I want to change the world

[Samsonov]

As I am very critical of modernity, and society in general, I aspire to start over, with a group of people, try to find a place where we could grow our on food, build houses, educate children, party, and live communally. A tribe is a word that comes to mind, that is an ambitious desire, but at this point I do not see any other way for me. I struggle to get the balance between my lofty ideas and day to day practicality. On the one hand, growing food, building simple earth houses and survival itself is pretty simple, ( didn't say easy) on the other hand, it just feels impossible to start, it's as if there is something blocking me, whether its a lack of courage, experience or resources or is it generally not feasible, it must be, it is the collective dream of our generation, the zeitgeist, do you have a similar desire/calling? do you face similar struggles ? I m pretty much paralysed, because of my "grand vision" of a new world.

[Sandhu]

I would say it's a fantasy to escape reality.

You can check that:

If you just desire for it and not love your life as it is = fantasy

If you logically see it as a genuine solution for your worldly problem and for your fulfilment = It's a legitimate purpose to work for

[Samsonov]

What if the reality lies in between those two, all life purposes start as fantasies don't they?
It is just that I have always had very grand aspiration, but that is who I am, when I was a boy I remember promising myself that it would be better to die than not pursue them

Yes, I get that the spiritual advice coming from the things you say is that the work is in finding love and happiness in my life now.
Perhaps it is a matter of the phase Im in, still young and trying to shape my life before I am ready to say that enough for me, and be happy.

[Nilsi]

 

[LordFall]

I would volunteer on one or a farm to see if your fantasy life is as pleasurable as you make it out to be. Also, I would break down which parts of modernity you dislike. Is it just a job? Start a business. Is it a lack of deep relationships? Start a cooperative project right now in your city.

A lot of the lack of enjoyment in the current modern experience is probably in your lack of skill in navigating the system not so much the system itself. This is great news because you can learn and get better at the things that are causing you problems. For example, financial issues are a massive drain on 99% of society but there are precise ways to fix that. 

[Samsonov]

*Responding pretty late I know but why not
I have volunteered in many farm all over the world for the past two years and there is no doubt in my mind that this is the lifestyle that Ill best enjoy.
Ill continue in answering by the positive side, I enjoy the engagement it gives me, being cable and independently surviving, seeing for myself what it really takes to take care of your basic needs ( here I am linking a video of a guy that I met who grows 100% of his food on only 12 days of work a year!)
and yes the main thing might be deep relationships I know I want to have, where I hope to develop with other who share similar a value system and devotion to truth.
I don't have anything against starting a business generally, but yes many issues with the current system, with it's overemphasis on productivity, and inability to see how the search for comfort and avoidance of emotional labour leads to the wave of suffering we are witnessing. So I do not seek to better navigate the system, which I did for the first 18 years of my life, but I aspire to live out of it, off-grid, scofflaw, let see how it goes:)

[selasomes]

What in the vinland saga 

[selasomes]

 

Edited October 26 by selasomes