My real name is Reena Gerlach

[Buck Edwards]

DAILY CHALLENGES 📌 morning.... (Accomplished )

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📍Work on entrepreneurship (research business ideas, study business, work on a preexisting business) for an hour 

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📍2 hours studying

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📍2 hour reading

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📍50 minutes meditation

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📍1 hour walk

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📍9 min cold exposure 

 

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Gratitude exercise

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[Buck Edwards]

Early morning I need to do is self awareness exercise. Just observe. Listen. Watch. Don't think. Especially don't overthink. 

 

Keep a self awareness questionnaire ready. 

 

 

 

 

Edited October 3 by Buck Edwards

[Buck Edwards]

 

Self awareness exercise 1 - 

Body awareness. Self attack? How do you feel right now? 

 

 

 

 

Self awareness exercise 2 - 

Look briefly at the podcasts and videos you watch. Are they too random?are they all in one direction? Are you working to one goal? Are they all aligned? Is everything you do going in the same direction? Remove the junk and double down your focus on whatever develops your strength with you. See where that takes you.Be patient to develop that. And all the darkness and all the shadows that you encounter on that path. That's where all the freedom and growth lies. We usually arrive at the point after all the fluffy kind of distraction. 

 

 

Self awareness exercise 3 - 

Write down all categories of self help and then your current status. Or current state. Your life areas or self development areas and the current status or state. Write a description or a tick mark. 

 

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Self awareness exercise 4 - 

Journaling. Write down your thoughts. Reflect on your goals, emotions and experiences. As well as expectations. This exercise helps you understand yourself better. You'll start noticing patterns in your behavior, it's a journey of self discovery. By writing consistently you gain clarity. You become more mindful and your decision making improves. You become more present. It's a game changer for personal growth. 

 

Self awareness exercise 5 - 

Find a quiet place. Open your mind. Ask yourself 5 questions -

What am I feeling right now?

What is my body feeling right now and how is my mind feeling right now? 

What am I thinking right now and where are my thoughts focused? 

What do I need right now? 

What am I doing right now? 

Who is really running my life right now? Who is in charge? 

 

 

 

Self awareness exercise 6 - 

Journaling

Meditation 

Reflection 

 

 

Edited October 3 by Buck Edwards

[Buck Edwards]

I revealed myself on the forum on July 18. August I don't even remember what I did. Maybe I spent my time on the other forum. There the journal was created on August 1. The first two weeks must have been spent in confusion. The discussion with Leo happened on mmm I don't remember. 

I had asked for a username change request on September 15.

Today is October 2. By September 15 I was still unsure about being on this forum. 

First discussion with Leo happened on July 19th. I discussed my b()n with him. Second discussion happened on August 2 regarding picture. I wanted to upload the profile. Then it was a long period. I was still calculating whether I really wanted to be here. 

My husband started his journal in the same time period. 

 

Edited October 3 by Buck Edwards

[Buck Edwards]

My husband's last entry was on August 3 on his other journal and the last time he visited the forum was on August 15. August 18th is the day we celebrated as our first anniversary. 

So I began to feel slightly comfortable with this forum only after August 15.

I don't remember any conversations with Leo or incidents in the last week of August. Everything was fine. 

So I was missing on the other forum for the last 15 days of August that I exclusively spent in journaling. 

I don't remember my first interaction with Leo.

Then came September. The first week of September I spent worrying about my name. That's when I slowly stepped out of my shadow. I had to affirm my true identity. I don't know when my family decided therapy. It was just last week so I have to note it down. It was last Wednesday. 

My therapy date has been postponed. 

So I started this journal on September 13 which is kinda odd and I started interacting on the forum since then. It took another 15 days to get used to it and to interact with Leo. 

So I was really active on the forum only in the last 15 days of September. The first 15 days of September were my identity crisis days because I really wanted my name changed. It was bothering me. 

I was trying to settle into the forum in the first 15 days of September. I wasn't interacting with Leo much. 

Anyways now I feel much more comfortable with the forum. 

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The month of August, I really spent a lot of time with my husband as he was my priority. So I alloted an entire month to him.

I was super excited too because it was our anniversary month as well. 

So I gained a foothold on this forum only in the last 15 days of September. That's quite swift. 

Now I wish to focus less on the forum and more on journaling. 

 

[Buck Edwards]

My first therapy session was on September 25. Wednesday. 

Marking it down. 

 

 

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My husband started his journal here on July 16th. 

 

[Buck Edwards]

I used to do 5 day challenges before and it had worked for some time. The goal is to keep a track. I'm mostly going to focus on reading something from the forum. Interacting takes a toll on me. 

 

 

 

 

So the first step would be self awareness. 

 

 

 

 

Edited October 3 by Buck Edwards

[Buck Edwards]

 

 

What did I learn today? 

 

How was I productive today? 

 

Today is 3rd October. 2024. 

 

I learned about self awareness exercises. Only mini exercises. 

 

 

• A daily time table 
• A 5 day challenge
• Specfic self awareness exercises
• Progress Report
• Grounding Exercise
• Self Focus 
• Self Awareness and Self Assessment Questionnaire 

 

 

I think when I woke up in the morning the first thing I did was interact on the forum. That needs to be dealt with. Interaction is good but it has its own place and time.

How was I aware of my day today? 

Keep a calendar ready.

 

 

        October 3 Thursday Evening 

 

Edited October 3 by Buck Edwards

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     October 3 Thursday evening 

 

7.15 pm. 

I have to read from pages 28 to page 50. I have skipped these pages.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Edited October 3 by Buck Edwards

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I just distracted myself because my husband is sleeping. 

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               October 4 Friday morning 

            

                               6.44 am

I just woke up. And now I need to spend my day productively. 

                               7.29 am 

The first thing I want to do is read a bit on self awareness. 

                               7.45 am 

I get a negative feeling right now. First thing I need to do is purify my mind of such negativity. 

                               8.am 

Interacting with humans is not going to give me the satisfaction that I need. Although I crave human interaction. It feels really boring to just talk to myself all the time especially given that I'm an introvert. 

                            8.05 am 

I found that venting helps. But why do I need to vent in the first place. 

Just stay away from things that hurt my pride or ego and only take genuine feedback. 

                              8.07 am

I like to be on a timer now although it's very pressuring, it's a good way to spend my day. It really keeps me on track. I want to have stricter schedules in the future. 

                                 8.09 am

I saw that this exercise helps my self awareness.

 

 

 

Edited October 4 by Buck Edwards

[Buck Edwards]

I'm on page 53 of this book. 

Major EQ skills - 

I want to take an emotional intelligence test today. An EQ test. 

EQ Skills that I want to work on —

Self awareness

Self management 

Social awareness

Relationship management 

 

 

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Event - - - - - - - > meaning we give to the event - - - - - - > creates the emotion. 

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When I get a panic attack I shouldn't try to fight it. 

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Note to Reena -

Did I watch my anxiety level go down? 

Did I rate my anxiety from 0 to 10? 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Edited October 4 by Buck Edwards