5-MeO Vulva ROA?

[manuel bon]

1 hour ago, Keryo Koffa said:

I like you

❤️

[shree]

3 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

Ahah, the spiritual elite. 

 

The vulva is too impermeable, nothing will pass into the blood. 

It would be like putting DMT in the urethra.

Your claim that the vulva can’t absorb substances is embarrassingly wrong. The fact that you brush this off shows you haven’t done your homework. The vaginal walls can absorb substances, and how well they do depends on the drug. You’re oversimplifying a much more complex topic.

[Schizophonia]

14 minutes ago, shree said:

Your claim that the vulva can’t absorb substances is embarrassingly wrong. The fact that you brush this off shows you haven’t done your homework. The vaginal walls can absorb substances, and how well they do depends on the drug. You’re oversimplifying a much more complex topic.

You pretend not to see the abuse of language.

You are regularly contaminated dermally by molecules that are less than a few hundred daltons, that does not mean that rubbing any substance on the skin is a good roa.

That was my point. 

[Keryo Koffa]

@Schizophonia You did miss all the witch tales though

[Emerald]

9 hours ago, OBEler said:

@Emerald what psychedelics do you prefer as a woman?

@What Am I interesting theory 

I haven't done many psychedelics as I don't much like to be in altered states of consciousness.

Ayahuasca is really the only medicine that I've developed a relationship with, which I've been doing once per year for the past 5 years.

I did try psilocyben once and got a lot out of it, but preferred the Ayahuasca. 

[OBEler]

3 hours ago, Emerald said:

I haven't done many psychedelics as I don't much like to be in altered states of consciousness.

Ayahuasca is really the only medicine that I've developed a relationship with, which I've been doing once per year for the past 5 years.

I did try psilocyben once and got a lot out of it, but preferred the Ayahuasca. 

It seems to me women prefer social events and not really doing the psychedelic alone for the sake of itself. And Ayahuasca is known as a group event.I guess you also did psilocybin with someone else.

I have the feeling in terms of psychedelics women are curious, but they are not interested in truth /god realizations. They do it for adventure/having fun, social connections, how it makes them feel and healing their mental problems.

Men on the other hand prefer doing it alone, really for the sake of itself und for searching for truth /god and mystical experiences, sometimes also for trauma healing/self development.

Edited September 20 by OBEler

[Realms of Wonder]

I’m not a women, but, I would imagine that vaginal or genital ‘boofing’ may upset the PH of the area.

[Emerald]

3 hours ago, OBEler said:

It seems to me women prefer social events and not really doing the psychedelic alone for the sake of itself. And Ayahuasca is known as a group event.I guess you also did psilocybin with someone else.

I have the feeling in terms of psychedelics women are curious, but they are not interested in truth /god realizations. They do it for adventure/having fun, social connections, how it makes them feel and healing their mental problems.

Men on the other hand prefer doing it alone, really for the sake of itself und for searching for truth /god and mystical experiences, sometimes also for trauma healing/self development.

I'm not so sure about that assumption. Having gone to 5 different medicine ceremonies, there are plenty of women seeking ego death and ego transcendence experiences for their own sake. But most men and women seek these experiences to heal deeper traumas.

I definitely sought the medicine first out of pure curiosity (back 15 years ago) and in recent years mostly in order to heal underlying individual, generational, and collective worldly traumas and to connect with God.

And each time I've ever done a psychedelic, I realize myself as God. That's true with all 7 Aya journeys I've taken, and my mushroom journey. 

Though, all of these God realizations are there just to enrich my experience in this lifetime.

It shows me that I'm the other side of its face and the value of the Feminine worldliness from its perspective, so that I can embrace the value of the world of the forms in a world whose religious practices of the past 5000 years have been very patriarchal and in opposition to the material (maternal) world.

And there's a lot of immersion into a goddess-like state where I recognize myself as Mother Nature itself, and there is this sense that my relationship with my body and humanity's relationship with Earth are one and the same. 

And it shows me how my individual neuroses both reflect and cause world-wide issues. And in my embodiment as the great mother, I have done work on giving birthing a new Earth in my journeys.

But I wouldn't feel comfortable or safe doing a psychedelic alone as I need someone and something to anchor back into to bring myself back to my limited Earthly ordinary perspective. So, I wouldn't do something like that by myself as that would be overwhelming.

But a huge theme within these journeys is recognizing and integrating Yin values like worldliness, limitation, suffering, illusion, and death.

[OBEler]

12 minutes ago, Emerald said:

 

Wow that's deep then my assumptions may be not on point, thank you for sharing your perspective. 

[Leo Gura]

@Emerald At your next ceremony, splash some Aya in the ol' cooch and let us know how that goes.

For science! 

[Someone here]

@Leo Gura be a man and delete your porn collection. 

[Emerald]

2 hours ago, OBEler said:

Wow that's deep then my assumptions may be not on point, thank you for sharing your perspective. 

You're welcome.

There's a lot in the Feminine spiritual path, and God has specifically reflected to me in my journeys that the reason I'm female in the first place is because I preferred this path... which is quite similar to what Ken Wilbur was saying in the quote you had up previously.

The way I would characterize the more Masculine path (which I've also had some experience with, but I don't prefer it) is the realization of nothingness as a result of ego death. While the Feminine path is the Earthly path... and is about finding meaning and beauty through embracing limitations and dualities. 

In my Ayahuasca experience back in 2020 right at the beginning of the pandemic, I came in with the question "Should I continue to seek enlightenment or should I double down into my human perspective as Emerald?"

And this had been something nagging at me at the time.

And so, when I took the Ayahuasca, I began to die. And there was this wave of death coming in to annihilate me. And there was nothing I could do. So, I surrendered to it... and I kept working to surrender and surrender and surrender. And I even had to surrender to the fact that there were parts of me that couldn't surrender.

And then, there was pure nothingness and pure consciousness. And the consciousness recognized the enlightened state, but there was no Emerald to experience it. Emerald and the entire world had blown away like dust in the wind... and obvious illusion.

Then, from that nothingness the everythingness began to arise. And the consciousness that typically sits behind my eyes experienced itself as the infinite God mind and infinite God heart. And my consciousness was in the perspective of the Divine Masculine... love and knowing all forever and ever and eternity all in one instant. And my consciousness was grieving all griefs and suffering all sufferings in this infinite nothingness where everythingness arises.

But then, the point of consciousness that typically sits behind my eyes couldn't tolerate the infinite suffering. And the point of consciousnesss that sits behind my eyes went from an infinite oneness and split into to a twoness. And there was God consciousness and a slightly split off fractured God consciousness. And the whole God consciousness would wrap itself around everything and this fractured God consciousness and alleviate all the sufferings.

And the point of consciousness that typically sits behind my eyes would feel relieved... only to have infinite suffering re-arise and to be back to grieving all griefs and suffering all sufferings. 

And this cycle of suffering as semi-fractured God consciousness went on and on and on for an eternity, until the point of consciousness that sits behind my eyes surrendered and conceded that it could not be with the infinite suffering any longer.

So, God... out of mercy towards itself... split this part of itself off completely to give it mercy from the infinite by embodying it in a finite form.

And then, after an eternity of death, the Emerald illusion was re-spun. And I was born again in the same moment of death from an eternity before when the medicine journey first began.  And I now understood why I decided to come into this life in the first place... as God's vacation from the infinite.

But I was like Gandalf in the Lord of the Rings when he forgot his name after an eternity outside of space/time. And it was difficult to get re-grounded as Emerald.

And then, after I came back into form I had to struggle to keep my consciousness grounded to my body as the Ayahuasca was still in effect. And I fought and fought and fought in a process that felt a little like death, a little like sex, and a little like childbirth.

And then after this struggle, I gave birth to the new world. (Note: This was the first week the pandemic lockdowns began and that was evidently related to this new world.)

And God consciousness (now separate) was sharing with me that my life's purpose is mercy... and that my reason for being incarnate is mercy through limitation of suffering. And that I can also, act as an intermediary in my life to help other human beings experience mercy. And it had gifted me with capacities and experiences of trauma and suffering for doing that... just because I wanted to be able to play that role.

The thing is... hen you're incarnate, you have one lifetime of suffering and joy. And you can have meaning and there's beauty to it. And you have the choice to choose joy in your life.

And it answered my question, and it was clear to me that I much prefer the Feminine embodiment path and not the Masculine transcendent path.

And in this path, you get to be like the precious gem of God... living separately from it and acting as its beloved as it gives you gifts and you receive them.

And because of past traumas, I had grown up with a lot of resistance to the Feminine and had held a lot of esoterically patriarchal values. But it showed me that it had made me female for a reason, and affirmed to me that my path is a more Feminine path. 

And I looked down at my nails (I had gotten fake nails with French tips earlier that week, so they looked more Feminine than usual), and as I looked down at my arms and hands... I recognized myself being cradled by the arms of the goddess. And I was both the goddess and the child of the goddess.

But the entire universe was the arms and hands of the goddess... which were also my own arms and hands.

Then, after a while, I was just the ordinary human Emerald again and I grieved intensely and was crying.

But the whole next day I was very alone. There were only 8 people at the ceremony (there's usually 80 at these ceremonies), and everyone was sequestered away from each other because it was the first week of the pandemic.

And I was all by myself and there was this small subtle translucent white contoured sacred geometry shape (like a circle inside a triangle inside a square) that hung around all day in my upper vision. And it felt like the barrier between myself and the infinite was ripped, and all the infinite was coming through this small rip in my consciousness.

And I was afraid of getting sick from Covid, so I tried not to connect with others and stay alone. And I kept taking a bunch of showers to try to ground myself. But it was like my consciousness was running away from my body. And all of my trauma wounds had been opened.

And everything felt WAY too holy and pure. And it was clear to me why there are folktales about demons not being able to exist on hallowed ground. Experiencing too much purity and holiness is like an intense heat that starts to melt away all barriers.

And because of this feeling of dissolution, I finally caved and decided to go connect with other people at the retreat because I felt like I was going to go crazy if I didn't. And I did feel quite a bit more grounded once I did.

But the BEST feeling, when my husband picked me up from the retreat on the final day, was that we got out to the highway. And there was the mercy of honking horns, traffic Jams, and my husband's road rage. 

And I was immersed back into the world of profanity and imperfection. And it was such a relief from the intensity of the holiness and purity.

But when I was at the Ayahuasca church, for the couple days after my ceremony it was like the whole place felt like it was existing on some holier plane that I couldn't exist comfortably on as it was driving all of my traumas and separations to the surface and breaking them down... and pulling me away from my state of separation from God and drawing me in closer to disintegration and death... like Icarus flying too close to the sun. 

And once I was back in the world of forms, it was like the moon came out again and gave me some mercy from the sun.

And connecting with other people is a great way to get you back grounded into the world of form.

[Emerald]

3 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

@Emerald At your next ceremony, splash some Aya in the ol' cooch and let us know how that goes.

For science! 

Well, that just sounds like a recipe for the worst yeast infection EVER. 

[OBEler]

@Emerald very profound, you seem spiritual gifted for sure. God realizations on Aya are not so common.

[Thought Art]

Cringe

[Emerald]

10 hours ago, OBEler said:

@Emerald very profound, you seem spiritual gifted for sure. God realizations on Aya are not so common.

Thank you. It seems to me that I'm very sensitive to substances in general (even alcohol). And with regard to entheogens I only need a little bit to have a profound spiritual experience. I have never experienced a psychedelic where it didn't include an awakening to the presence of God.

I went to the ceremonies a few times with a friend. And in his first sitting with Ayahuasca, there were entities that were showing him things... and taking him on a ride in vehicle. And the entities were sharing insights with him.

And he had to purge and had to integrate his hatred.

Then, once he did that... in his next sitting with the Ayahuasca he was able to experience God directly from that point onward.

And God had told him that, previously, he wasn't ready for it because he hadn't integrated his hatred yet. So, he needed intermediary entities to communicate to him... as opposed to going directly to the source.

And God shared with him that the definition of unconditional love is to accept everything and its opposite... and as a reflection of this insight he asked him if he could love the Nazis. And he said "no". And God said "I can."

[Schizophonia]

On 9/20/2024 at 5:08 PM, Emerald said:

I did try psilocyben once and got a lot out of it, but preferred the Ayahuasca. 

I've never tried ayahuasca but i've often seen it's would be rather yin while psilocybin would rather be "yang".

[bambi]

Its so wierd, after all my trips and experiences I still have never experience any of this femine and masculine stuff everyone goes on about. I feel like I am missing out on the party, I dont resonate to any of it whatsoever, feels like a total false dichotomy to me, maybe I need to try ayuasca

Edited September 21 by bambi

[Emerald]

On 9/21/2024 at 2:49 PM, Schizophonia said:

I've never tried ayahuasca but i've often seen it's would be rather yin while psilocybin would rather be "yang".

That fits with my experience a bit. 

The Ayahuasca has a more Feminine feel to it, even though the God elements of the experiences were very Masculine.

But the mushrooms have this, (what I call) crazy uncle vibe.

It didn't have as nurturing and strong of a touch to it. Tough it was powerful in its own right... it just didd have as much of a bedside manner. 

[Keryo Koffa]

1 hour ago, Emerald said:

That fits with my experience a bit. 

The Ayahuasca has a more Feminine feel to it, even though the God elements of the experiences were very Masculine.

But the mushrooms have this, (what I call) crazy uncle vibe.

It didn't have as nurturing and strong of a touch to it. Tough it was powerful in its own right... it just didd have as much of a bedside manner. 

The crazy uncle vibe is what acid is to me 😁

@Schizophonia How long are you gonna project your paradigm into the psychedelic self-fulfilling prophecies?