Re-gracing

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I have been adding layers of lies and perfsonality/story/formation ever since I sat down at a computer as a young boy, i have became coiled around nothing through a window of impressions in my true empty nature

my true nature is a perfect reversal of this game

 

You will stand corrected

Edited October 10 by LoseYourvelf

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"The fault in the stars" really resonating, the phrase not the film or w/e

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Death of the universe

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300 mics + strong weed at peak + psychedelic music = awakening

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"Ashes to Ashes" and the face he's pulling on the title card remind me of ego death

Edited October 13 by LoseYourvelf

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I'm stuck with a valuable friend

I'm Happy, Hope you're Happy too

Edited October 13 by LoseYourvelf

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I'm not letting people's petty little self preferences for who they like/the way they like people to talk to others/what they consider "Nice" bother me to be honest - they self-created a way to hurt me and accepted they needed to use it - pure weakness

Don't return to any of my posts/advice before you awaken, you have fucked your karma. No more shallow end toe dipping, go now, go now, go child. You have karma to integrate you won't dampen my trip in your root chakra

My posts should read like grating metal until you're ready for the message

Edited October 13 by LoseYourvelf

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I keep getting self actualized here

Rn im scared of my meds meds medication 

I know where I'm at though I just know it's gonna be heavy to peak 

I'm very happy with current progress but my depression is a huge fogwall, I'm gonna have to take shortcuts around my fear/energy levels 

Content wise atm I've made a pseudo rule where I have to consume stuff I already own or am aware of that I haven't finished, I'm like pre swamping my digestive tract with stuff I haven't even eaten. I'm watching Succession (TV series) and it feels like the least cheesy/forced one I've tried recently.

I have an impossible depression fogwall I need to gather small victories on, maybe I'll start painting warhammer I have no idea yet

The only time I feel relaxed is when I'm watching right wing media drivel, I'm just that based

Jordan Peterson is like an unwritably gauche self-fulfilling ironic comedy act, it's like he's parodying himself these days. He really does have a Kermit stench about him that is so impossibly woven into his caricature. If I needed something doing it wouldn't be going on his desk though, he doesn't come off as profound or utile these days

Progress is at an absolute crawl but I'm eating good ramen with chicken breast, sugar snap peas and spring onions

If I meditate atm I'm doing self inquiry for direction and stuff to do and always coming up empty handed

Edited October 15 by LoseYourvelf

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There's nothing wrong with being yourself

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I'm begging for salvation

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Destiny look my way

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The glass drip tip for my e-mesh device arrived and i got a long strip of mesh on there burning evenly.

 

Still too scared atm but when I next use it it's going to be  N,N sub break thru leading up to a break thru

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Edited October 28 by LoseYourvelf

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Great DMT break through last night

Dmt is an amazing friendly psych. The first thing I feel with a sizable vaped dose is pure letting go, pure surrender, pure love

 

I hope they release Tommy this shit is absolutely insane

TOMMY TOMMY TOMMY TOMMY
TOMMY TOMMY TOMMY TOMMY
TOMMY TOMMY TOMMY TOMMY
TOMMY TOMMY TOMMY TOMMY
TOMMY TOMMY TOMMY TOMMY
TOMMY TOMMY TOMMY TOMMY

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I feel like Acid and DMT would be an extremely good combo