Loneliness and Socialization Confusion

[Butters]

Just all of a sudden sadness. Today I was around people, including an old friend I haven't seen in years, but I still felt isolated somehow. Then when I got home I watched Youtube and just became very sad. I go about all of life alone and I really enjoy it, but now I just got hit with this. I feel that in my daily life I have enough social contacts, but I do miss real friendships. But at the very same time I have little motivation to socialize and that's not coming from a place of negativity, just that I seem quite content with myself as it is. But the wave of loneliness just hit me. 

@Leo Gura I am quite confused. You've mentioned in one of your videos that you regret not socializing more in your 20s if I remember correctly. You also mention going out with wings. Yet you strike me as a lone guy because that's what we see in the videos; someone going at it all alone. But I feel that in trying to replicate that I could be misleading myself. What's your take on socializing and friendships? 

I feel that I'm too consumed with thoughts like "I have asperger's" and then maybe use that as an excuse not to socialize. On the other hand I do have asperger's and I love being alone. 

Edited September 7 by Butters

[integration journey]

I can relate in a way ❤️

[Butters]

This actually raises a whole new question: how do you know the difference between complacency and self acceptance? With a statement like "I have aspergers and I like to be alone". 

[Butters]

12 hours ago, integration journey said:

I can relate in a way ❤️

Oh stop it, I thought I was the only consciousness 😝 

I think it might also be the seasons changing if you live in Northern hemisphere. 

[Schizophonia]

Because you don't give.

 

[Butters]

21 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

Because you don't give.

 

Are your short answers supposed to make me contemplate or are you just lazy? 

[Sugarcoat]

Maybe you wanna have friends to have the option to socialize. So you still have a lot of your alone time which you like. But still have genuine friendships to turn to, to fill the need for socialization. Why you would still feel isolated while being around an old friend I can only guess it can be if you’re not expressing yourself  authentically enough then it’s like the person never gets to connect to the real you which maybe could contribute to that sense of isolation 

[Schizophonia]

4 minutes ago, Butters said:

Are your short answers supposed to make me contemplate or are you just lazy? 

You don't please people, you don't share anything, so you then find yourself and feel alone.
After the reasons why you don't give it's another adventure; I don't think I'm lazy because I don't wipe the ass of a random on Actualized.
It's up to you to go do your research, go see a psychiatrist or whatever, otherwise it's just victimization; But it will never do you any good, it's a bad childish reflex.

[Raze]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h5YBd8m9prQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hs0vk092UN0

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yC2ZiPfwf1M

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BDg9ntSRGQw

 

Edited September 9 by Raze

[Butters]

19 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

You don't please people, you don't share anything, so you then find yourself and feel alone.
After the reasons why you don't give it's another adventure; I don't think I'm lazy because I don't wipe the ass of a random on Actualized.
It's up to you to go do your research, go see a psychiatrist or whatever, otherwise it's just victimization; But it will never do you any good, it's a bad childish reflex.

This is horseshit, you're just making stuff up. I literally just entertained a large audience doing stand up comedy and ended on a loud applause break that night. 

However, from a higher state I reflected on your statement last night and I could apply it differently, which is understanding my worth better. 

@Sugarcoat thank you. The old friend situation we resolved over text and it was pretty awesome. I notice I speak my truth more now which feels good. 

Edited September 9 by Butters

[Schizophonia]

19 minutes ago, Butters said:

This is horseshit, you're just making stuff up. I literally just entertained a large audience doing stand up comedy and ended on a loud applause break that night. 

Stand up is different from mutual exchanges.

[Sugarcoat]

2 hours ago, Butters said:

thank you. The old friend situation we resolved over text and it was pretty awesome. I notice I speak my truth more now which feels good.

Thats good 👍🏻