From Krystal Aranyani to Venus Valencia

[Ishanga]

I used to watch her video's, the first video I saw of her was her talking about personality types and trauma and how to deal with it, she promoted Yoga, Tantra, and had workshops, she dated another Utube Spiritual Guy as well for a while years ago, she basically was promoting her self as a self help Guru of sorts, into Spirituality and promoting healthy Living, then she goes offline and is now Doing Porn, what happened here??

video from 6yrs ago...

now her today,,

 

 

Edited September 17 by Ishanga

[Brittany]

There is this entire new movement of "conscious porn" that people in the New Age community talk about sometimes.

Krystal Aranyani wants to mix awakening/tantra and porn and bring consciousness into the porn industry.

Hitomi Mochizuki also has ads for that stuff in her videos.

I don't resonate with it, but I will try not to judge.

[Ishanga]

6 minutes ago, Brittany said:

There is this entire new movement of "conscious porn" that people in the New Age community talk about sometimes.

Krystal Aranyani wants to mix awakening/tantra and porn and bring consciousness into the porn industry.

Hitomi Mochizuki also has ads for that stuff in her videos.

I don't resonate with it, but I will try not to judge.

She is free to live her life as she pleases, that is a given, no judgement there on a personal level.  Its just a curiosity for me, the two different paths are radically opposed, from teaching yoga postures, pranayama, tantric principles, to having a Man cum on Your Face, is that not a radical difference, something happened within her for that too happen.. In her previous videos from years ago, she would talk about her life, there was sexual abuse, and severe judgement from classmates on her appearance, and she did work as a stripper before, but even with that, it is much different from heavy porn as she is doing it now..

I watched her most recent video, she explains her reasoning for doing porn and what it is like to be on a set, and yes to someday direct and produce her own porn video's that appear more "conscious", but she also mentioned how she luvs it when men/women on the set praise her Body and Sexual energy at her age, she gets off on it, so there is something deeper happening here,  I am not judging her, she can do what she wants, I am curious about the deeper aspects of this change in career and outlook on life, from yoga posture to cum on face...

[Brittany]

I didn't click the link on the main post so I don't know what she is currently doing now. haha I get the gist from her Instagram feed. 

She explains what happened to her, to shift her mind so drastically, in this video from Time Stamp at 4:40 to 15:50

Video Here

From the video, it sounds like if her boyfriend/baby never died, she would have been a wife and mother in Canada right now.

So she was dealing with 2 deaths.

[Ishanga]

13 minutes ago, Brittany said:

I didn't click the link on the main post so I don't know what she is currently doing now. haha I get the gist from her Instagram feed. 

She explains what happened to her, to shift her mind so drastically, in this video from Time Stamp at 4:40 to 15:50

Video Here

From the video, it sounds like if her boyfriend/baby never died, she would have been a wife and mother in Canada right now.

So she was dealing with 2 deaths.

Yes, she has had lots of trauma in her life, ppl look at her and may think oh wow such a beautiful woman, life must be great but one never knows. 

My take on her and others like her is that it is just a need being fulfilled, there is a sense of suffering in them for whatever reason, so the natural instinct is to alleviate this somehow, and unconsciously it leads them down certain paths in life. Although my ego may judge it, I do not, I can see what the ego is saying, it happens a thousand times a day, but if there is a separation btwn what is You and not You, then its okay..

On a certain level Porn fulfills a need, like Prostitution, as long as it involves consenting adults then who is too say anything about it, but on a more fundamental level it is not so healthy, the ppl/men watching it become addicted and it goes out of control, all of this is just a sign of Unconsciousness manifesting in millions of ways, if we can raise Human Consciousness to higher levels then life transforms on this planet, porn and such won't be needed then...

 

[Brittany]

I agree with you that if we raise human consciousness to higher levels, then people won't be gravitated to porn anymore.

But Krystal seems to be thinking about this in a completely different angle.

She seems to be treating this as more than "just a need to be being fulfilled".

And she is taking her involvement in the sex industry very seriously.

It's not a joke to her.

Maybe this is her life purpose? 

I don't know. haha

Here are some quotes from Krystal that highlight this:

- "I really started feeling that it's part of my mission to shine a light on the sex industry and given my position in the spiritual community that I'm the person to do this."   - Krystal Aranyani

"I think that it's better for us to come into these industries and into these spaces and share our magic and share what we've learned that has really helped us along our path in these spaces rather than separating ourselves from them. We can really bring in spirituality into everything and I think that's important with where we're going at this time on our planet rather than just staying in ashrams, which I did for many years and learning all of these incredible tools it's like okay now how can I go out into the world"   - Krystal Aranyani

- "You know there's a dark side to it and I just think that it can be evolved into something a lot more beautiful and I am passionate about that because I do see pornography as a beautiful art as I shared. "  - Krystal Aranyani

- "We're infiltrating the porn industry. We're Trojan horsing it, we're calling it Trojan unicorning it. So we're really bringing it in like when people aren't aware of it, and we're bringing the sacredness, the sacred sensuality, and we're awakening it from the core, from the inside out." - Krystal Aranyani

- "I teach traditional tantra which is not sexualized tantra, but the tantric perspective in my opinion around this is all sex, all that we do is tantric. Tantra is really rejecting nothing in this existence and seeing it all as divine. There's many layers to that statement but regarding pornography and the adult industry, it doesn't matter if you see me having animalistic, wild sex, it doesn't matter if you see me having connected eye gazing with a partner. to me it is divine each partner I have is divine and it's all a practice of seeing the divine seeing God within each other "   - Krystal Aranyani

- "A part of my purpose is to share and shine a light on the sex industry because the thing with the sex industry is it's always going to exist" - Krystal Aranyani

- "Other than that, sharing the negative detrimental effects that porn has, there's not any solutions. So what I'm doing and with others that I'm teaming up with is to provide solutions because it's not going anywhere. And I believe that this global awakening of consciousness, which is what we are absolutely experiencing at a heightened pace the past few years since the pandemic, especially brought stirred, stuff was stirring and it all brought that more to surface, woke a lot of people up. And with this awakening, learning how to release shame around our sexuality and our sexual energy is I believe one of the absolute most important parts of this and it's an industry that is ignored and shunned and hidden and we're not talking about this enough so that is why I am talking about it." - Krystal Aranyani

- " I will be heavily judged, heavily shamed. I've missed opportunities now when people find out that I'm in the industry. My family is being put down, attacked as well. And why is this? Why do you think that this is? because sex is the most powerful energy in existence, and yet we fear it, we shame it, we suppress it until it explodes in dangerous and even violent ways. We pretend that this energy doesn't even exist. We pretend that the human body and the feminine body does not exist. We drink from our mother's nipples, sacred nipples, that give us life, And then at a certain age we're told those nipples don't exist. We're not allowed to post about them We're not allowed to talk about them. We're not allowed to look at them They no longer exist only in these shameful places like pornography. This is all so outdated and in this process you forget where you came from and in this process of Suppressing and hiding our bodies and our sexuality You forget where you came from, you forget about the mother, the sacredness of our mother, of the feminine. You disconnect and hide from the most sacred parts of yourself. You shame your desires and keep them hiding deep within, which creates disease, disease. You end up judging and separating yourself from others if they don't do the same. You forget who you are and you forget your own power, your power to create lives within and outside of you. And I don't just mean for women. We have the seed of life within us when we heal our trauma, judgment, pain and fears around ourselves, around our bodies, around especially the feminine body, the mother, the body of the mother that brought us into existence. When we release the shame, the trauma, the judgments around us, the suppression, the fear is when the world will transform and I deeply believe that. And the sex industry is a part of this transformation. It is a major player in this transformation. " - Krystal Aranyani

[Ishanga]

5 minutes ago, Brittany said:

I agree with you that if we raise human consciousness to higher levels, then people won't be gravitated to porn anymore.

But Krystal seems to be thinking about this in a completely different angle.

She seems to be treating this as more than "just a need to be being fulfilled".

And she is taking her involvement in the sex industry very seriously.

It's not a joke to her.

Maybe this is her life purpose? 

I don't know. haha

Here are some quotes from Krystal that highlight this:

- "I really started feeling that it's part of my mission to shine a light on the sex industry and given my position in the spiritual community that I'm the person to do this."   - Krystal Aranyani

"I think that it's better for us to come into these industries and into these spaces and share our magic and share what we've learned that has really helped us along our path in these spaces rather than separating ourselves from them. We can really bring in spirituality into everything and I think that's important with where we're going at this time on our planet rather than just staying in ashrams, which I did for many years and learning all of these incredible tools it's like okay now how can I go out into the world"   - Krystal Aranyani

- "You know there's a dark side to it and I just think that it can be evolved into something a lot more beautiful and I am passionate about that because I do see pornography as a beautiful art as I shared. "  - Krystal Aranyani

- "We're infiltrating the porn industry. We're Trojan horsing it, we're calling it Trojan unicorning it. So we're really bringing it in like when people aren't aware of it, and we're bringing the sacredness, the sacred sensuality, and we're awakening it from the core, from the inside out." - Krystal Aranyani

- "I teach traditional tantra which is not sexualized tantra, but the tantric perspective in my opinion around this is all sex, all that we do is tantric. Tantra is really rejecting nothing in this existence and seeing it all as divine. There's many layers to that statement but regarding pornography and the adult industry, it doesn't matter if you see me having animalistic, wild sex, it doesn't matter if you see me having connected eye gazing with a partner. to me it is divine each partner I have is divine and it's all a practice of seeing the divine seeing God within each other "   - Krystal Aranyani

- "A part of my purpose is to share and shine a light on the sex industry because the thing with the sex industry is it's always going to exist" - Krystal Aranyani

- "Other than that, sharing the negative detrimental effects that porn has, there's not any solutions. So what I'm doing and with others that I'm teaming up with is to provide solutions because it's not going anywhere. And I believe that this global awakening of consciousness, which is what we are absolutely experiencing at a heightened pace the past few years since the pandemic, especially brought stirred, stuff was stirring and it all brought that more to surface, woke a lot of people up. And with this awakening, learning how to release shame around our sexuality and our sexual energy is I believe one of the absolute most important parts of this and it's an industry that is ignored and shunned and hidden and we're not talking about this enough so that is why I am talking about it." - Krystal Aranyani

- " I will be heavily judged, heavily shamed. I've missed opportunities now when people find out that I'm in the industry. My family is being put down, attacked as well. And why is this? Why do you think that this is? because sex is the most powerful energy in existence, and yet we fear it, we shame it, we suppress it until it explodes in dangerous and even violent ways. We pretend that this energy doesn't even exist. We pretend that the human body and the feminine body does not exist. We drink from our mother's nipples, sacred nipples, that give us life, And then at a certain age we're told those nipples don't exist. We're not allowed to post about them We're not allowed to talk about them. We're not allowed to look at them They no longer exist only in these shameful places like pornography. This is all so outdated and in this process you forget where you came from and in this process of Suppressing and hiding our bodies and our sexuality You forget where you came from, you forget about the mother, the sacredness of our mother, of the feminine. You disconnect and hide from the most sacred parts of yourself. You shame your desires and keep them hiding deep within, which creates disease, disease. You end up judging and separating yourself from others if they don't do the same. You forget who you are and you forget your own power, your power to create lives within and outside of you. And I don't just mean for women. We have the seed of life within us when we heal our trauma, judgment, pain and fears around ourselves, around our bodies, around especially the feminine body, the mother, the body of the mother that brought us into existence. When we release the shame, the trauma, the judgments around us, the suppression, the fear is when the world will transform and I deeply believe that. And the sex industry is a part of this transformation. It is a major player in this transformation. " - Krystal Aranyani

Yes, and there's nothing really wrong with it and with what she is doing, again if two consenting Adults agree to do it, then who is too judge it on a personal level, and even better if they enjoy it then all the best too them..If she is going to continue in the porn business she might as well make it a Conscious as it can be.  But I still think its a bit Egoic in some ways, there is a "if I do this, make it more conscious, then I will feel better by doing so, and be looked upon in a certain way" there is an external validation game still going on I think, but I hope it all works out for Her.

My point is more fundamental, what is the Point of Porn, now there is so much variety and Porn is very Huge, porn content takes up allot of space on the internet.  Sex and such is basic level of Awareness, it is Basic level of Consciousness level when it comes to the actions we can perform, lets say compared to volunteering in a hospice or sick kids hospital and charity orgs,  Porn and those that work in it and those that watch it, there is something going on in the psyche and shadow world, its interesting that is all, and with Krystal she has lots of experience with Spirituality and the knowledge of it, its not like she is just a person off the street, doesn't know this stuff and then starts to do porn to make money and be famous...I just wonder how and why it is happen, I posted my theory but its just a theory:)

[Brittany]

 

35 minutes ago, Ishanga said:

Porn and those that work in it and those that watch it, there is something going on in the psyche and shadow world, its interesting that is all, and with Krystal she has lots of experience with Spirituality and the knowledge of it, its not like she is just a person off the street, doesn't know this stuff and then starts to do porn to make money and be famous...I just wonder how and why it is happen, I posted my theory but its just a theory:)

I feel the same way. haha

[Princess Arabia]

Why would you post a porn link on here. Aside from that, welcome to the game called life. Not everything will make sense to you. In your mind doing Spirituality and all you said she did spiritually and men cuming on her face there's a difference. To the Universe it's not. Yeah, yeah I know. Blah blah. Life will keep showing you it's diversities of expressions. No difference with you posting a link with pictures of dicks getting sucked. I was taken aback as I didn't expect that and didn't see it coming. Next time put a warning or disclaimer. I know what the link reads, but that's not enough to know what is being shown. 

Edited September 16 by Princess Arabia

[El Zapato]

@Ishanga hmm, now that is self-actualization in raw form...

[Ishanga]

2 hours ago, Princess Arabia said:

Why would you post a porn link on here. Aside from that, welcome to the game called life. Not everything will make sense to you. In your mind doing Spirituality and all you said she did spiritually and men cuming on her face there's a difference. To the Universe it's not. Yeah, yeah I know. Blah blah. Life will keep showing you it's diversities of expressions. No difference with you posting a link with pictures of dicks getting sucked. I was taken aback as I didn't expect that and didn't see it coming. Next time put a warning or disclaimer. I know what the link reads, but that's not enough to know what is being shown. 

Lol, they talk about murder rape and war crimes on the other sub forum, it was just a picture, with the label this is what she is doing now, You would have to expect what was given..

Yes on the Absolute nothing really matters, but this is not the Absolute, not all is that, Absolute is everywhere yes, within Us, but we are not functioning nor Experiencing on that level, we are here now on this earth... I just thought it was interesting how someone on this level of life, knowing what she knows is doing what she is doing, all the power to her I wish no one suffering, but its a study curiosity thing for me:)

[Princess Arabia]

1 hour ago, Ishanga said:

Yes on the Absolute nothing really matters, but this is not the Absolute, not all is that, Absolute is everywhere yes, within Us, but we are not functioning nor Experiencing on that level, we are here now on this earth..

Yes, but it still depends on the individual. Their belief system. She might be operating from a different one than you; and in her world it might not be a step down or she might not see anything wrong with what she's doing. You are making that distinction based off of your state of consciousness and your beliefs and your frequency. This is the Absolute; and yes, we are all sub divisions of that. We are all functioning on different frequencies which determines our Reality within the Absolute. The Absolute is not a level it is all levels. So saying we're not functioning on that level is a misnomer. 

You're operating on an Absolute level and so am I. It all depends on which frequency and how one is vibrating. Knowing what she knows means nothing. You're still projecting your way of being unto her. In fact, she probably is at a very high frequency that she realizes that there are no facts or truths in Reality, but what we give it and what we, as sovereign beings believe to be true. She knows more than you in that context, maybe. Energy knows nothing about good and bad or right and wrong; it operates off of frequency and isn't personal. Electricity will shock the nicest person or the meanest person and gravity works for all. 

You think that knowing some spiritual lingo, practice or being highly spiritual one should not or is exempt from getting into what you have prescribed to be of a lesser value and now it has lead you to make a post of this nature. Well, I hope you've had a wake up call because Reality doesn't care about your personal judgements about it. Saying knows what she knows is exactly why she knows it makes no difference whether she does what she's doing now or what she did before on the moral scale and is expressing herself how she wants and did not put herself in a box like so many Spiritualists have done. Much more free and less contracted.

Edited September 16 by Princess Arabia

[Ishanga]

@Princess Arabia

When I read what Your write above and in other posts, It seems to me that Actions that ppl take mean nothing for You, one person can help an old lady up after she falls, another person can push her down again, for You it seems these actions are the same, is that so?

Is Porn on a fundamental level Healthy? Yes I know in today's world it serves a purpose, same as clinics that provide clean drugs, prostitution, gun shops and such, but that is only because the society is very low on the Consciousness scale, but I guess that means nothing too right?

What is the whole point of Spirituality anyways, to keep things the way they are or too improve society and ppl lives for the better?

What is a Better Life anyways? Well, first People should not be slaves to outside situations, looking for life and fulfilment outside of themselves, they are free to do so, I don't care about that, but the fundamental idea of thinking that Your Fulfilment, that Life is outside of Your own Body and Mind, that is a huge problem, because of that our Society has Big time Problems and Tons of Suffering.

If the Societies were higher up on the Consciousness Scale then most of this would go away, You would realize and experience life in a totally different way, knowing for real that life begins and ends within You.  The search for Happiness, Success and Fulfilment would stop or be much much less, whole industries and economies would change drastically (You think it is working well now???), and the world and the ppl in it would be transformed, just with that small Realization that Life is always within You and not outside of You, and that is just a tiny aspect of it..

Porn is a part of this problem, in the end it is not healthy to watch other ppl have sex on screen its as simple as that, but ppl can do what they want to do. this is not a moral problem or situation, its a fundamental Consciousness problem!

Edited September 16 by Ishanga

[Princess Arabia]

1 hour ago, Ishanga said:

they talk about murder rape and war crimes on the other sub forum, it was just a picture, with the label this is what she is doing now,

I wasn't referring to what was talked about. Yes, it was just a picture but it was a picture that usually requires one to be over 18 to view so it wasn't just a picture. I don't see anybody posting videos of a real live rape in progress or people getting their heads shot off in a war. Youtube even often sensors videos of such nature. I tried to post a weed video once on my Jamaica journal, and it wouldn't allow for me to do so. So saying it was just a picture is very simplistic of you and trying to down play the nature of the type of pictures. All I'm saying is, a simple attention this link is of an explicit nature or something of the sort. It's funny how some things get the OK to post here on this forum as links showing instructions on how to kill oneself via hanging and pornographic links of a woman sucking a dick and a penis inserted inside a vagina, but I get a thread locked for calling out suicidal threats that seemed to be attention seeking. Even if that wasn't the case, it's still a far cry from showing porn and instructions on how to kill yourself.

I take all this in stride, though, because I'm well aware that this shit doesn't make any sense but only what one gives it. So I expect nothing more and nothing less.

[Ishanga]

13 minutes ago, Princess Arabia said:

I wasn't referring to what was talked about. Yes, it was just a picture but it was a picture that usually requires one to be over 18 to view so it wasn't just a picture. I don't see anybody posting videos of a real live rape in progress or people getting their heads shot off in a war. Youtube even often sensors videos of such nature. I tried to post a weed video once on my Jamaica journal, and it wouldn't allow for me to do so. So saying it was just a picture is very simplistic of you and trying to down play the nature of the type of pictures. All I'm saying is, a simple attention this link is of an explicit nature or something of the sort. It's funny how some things get the OK to post here on this forum as links showing instructions on how to kill oneself via hanging and pornographic links of a woman sucking a dick and a penis inserted inside a vagina, but I get a thread locked for calling out suicidal threats that seemed to be attention seeking. Even if that wasn't the case, it's still a far cry from showing porn and instructions on how to kill yourself.

I take all this in stride, though, because I'm well aware that this shit doesn't make any sense but only what one gives it. So I expect nothing more and nothing less.

On the Israel/Gaza thread there are videos of building being blown up, severely injured ppl being dragged out, with some of them dead and children in them too, showing pic of her with a cock in her mouth is pale in comparison, again its is labelled as "this is what she does now". the point of this thread is not a Moral judgement thing, shes free to do what see wants no judgement on that, if she enjoys it and wants to do it and get completely involved with it I don't care, its about the change in intentions and actions and such, its a complete switch for her to go from teaching yoga and healthy practices that enrich ppls lives to porn as she is doing it, an analysis of why the change and such peaked my curiosity, she is supposedly of a higher consciousness, it doesn't make sense to me (Yes I know already that doesn't matter lol)

[Princess Arabia]

3 minutes ago, Ishanga said:

@Princess Arabia

When I read what Your write above and in other posts, It seems to me that Actions that ppl take mean nothing, one person can help an old lady up after she falls, another person can push her down again, for You it seems these actions are the same, is that so?

Is Porn on a fundamental level Healthy? Yes I know in today's world it serves a purpose, same as clinics that provide clean drugs, prostitution, gun shops and such, but that is only because the society is very low on the Consciousness scale, but I guess that means nothing too right?

What is the whole point of Spirituality anyways, to keep things the way they are too improve society and ppl lives for the better? What is a Better Life anyways? Well, first People should not be slaves to outside situations, looking for life and fulfilment outside of themselves, they are free to do so, I don't care about that, but the fundamental idea of thinking that Your Fulfilment, that Life is outside of Your own Body and Mind, that is a huge problem, because of that our Society has Big time Problems and Tons of Suffering. If the Societies were higher up on the Consciousness Scale then most of this would go away, You would realize and experience life in a totally different way, knowing for real that life begins and ends within You.  The search for Happiness, Success and Fulfilment would stop or be much much less, whole industries and economies would change drastically (You think it is working well now???), and the world and the ppl in it would be transformed, just with that small Realization that Life is always within You and not outside of You, and that is just a tiny aspect of it.. Porn is a part of this problem, in the end it is not healthy to watch other ppl have sex on screen its as simple as that, but ppl can do what they want to do. this is not a moral problem or situation, its a fundamental Consciousness problem!

One thing you don't see me doing much is pointing out the wrongs of the world time and time again. Every other post. I focus on the great in people most times not the bad; it's very rare that I do that. I realize that where I place my energy and my attention is what I'll experience the most of, so I try to focus on what I want to experience and not constantly pointing out the parts of Infinity that i have a problem with like most people do including yourself. 

You're constantly pointing out what you see wrong with humanity and also with the people here on this forum. Maybe try to put your focus on the things you see that are going right in your eyes and you'll start to see more of that because where your attention goes energy flows and energy is flowing at all times and shaping itself around you depending on what you're focused on.

[Princess Arabia]

9 minutes ago, Ishanga said:

, it doesn't make sense to me (Yes I know already that doesn't matter lol)

Welcome to Infinity and it's ordered chaos nature. Makes sense to her. Stop trying to make shit make sense and try to make sense of your own world. Incase you haven't noticed, NOTHING will make sense to everybody alike. You say it's healthy what she was doing before but i've heard of how spirituality have fucked up some people's lives and porn have made some people's lives better. It's all a matter of individuality and how one sees the world, themselves and the identity one lives by.

Edited September 16 by Princess Arabia

[Ishanga]

40 minutes ago, Princess Arabia said:

One thing you don't see me doing much is pointing out the wrongs of the world time and time again. Every other post. I focus on the great in people most times not the bad; it's very rare that I do that. I realize that where I place my energy and my attention is what I'll experience the most of, so I try to focus on what I want to experience and not constantly pointing out the parts of Infinity that i have a problem with like most people do including yourself. 

You're constantly pointing out what you see wrong with humanity and also with the people here on this forum. Maybe try to put your focus on the things you see that are going right in your eyes and you'll start to see more of that because where your attention goes energy flows and energy is flowing at all times and shaping itself around you depending on what you're focused on.

What crazy are you talking about? I promote a healthy yogic practice, and some simple basic intellectual tools that can help someone improve their quality of life on a consistent basis here, so not sure what Your talking about above, just go to the the "Wisest way to live" I shared it there, and do this all the time here, and as well I do point out the problems too, so I am not "always" posting negativity.. Lol the person that started this forum says God is Rape, You discuss it with him like its okay, but ram a stick down my throat for bringing up real issues in the world, I think it is time You objectively look at yourself and see what is what!

[Ishanga]

39 minutes ago, Princess Arabia said:

Welcome to Infinity and it's ordered chaos nature. Makes sense to her. Stop trying to make shit make sense and try to make sense of your own world. Incase you haven't noticed, NOTHING will make sense to everybody alike. You say it's healthy what she was doing before but i've heard of how spirituality have fucked up some people's lives and porn have made some people's lives better. It's all a matter of individuality and how one sees the world, themselves and the identity one lives by.

Okay soon pedophilia will be accepted like this too, its coming, that is some wacky philosophy you have going glad I am not heading that route! 

[Emotionalmosquito]

I remember that video from back in the day. I found her through koi fresco (the Utube spiritual guy you mentioned) Haven’t checked up on him in a while either. As for the porn? Maybe she fell on hard times. Gotta put food in ur tummy somehow