My real name is Reena Gerlach

[Buck Edwards]

I woke up but I had nightmares. I wish I could get this shit under control. 

 

[Buck Edwards]

Just focus on myself for a while. Completed some tasks today. Everyday time is precious. 

[Ishanga]

6 hours ago, Buck Edwards said:

Just focus on myself for a while. Completed some tasks today. Everyday time is precious. 

This is a good videos to watch, its about taking back control.. 

Reading Your sharing, we all go thru struggles, some of Us go thru it allot harder, but we all share it in a way..

Just observing what Your going thru, I think a path of Devotion would be something to try out.. Devotion is about being Devoid of Self.  Above in the quote, You say You should focus on "myself" for awhile, I think that may not be the way to go, just sayin:)

 Try focusing on something that is not YOU, take You out of the equation, make something or someone else more important than YOU, and see what happens, play with it a bit.

When we focus too much on ourselves, it makes us the center point of life, and if life is not going as we think it should then it may cause some suffering.  If we switch our focus on to others, then this may make us realize that we are just tiny specs in this existence, we pop up then we pop out, no one will remember us in a generation or two, so the only thing to do is Enjoy it while we are here, Suffering it is tragic!

 

Edited October 14 by Ishanga

[Buck Edwards]

4 minutes ago, Ishanga said:

This is a good video to watch, its about taking back control.. 

Reading Your sharing, we all go thru struggles, some of Us go thru it allot harder, but we all share it in a way..

Just observing what Your going thru, I think a path of Devotion would be something to try out.. Devotion is about being Devoid of Self.  Above in the quote, You say You should focus on "myself" for awhile, I think that may not be the way to go, just sayin:)

 Try focusing on something that is not YOU, take You out of the equation, make something or someone else more important than YOU, and see what happens, play with it a bit.

When we focus too much on ourselves, it makes us the center point of life, and if life is not going as we think it should then it may cause some suffering.  If we switch our focus on to others, then this may make us realize that we are just tiny specs in this existence, we pop up then we pop out, no one will remember us in a generation or two, so the only thing to do is Enjoy it while we are here, Suffering it is tragic!

 

Beautiful! 

[Buck Edwards]

I had nightmares again. I don't remember what it was about. Maybe I heard gunshots or something. 

[Buck Edwards]

 

 

Isha banned him. 

[Ishanga]

 

[Buck Edwards]

Just now, Ishanga said:

 

Will watch this. 

[Buck Edwards]

My God he went to Kailash. That's exciting. 

[Ishanga]

5 minutes ago, Buck Edwards said:

Will watch this. 

yes this lady had no idea of what the Dhyanalinga was about, and she was anxious and full of expectation on entering the temple, but then something shifted

[Buck Edwards]

Just now, Ishanga said:

yes this lady had no idea of what the Dhyanalinga was about, and she was anxious and full of expectation on entering the temple, but then something shifted

Wow that must be amazing. 

[Ishanga]

1 minute ago, Buck Edwards said:

Wow that must be amazing. 

Yeah it sounded like she had a real awakening..

The main point is there is too much thinking, too much self centeredness,, When doing Spiritual work and going into temples, one has to be devoted, or devoid of self, if Your anxious then Your not devoid of self, same with fear... As a piece of Life, all life naturally want to live to its highest Potential and Possibility, just let this sort of Awareness come into Your life, identify with being a piece of Life (Life is God/Absolute), not a person or personality with all these fears and such...Devotion is about this sort of thing I think! 

[Buck Edwards]

2 minutes ago, Ishanga said:

Yeah it sounded like she had a real awakening..

The main point is there is too much thinking, too much self centeredness,, When doing Spiritual work and going into temples, one has to be devoted, or devoid of self, if Your anxious then Your not devoid of self, same with fear... As a piece of Life, all life naturally want to live to its highest Potential and Possibility, just let this sort of Awareness come into Your life, identify with being a piece of Life (Life is God/Absolute), not a person or personality with all these fears and such...Devotion is about this sort of thing I think! 

True! 

[Buck Edwards]

This is by far the funniest thing I have read about myself. 

 

It says I'm not a woman. I'm a neurotic and autistic incel lol from America. 

Lmao. I didn't know what sissy hypno means so I had to look it up. 

 

My God. I never watch porn. And what kind of weird porn is that. 

 

I can't believe the kind of crap people come up with. But I can't blame them. I assumed a male identity from the beginning and created a weird story about myself to escape male attention. So it's my own fault. 

 

Edited October 15 by Buck Edwards

[Buck Edwards]

Through Leo's Instagram, my Instagram can be detected. So I don't want to do that. Glad I'm safe. 

Everytime I feel attacked I should be grateful that I have hands and legs and that I'm not completely disabled and I should be grateful about it. 

 

[Ero]

@Buck Edwards Fellow INFJ here. “Avoiding the Ordinary” is one of our weaknesses.

Realising my bigger aspirations are unattainable without mundane daily steps is what helped me. Discovering a life purpose also did.

[Buck Edwards]

1 minute ago, Ero said:

@Buck Edwards Fellow INFJ here. “Avoiding the Ordinary” is one of our weaknesses.

Realising my bigger aspirations are unattainable without mundane daily steps is what helped me. Discovering a life purpose also did.

Lmao all the weaknesses match me lol. Perfect. Now I understand why I act like this. 

By the way welcome fellow INFJ. 

 

[Buck Edwards]

Doooooooo dooooo dooooo Doooooooo. 

This is so strange. 

 

 

[Buck Edwards]

Life is not just an accumulation of beautiful experiences though. 

[Buck Edwards]

My husband is on a hiking trip. Blesses him.