One fast to awakening

[inFlow]

This summer I've been going strong into sadhana (Yoga+Kriya). Every now and then something would break in the psyche, old programing, ego etc. This would lead to more breaking and more breaking of these programs like a cascade effect. And after some time I started to stagnate my growth, I started to feel like shit day after day. Thinking it was the spiritual proccess I just continued pushing myself more and more and nothing got better. My awareness had even reversed back jumping from light to darkness day after day, a really downward spiraling experience of life. Pushing my sadhana didn't help or stabilize this either. So this lasted for about 20~ days or so, and I started to experience severe brain fog and ADHD symptoms. I started to intuite that something that I ate was causing it and realized I needed to clean out my body with fasting. So I did a 36 hour fast, recovered and boom - Clarity, Consciousness, Awareness, Love is radiating withing this body. The feeling of having an ego who was born into this world is also gone, the "ball of self" which I could feel when doing "self inquiry" sort of "broke", it's no longer so powerful that it could create an ego or small self out of it. God is what was left. And it's been a whole week and nothing changed, no ego, only this undying self is living through this vehicle/body. Also it feels like Im on psychedelics again 24/7, from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep. Even dreams have psychedelic vibes. The depth that I can grasp things just by looking at them are like im on LSD or Magic Mushrooms but without all visuals. This body has way way more energy now and doesn't get tired as fast as it used to which was very noticable. I do my 2 hour yoga and still have energy to do stuff.

I suspect that the body had some kind of toxicity within it which caused all that disorders. Also the body had time to really rest and maybe the prana/chi within this body now has way more power to pierce through everything and give such clear awareness. Im not sure which is True.

Just wanted to share how "I" have been lately. I Love You ALL! ♥♥♥