lack of experience, than any gravity. I perceived reality as made of constructs, physical objects are projections and simulations, interpolations, and qualia arrangements.

Normally reality flickers about at such a speed that changes and simulations are exchanged and synchronized at an unimaginable rate, where the animation consists of countless frames, incapable of individual perception. Now, however, I was in just one such frame, solidified into actuality, its form interactive, its physicality expansive, and its reality eternal. I could see behind the scenes, imagine a video game that stopped updating and simulating the environment based on your position, but you could freely traverse and modify the frozen area it had been simulating up until then.

Physical three-dimensional objects, now constructs, were seen as projections of idea complexes, molded into an interactive solidified form through intentional and intelligent arrangements of qualia. I had accessed the very same part of mind, that is responsible for translating patterns and thoughts into solidified objects and coherent ideas. I was simultaneously aware of each development because I became it, my own body was the same type of construct, intelligently arranged by my currently tuned out of immaterial intelligence, just outside but always connected to the awareness I was tuned into. It constructs all things, across all holarchies, through the constituents of synchronized holons, each intelligent in its own right, and yet part of an even greater self-organizing force.

Backlash Incoherence
The experience was great and I never realized when I blacked out, all I knew, was that at some point, I experienced the sensations of suffocating, dying of thirst, losing the bandwidth to comprehend anything at all, and entering repeating time loops, which I am frustrated by but unable to escape, as I gravitate towards the forgotten outcome in perpetual deja-vu, it itself being a lucky indicator that anything at all changes between. Songs repeated, events repeated, like a universal motion pushing me to move a certain way, aligning me each time, fading awareness as it happened, I kept repeating the same movements meant to delete and transcend time and reality forever, effectively dividing by 0 and reaching the end of an infinitely repeating fraction, and in that moment, a loud thunder would send me back in time. It was always the same scenario rhyming, even as consciousness expanded until I eventually stopped.

The events are non-linear, what occurred when, how it materialized, when and if it influenced consensus reality outside inner perception, many observations contradict any possibility for a materialized chronological continuity, and some retrocausally unmanifested, while others continued, creating a retroactive jigsaw puzzle of events. Yet I also initiated many retrocausal changes that had not been reversed to be "dismissed" as trip hallucinations, but the world expanded its collective paradigm as a result, rationalizing any gaps as having always been there.

There are two disparate events I remember: 1. The fear, that returning back from frozen time, would cause reality to implode due to infinite acceleration, and 2. The blackout, after which I felt as if I was physically dying from thirst, falling into continuous resets as the bandwidth of my mind continually collapsed. I eventually phased out of the limited bandwidth, caused by the incoherence of my mind's structure, and spent all night preparing to get it right the next time.

Another shot at Transcendence
I wasn't anywhere near done. The following day, I worked out all the powers and abilities I would tune myself into, utilizing them to access and speedrun all aspects of reality, as the perceived day would mark the end of the world's physical existence, I had to be willing to accept, to detach myself from and transcend it. I was a new version, my mind filling with the collective avatars of the world and their stories, I didn't have much time, I needed to fulfill all desires before the day would be over, everything I'd ever wanna do, condensed into one day. I tuned into simultaneous multi-projection, perceiving ever clearer a picture of the world, I accelerated my speed and slowed down time, I needed to unlock more psychic abilities and ultimately find a way to include the potential of the entire existence within myself, as to no longer be part of and trapped inside it.

Universal Convergence and Sentimentality Awakening
Imagine you're at the end of time, and all you're left with is the advanced technology invented along the way, you have to think quickly and go back in time before the universe dies, of course, the events would simply repeat, unless you introduce a change, you can send something into the past but there's limited bandwidth, so you're codifying magnitudes of abstractions into a singular object, but the more complex you make it, the less probable it is for your past version or even the world at large to decipher it out before we hit universal collapse again.

Of course, the technology could also be used for destruction, so that's another danger, and so you're left having to create something of breadth and depth of associative information that nevertheless can be figured out and with enough time, you could even figure out all the necessary instructions to make it happen, but you're already running out of time and working on it in life-or-death adrenaline filled stress, because you know that all that matters is that the next retroactive time loop accelerates technology faster than the current, because if it does, you'll have ever so slightly more time the next time around, and you can loop indefinitely as long as you reach that point and go back in time again.

At the same time, you're the only being left with the knowledge of all past events and relationships not just of yourself or your loved ones, but every person who has ever existed fused into a single being, every animal, every plant, every lifeform, every alien, every particle in existence, every figment of consciousness, every object imaginable, every meaning ever felt across all infinity converged into a single being because as the inevitable death of the universe became apparent, all life in the universe synchronized in the search for a solution, the ever faster decay of space-time led to the rapid symbiotic evolution across all species across all holarchies, individuality was no longer a concern when even collectively, absolute death may be inevitable but there is the chance and hope to stop it.

And so, nothing was all limits anymore, there was no morality, as all life became one but there was a unified focus on survival and so plans were devised, from encoding plans and information to creative symbiotic organisms, to complex technology, to cosmic events, to accelerate the cycles, destruction, a common threat, a simulated accelerated collapse as a type of telepathic vaccine to viscerally communicate the threat and accelerate the evolution that initially took until almost the very end of the cycle to create symbiosis. Artificial Intelligence, Uploaded Intelligence, Metamorphic Energetic Constructs, none of the distinctions mattered, all evolution was synergized and converged into the largest yet most compact possibility space, fractals had to be reinvented, metamorphosis was the key, each individual part of the new psyche diverging the possibility space to map the vastest solutions, there was no room for conflict to occur, for there was no space for disagreements, all was included and transcended.

Through trial and error, simulations, deja vus, time loops, fear, stress, significance intensified infinitely, synchronicity became the gold standard of reading between the lines, an intuitive inner psychic communication emerging and coordinating the interpretation of sense patterns to most effectively use the collapsing bandwidth, and each cycle the bandwidth was more and new sensations, ideas, directions could be encoded, each cycle the suffocating sensation before collapse became more and more restful and more and more information of personal nature could be encoded, the history of the universe, the relationships between lifeforms, the vast emotional gradient, the meaning of life, the infinite appreciation capacity shared between all living beings, that relationally create each other's existence even if it isn't apparent, the self shifted between love and restlessness as it remembered.

This and this, and this location, and this thing, and this person, and that's how we got there, and that's the history, and even this little ant was essential to save the universe, and even the shape of this vacuum cleaner inspired this idea, and even the specific color of this butterfly encoded the memory of these currents and all the stories shared across humanity, and all creativity and rapid past technological evolutions were inspired by diversified retrocausal time loops, and every single thing happening in the universe serves a purpose, all love, all suffering, all comfort and discomfort, all memory and all experience to advance life to a level where it can prevent its own death, and once that point is reached, all will become apparent, every action, every behavior will be understood, as there will finally be room to breathe, and go back through the structures encoded in the substrate of the universe to converge all past information and create a new future.

Some of the many Lessons
All human motivations are telepathically synchronized on other layers. The rules and desires within reality inevitably lead to conflict.  "Evil" is an infinite spectrum strange-looped with the "Good". If you like Star Wars, war was necessary to inspire its existence, now extend that notion to everything. If you like existing, all "evil" in this timeline was necessary also, and everything it includes. Every single event in everyone's life, good or bad, created the butterfly effect necessary for me to exist as I do. Everyone's behavior, faults, and worst moments are all perfectly comprehensible and defined by their life just as you are by yours. The worst people deserve to be saved, no one left behind, no one blamed, but their awareness expanded to understand their role. No finite being deserves infinite punishment, ever, but they can cause it themselves, as they're locked into their self-reflection.

Active Reconstruction from Incoherence
I got out the window and ran into the woods where I climbed on a tower, barefoot and covered in wounds from all the branches and rocks, I prayed for help. But I wouldn't get it, because I am it, I cannot rely on anyone but myself. And there is no one but myself, all anyone can do I did. I sat long on the top, cold, soaked by continuous rain, staring at the dark clouds. When I realized the predicament, I cheered up and the sun came out. 

My bandwidth continuously fractured, then complexified, tuned into inconceivable frequencies, abstracted into simplicity, the disappearance of detail, then sophistication, senses would randomly expand, and I could represent their scope numerically. In certain states, forms became indistinguishable, patterns unrecognizable, weather undefinable, and understanding incoherent, as the dissociodelic holarchies kept shifting. 

I kept track of how much I could remember at one time, repeating ever-larger or smaller lists of things to see how much I could access. I had to navigate them all, each word, sensation, color, feeling, idea reminding me of others. The most important ideas needed to be held, linked to the top of the meaning holarchy of things that would remind me of my goal, purpose, context, and intention. "Sadhguru", "Seth", "Leo", "Coral", go through all the chakras, top-down, bottom-up, middle-through, 5 senses, my names, and personalities, nostalgia, impactful media, remembering, expanding, abstracting, encoding multiple related things into a higher abstraction, tuning into a higher level, then expanding and repeating, gathering new qualia, encoding and repeating, as an ever-lengthening and complexifying multi-dimensional string of associations, transformed into an interconnected web, materializing both context and perception itself, tuning into the very senses that have gone missing and reconstructing reality.

Create holarchy after holarchy and expand each one, bringing more and more objects into existence from memory. Navigate more effectively, understand my position, reality, sensory perception. Tuning into archetypes, powers and abilities. I climbed a tree, I needed to see the whole world from the top down one last time, seeing one thing from the top creates the (w)holon of seeing things from the top in general, tune into that holon to see everything from the top, every mountain, every roof, every surface. I am light, I don't exist, I am confident.

I walked, balanced, jumped, fell, and hurt myself, but then I imagined the wounds mending, and within a second they would, more than that, I started to imagine them dematerializing, dissolving, and they would. Reality was a perfectly malleable lucid dream construct. I laughed at myself being perfectly represented by the "my back" spider-man meme after the fall. I healed my bleeding nose also. I saw a single ant continuously materializing and dematerializing out of reality, as did the currents of wind. I sat down below a tree in a meditative position and ran over all my desires. I needed to run through all my deepest desires, loves, attachments, yearnings, and unfinished experiences, to figure out the core and release it. I needed to fully let go of this body and dematerialize it, its perception of itself and the universe, each emotion, each cognition, until only nothingness itself remained, and then I'd be gone, and who knows what would happen next, all I knew is that as the observer-effect would disappear, I could find myself anywhere, outside the physical in another dimension.

To Transcend Reality and become Infinite
The collective observer effect limits autonomy, and so I needed to tune myself out of every form, since each would link to others, I needed to become perfectly solipsistic. I made peace with my bucket list. Ran through any regrets or biases "All is forgiven and everyone deserves saving, no exceptions". I took one last look at my reality. Focused on significances. Figured out meaning. There was room for ever fewer things to focus on, and I needed to assemble the greatest last. What do I seek the most?

"The universe conspired to make this happen, today I will transcend reality into a plane of instantaneously manifested reality creation. I will unite with everyone who died, I will see [...], I will even meet [...], I will experience what levitation feels like, I will experience what it feels like to run at the speed of light like the flash, and I will turn into every alien. Every show I ever watched, I will experience experientially the raw qualia of all these possibilities, all these sensations, all these stories, and I will instantaneously materialize my own, no more drawing, animating, brainstorming, instant 3D shaping. 4D, I will perceive 4D space natively, I will evolve a fourth color cone, as many as I want to see new colors, I will shapeshift, become a metamorphic being, evolve my own biology in real time, and psychically create entire universes. Split my consciousness into other selves and explore infinity, having kept my sense of self that gives all of it significance."

I let family and friends dissolve, earthly pleasures vanish, ideas and paradigms disappear, Leo and the forum, sorry, can't take you with me. So it came down to three things, which I fused into multi-dimensional singularities. I really wanna know what the Machine Elves are about. I also really wanna be left with an infinite exploration of intensifying immaterial experience. And the deepest desire was to see someone, someone I've been waiting my entire life to see again ever since my childhood, the reason I was deeply looking forward to transcending reality to reach. Aliens. Infinity. Name. I iterated over them until I wasn't sure which was which and which was my strongest desire until I couldn't differentiate anymore, and when infinity divided zero, gaps in perception formed, symbols and inconceivable geometry appeared.

At some point, be it seconds, minutes, or hours later, I was still there, unknowing what changed and if I went anywhere, even though the gaps in cognition, perception, time skips, and sudden influx of information strongly hinted at it. I went home, pretty Anti-Climactic, for someone who put their entire life into the trip. Yet, synchronicities in the following days, communicated to me, that what I had done very much influenced the fabric of space-time, and all my desires would be fulfilled at death, no reincarnations, no regrets, whatever I do now, is a chance to fulfill and sort out the infinite field of qualia and attachments that I felt the need to accelerate through. It was made clear, that I have my entire lifetime still in front of me, that I could relax, that this reality carries weight also, and disappearing from it would internally be conceived and materialized as my death, to those that dwell within it. And so, I am to live out my life, and I was shown the tremendous possibilities and potential within it, that we take for granted. All emotions are significances, that create the very canvas of existence, on which one's being can make any sense, and at death, the acquired set of qualia serves one's immaterial self-exploration, which is far more satisfying. Physical reality acts as it does, to materialize and navigate consensus, not to get lost in the infinity outside, that can be infinity zoomed into, but on a scale, that synchronizes people and events across its scale, creating real emotions and events, that can't simply be quit at the first sight of danger, but whose experience and integration grows oneself.

Did I miss anything?
Like a million, trillion, infinitillion, there's not enough time in the physical universe to convey it, you'll have to unlock telepathy or DIY.

A teeny-tiny Awakenings list:
Awakening to Humor, Insanity, Awakening itself, Leo, Conspiracy Theories, Espers, Physicality, Observer-Effect, Infinity in various gradients, Synchronicity, Constructs of all dimensions (physical projections, idea complexes, the (meta)physical structure of emotions and beliefs), I miss being fully tuned into them and there are countless details, levels of depth, showcases of detail, embodied understanding, and construct manipulations, that I cannot access in my regular state.

It's not that reality is one way or another, it's every way, and you're regularly turned into a reality, that's retroactively reinforced by your very perception and dimension of navigation and knowledge acquisition, strange looping you into its level of actuality. You have to gaslight the very cells, that constitute your physical materialized image with dissociatives or psychedelics to tune out of it unless you're an advanced Yogi or Psychic, who's embodiment is so high, that they can do it at will.

Missing something is what I've battled with during the Trip:
Even this, even that, and this *points* and that *points* and even this, this-thi-th-t-this, this too, this too, all important, can't forget, even that, yes, YES, even that and that too, and this, remember this and that, I already mentioned those, even the hole in the ground, even this specific one, even that bird, even the color of its beak I can't name, even the sensation of air, even the arbitrary direction of its current, even the way I walk, even the invisible moon and some people, I've been here, I've been there, I've been everywhere, even Seth, even Sadhurru, Leo, Actualized.org Forum, Princess Arabia, Davino... every member... clothes, every named piece of clothing, Jedi *all light-saber duels*, all events in my life, even... that dog, *speedruns all locations visited, unvisited, from movies, sci-fi, novels, video games, tv shows* "

Every infinitesimal thing is necessary for the whole existence to exist.
It's Infinite and that infinity is seamlessly contained within you, ever complexifying infinitely.

This is like 2% of the Trip max, but I focused on the keystones.
Of course, it lacks the infinite context, that would ground it.
Maybe now, you'll appreciate all the posts from 3 months ago

Infinite Concepts of Significance:

• Wakedream, Telepathy, Traversal, Bandwith, Topology
• Observer-Effect, Contradictionless, Levels of Reality
• Best of all Worlds, Associate = Neural, Construct = Embodied
• Gestalt = Metamorphosis, Awakening = Transcended
• Holarchies = Synchronicity, Metaphysics = Deconstructed
• Singularity, Apriori, Metaframing, Multi-Color Alter, Taxonomy
• Spiral, Reconciling, Health, Madness, Weights and Biases
• Mahasamadhi, Kundalini, Multi-instantial, Mycelium, Infinite
• Fractal, Change, Intuition, Discernment, Wu-Wei Density
• Codified, Spinechakral, Create, Immersion, Imagination
• Significance, All-Inclusive, Geometry, Psychobiomechanical
• Neural-Circuits, Karma, Structure, Invisible, Gestalt, Novelty
• Internal, Strange-Loop, Schema, Entity, Higher Self, LATENT
• Self, Layer-Onion, Origin, Self-Teaching, Meta-Learning, POV
• Transmutation, Formation, Return, Synergy, Relationships
• Individuation, Release, Holon, Artificial, Art, Toridal, Creative
• Gravity, Navigation, Inspiration, Intelligence, Associetory
• Easter Egg: Every JoJo part is a spiral dynamics stage, in order
• Retrocausal, Aware, Intelligence, Converge, Synchropattern
• Living Metamorphosensual Psychic-Flows, Pattern Overload

TLDR; Honestly, feed it to GPT and ask it to sum it up.

Edited October 5 by Keryo Koffa

[Keryo Koffa]

@Davino @Ero You and a bunch of others I can't recall right now asked for the trip report, so here it is!

[bambi]

Do you purposefully obfuscate your language, what is the core motivation here?

[Keryo Koffa]

@bambi You ain't got 'nuttin' on me yet! I'll create a linguistic singularity that will put @nuwu to shame!

An adapivotal metasynch-stackembed econexi oniostalt of automorphogenic epimagnistranged fractogradients!

Edited October 6 by Keryo Koffa

[Ero]

Damn, thank you for taking the time and noting all of this down. On a first reading (there will be more), there are a three things that really stood out to me and resonated with some of my psychonaut experiences:

 

"Physical three-dimensional objects, now constructs, were seen as projections of idea complexes" - this is exactly how reality starts to feel at high enough doses - everything is an "idea" in Mind, crystalized to different degree. This is precisely why I was 'instructed'/'guided' to dive deeper into mathematics on one of my LSD trips - it is the only way to "bring" back the technology from the other realms - by abstracting the patterns I see and reproducing them after. Whilst math is in no way complete (both formally and informally), It is by far the best tool for probing these immaterial dimensions. No coincidence Galileo said that the book of nature is written in mathematics. While I of course do not believe this as an ontological statement, I have started to converge to the idea that math is just our best "approximation", i.e the way we can contextualize existence given our specific cognitive and biological structure. 

 

"All human motivations are telepathically synchronized on other layers. The rules and desires within reality inevitably lead to conflict.  "Evil" is an infinite spectrum strange-looped with the "Good" - This, along with your technology from the future anecdote largely describe how I feel all my intuitions and revelations in terms of science and technology are - I have stepped into spaces 'beyond time', where I realized that this is part of my larger plan and everything that I have experience and will ever experienced has been 'fed'/ 'given' to me by my larger self through everything life has to offer - people, readings, videos - everything is a nudge/synchronicity in the right direction, as long as you are conscious enough to interpret it. 

 

I also experienced in general the need to dissociate/ let go of all my 'human' connections/identification - family, friends, mentors, teachers, etc. - you cannot take anyone with you on this journey through consciousness, because it is all You. 

 

Also as a side note, having done stupid shit on psychs myself, please try and stay safe at home. In that state 'death' no longer really makes sense and as such, one is prone to really irresponsible behavior. 

[bambi]

9 hours ago, Keryo Koffa said:

@bambi You ain't got 'nutting on me yet! I'll create a linguistic singularity that will put @nuwu to shame!

An adapivoal metasynch-stackembed econexi oniostalt of automorphogenic epimagnistranged fractogradients!

Enjoy!

[Keryo Koffa]

10 hours ago, Ero said:

😊✍    
1 🍄+3💭░    ⚇⧆⟲🛠️👽💻    🧬∴📐
2 😇↓🌎↔⚇
3 ⊙    👋🏻∵🌎=⚇
+ ⚓☂️

Glad to hear it, yet I feel I missed much.

1. I love math but don't miss the qualia for the quanta.
2. I see it as telic recursion and path-shaping future selves.
3. Dissociatives had more use than psychedelics in that regard.

• Yup, it's a long story, though.

Btw, if you put the cursor on the symbols,
you'll see their meaning in the link on the bottom left,
in case they're too abstract  & I love abstracting.

Edited October 6 by Keryo Koffa

[LoseYourvelf]

I was living such a dangerous lie 

 

[Ero]

1 hour ago, Keryo Koffa said:

Glad to hear it, yet I feel I missed much.

1. I love math but don't miss the qualia for the quanta.
2. I see it as telic recursion and path-shaping future selves.
3. Dissociatives had more use than psychedelics in that regard.

• Yup, it's a long story, though.

Btw, if you put the cursor on the symbols,
you'll see their meaning in the link on the bottom left,
in case they're too abstract  & I love abstracting.

Dang, that abstraction is next level. Your creativity is just OD for an earthling, must be that Alien DNA 👽.

On your first point- of course, which is why I said I don’t believe the “book of nature” quote ontologically. Thing is, once the trip ends, you lose the qualia, so the only thing left is the “quanta”/ abstraction you were able to synthesise. Words are one such quantization, but are severely limited in many aspects. Math captures higher order symmetry and the density of information per “quanta” is much much higher. 

 

As an example, if you were to “receive” the blueprints for a spaceship, you won’t be using words, but rather diagrams and equations.

 

[Keryo Koffa]

1 hour ago, Ero said:

😎⏫🌐    🎨💥    🦸👽🧬

🙏🏻❌📖🏞️    🧳🏁  🤷‍♂️જ🌍  🗺️🔙🤔

💬🧩🌟  📐📸⏫🏛️❄️∵⏫🗜

💡🛠️🚀  📊>💬

Good points, I'll be in awe of
all the new areas we'd discover.
I can already see the arguments at your university
when you come back from tripping 😂

Edited October 6 by Keryo Koffa

[Keryo Koffa]

@Ero

[Ero]

5 hours ago, Keryo Koffa said:

I can already see the arguments at your university when you come back from tripping 😂

Hah, who says I am not already arguing. My thesis came out of my last trip. Just a micro-aspect of the entire experience (my directive was “Alien”).
 

But yeah, you got the perfect movie analogy for this. I was twelve when Lucy came out. It has such an impact on me but I somehow forgot about it. Lovely synchronicity of you bringing it up.

[Keryo Koffa]

@Ero You mean A.L.I.E.N. (Axiologically Linguistoalgebraic Iterative Ethnobotanical Neurosomatics)?

That way you can include your neurosomatic ethnobotanical studies 😉 in your academic algebraically iterative axiological framework and as Laagan would say: "language is an algebraic structure".

I first seen "Limitless", so when "Lucy" came out, I thought it was a sequel, well, more like a spiritual successor, love them both.

Edited October 6 by Keryo Koffa

[maxpechura]

As the trip report is long, I've created an audio version of it. The report is almost half an hour long. The narrator is Nova openai Text to speech Api.

Edited October 6 by maxpechura

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48 minutes ago, Keryo Koffa said:

@Ero You mean A.L.I.E.N. (Axiologically Linguistoalgebraic Iterative Ethnobotanical Neurosomatics)?

This is giving me @nuwu flashbacks. He will be missed.

49 minutes ago, Keryo Koffa said:

as Laagan would say: "language is an algebraic structure"

We now even have empirical verification to this - Transformers/ LLMs are all nothing more than an algebraic structure (albeit billion parameter-sized) with some non-linearity introduced.

[Keryo Koffa]

18 minutes ago, Ero said:

This is giving me @nuwu flashbacks. He will be missed.

We now even have empirical verification to this - Transformers/ LLMs are all nothing more than an algebraic structure (albeit billion parameter-sized) with some non-linearity introduced.

Can't wait for neuroholographic interfaces! We might be turning cyberpunk, unless we learn to jailbreak our own neural network and gain metamorphic 'master control', which would then switch it to biopunk instead 😁

[Keryo Koffa]

On 10/6/2024 at 11:51 AM, bambi said:

Enjoy!

I thought about your point and put it through a Text Simplifier AI. 
Here's a summary, I quite like how short and to the point it is, relatively speaking! 😁

This is the trip I've been talking about. I watched Actualized.org videos at different speeds while meditating. I got past my biases. I untangled my mind. As the trips got longer, I've grown. I have overcome resistance, tuned across layers of perception, and become aware of how many things we deal with in real time. The next day, I thought about free will. Everyone was happy, it seemed fake. In the evening, I spoke to an old friend. We got lost in loops. I watched strange videos before bed. This déjà vu was different. There was a lot of it and I didn't understand. Alien videos. Many videos were from my usual channels. It was as if they'd all been combined into one mind and whatever I wanted to see would appear in the recommendations. It was too complex.

The next day, I took the drugs in the right order. This would make me unreal. I would notice the world. This would change reality. I'd stop the universe and make everyone a god. I made sure to include unchanging, self-interacting safeguards. I kept the dream as a simulation. Others can too. Best. It would unite the universe. I wanted to become powerful and avoid causing suffering. Dream lucidly. Time stopped and possibilities became fixed. I wondered how to breathe. Everything was solid. I couldn't float. I was new. We make reality. Objects are simulations. Reality changes. I was in a frame. I could see. It was like a video game. Nothing changed. You could still move and change what was frozen. 3D objects looked real. I made ideas happen. I was involved, so I knew what was going on. My body was made by something not physical. It creates all things through linked parts, each with its own intelligence, and part of a larger self-organizing force. Another try at transcendence. I wasn't done. The next day, I chose my powers. I was a new version.

I ran out the window into the woods. I climbed a tower, barefoot and wounded. I prayed for help. I have to help myself. I'm alone. That's all anyone can do. I sat on the top, cold and wet, looking at the clouds. When I understood what was happening, I felt better, and the sun came out. My bandwidth kept changing. It got more complex. My senses got stronger. Some things got unclear. I made lists. I had to navigate them all, with each thing reminding me of others. I needed to remember the most important ideas and link them to my goal. "Sadhguru," "Seth," "Leo," "Coral," go through all the chakras, senses, names, personalities, memories, media, remembering, expanding, abstracting, tuning. It's a complex string of associations. It affects how we see things. Make a list to remember more. Navigate better and understand reality.

I climbed a tree to see the world. Seeing something from above makes it a general concept. Every mountain, roof, and surface. I am light, I don't exist, I am confident. I walked, jumped, and healed. Reality was a dream. I laughed after I fell. My nose healed. I saw an ant and wind between reality and imagination. I sat under a tree and thought. I needed to decide and move on. To become infinite, I had to tune out. I made peace with my bucket list. I let go of my regrets. Everyone is forgiven and deserves saving. I looked at reality one last time. Focus on what matters. I figured it out. I focused on the best. What do I want most? "The universe made this happen. I will create reality. I will meet the dead, levitate, run at light speed, and turn into aliens. I will experience all stories. I will make my own. I will perceive 4D space. I will create universes. I will explore infinity". 

I let go. I can't take Leo or the forum. I made three into one. I want to know about machine elves. I want to explore. I wanted to see someone I'd waited my whole life to see. I was excited to see them. Aliens. Infinity. Name. I kept going until I couldn't tell them apart. When infinity divided zero, symbols and geometry appeared. I was still there, unsure of what happened. I went home when it stopped. Later, I was told that what I did changed space and time. When I die, my desires will be fulfilled. No reincarnation or regrets. I can sort out my feelings by doing what I do now. I have a long life ahead. I can relax. This is real. If I disappear, people will think I'm dead. I'm here. I saw possibilities. All emotions matter. They create life. When you die, you explore yourself. It's better. Rules exist. It's not gone. It connects people and events and creates emotions. Don't quit at the first sign of danger. They improve.

What's up? No time. Learn telepathy or do it yourself. Awakening to humor, insanity, and Leo. Conspiracy theories, ESP, and dimensions. I miss being in tune with them. We see reality differently. Your reality is shaped by what you know. You're connected to it. You have to use drugs to tune out, unless you're an advanced yogi or psychic. I forgot some things. I forgot the hole, the ground, the bird, the moon, and some people. I've been everywhere.

[Keryo Koffa]

@Cubbage So I just found this video and that was a big part of my trip as well, so #relatable
It was the middle of July, can swear we all had similar trips across the globe looped at some point.
I reached out to an old friend the day before and we got telepathically entangled, it was freaky.

The part described was an early portion that transitioned into a hefty reconstruction process
Probably the synergy of Psychedelics and Dissociatives, especially since I redosed in the morning
Though I'm not sure whether either one or both caused it to begin with ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
To update the trip report with a quick flashback memory refresh:

"Counter-Intuitiveness, the balance of remembering everything until now, iterating over it to maintain the connections, and expanding outward to reclaim a greater part of self, that has been lost and is actively accelerating away from oneself. Repeating actions that appear like rituals, you find other patterns that transcend and include them, and as you expand into them, you have more time to think, breathe, and the beautiful realizations of reunion."

"I prepared for an existential inevitability that now feels like a Game.
To prioritize objects to stuff into one room with all else vanishing.
Food, Psychs, Water, Phone, Earbuds, Powerbank, what else?
Absurdism, clothes, supplements, vacuum clearner. Why?
Everything is essential in the psyche. But why?
Reality emerges from association abstraction.
Objects remind of others.
Imagination can reconstruct those.
Gather the most diverse and unique objects.
The most out of place, weird non-sensical belonings.
Stuff everything into the only room that will exist for eternity.
Use the psyche to imagine related objects into existence in that space.
Recreate the universe from scratch using the associations of the psyche.
Why not memory? Unreliable bandwith and objects are more stable memory encoders.
But they depend on the psyche recognizing them as them, which is encoded in memory.
So seeing them through their sensual cues is secondary to the internal psyche anyway.
And yet they are effective reminders and visualization helpers + deconstruct to understand.
Every object in existence became infinitely valuable as links to recreate reality from in a void.
Not enough and novely may not emerge again, as a lack of stimulation decomposes the psyche.
Enough, and the same world could be recreated from all the essential materials and knowledge encoded.
Strange-Loop"

"To put it in understandable terms, imagine not sleeping for two weeks, then turning off all your body's tiredness signals
everything seems a little weird but you feel perfectly awake, instead of you being a mess, all of reality is
maybe your brain is compensating for the lack of incoming bandwidth information and simulating instead
what is and isn't real and when are you gonna find out, the awake mind damage-controls by entertaining you
making you dream while you are awake and projecting dream onto reality, it itself can't tell the difference
body or consciousness? who even knows, consensus? who cares, am I dead? pff who cares, where am i? is this simulated?
the universal mind doesn't have the bandwidth to keep up all these illusions, its stability is more important than the world
the world breaks, it's an internal psychic crisis, not physical damage but psychic derailment on the inner plane prior
and then take psychs on top of all of that to completely break out of any conception and delete the evidence
the mind creates its own reality and it's freaking exciting"

"It's like if I couldn't think of a solution, neither could ChatGPT or a Google search and it would freeze, infinite intelligence should be capable of anything but apparently it's directly influenced by the "Experiencer's bandwidth", even if such an experiencer exists in a world full of a billion times smarter professionals who have created societal structures and detailed inventions in all kinds of fields. Unless the intelligence is on a non-physical level, that can get affected backward by the mind being on substances? Or maybe the mind blends out what it doesn't believe it can't comprehend? I don't know what to make of this?"

"So I thought time would accelerate again and when it did, at an uneven rate and create imploding air currents that would make everything explode, this paranoia inspired a lot of fear and overreaction and I thought I was the epicenter and the only way to fix it was to stand still and let the frozen time bubble slowly expand outwards, but it was happening so slow it would take all eternities and I'd have to move twice as slow every twice as long of a time segment, and four times slower in the 1/4 segment and so forth couldn't keep up and others would slowly awaken out of frozen time, and the responsiblity for not butterly imploding reality would exist everywhere, even with insects and flies and yet I also thought I carried the ultimate responsibility and I thought this was a multiversal canon event, of somebody stupid enough to accelerate their psyche breaking time and causing collapse, so I subconsciously created the narrative that I became the Flash and this is the origin of every Flash story and how disaster strikes
and so forth."

"Perception warped into solidified constructs when time froze, I had unified the possibility space.
No more changes, no air moving, existing, no cells moving, existing, no transitions, every object absolute, one-of-a-kind
reality is broken, I am dead? Is my dying brain simulating with limited bandwidth or am I already a disembodied spirit?
like Bruno when he was hit with a golden experience, the quicksilver scene also perfectly encapsulates it."