Letho

[Letho]

INTRODUCTION:

Let’s move on from the previous page, it needs zero attention. Remember, people get hurt every day in almost every moment, I am just one person. Take this moment to have a thought for all those on this planet that are genuinely in deep pain and are struggling to find the strength to push on, let’s have them in our prayers for this brief moment.

We’re now moving into incredibly deep territory now that I have a bit of “leg room” and greater “foresight”, pun intended of course 🤣, up my sleeve.

Unless it becomes inorganic to do so, like I’ll probably be pulled away for social stuff sometimes, we’re now driving our motorcycle of truth deep into 20+ hour sessions of my own personalized meditations. We’re diving deep into the ocean of the soul like I’ve never dove deep before for the achievement of what we all know I’m after.

The first new paradigm I’m going to bring to you is, “Magnitude Learning”.It’ll blow your eye socket out I tell you what!

These will now be shared as “creative works”. After-all given I’ll be meditating for so long it would defy physics if “focused intelligence” didn’t get a boost.

Magntitude Learning sounds very buzz wordy and it is, but without the fluff. Yal know outside of humor I’m anti-fluff, so if you can be patient enough to learn what I’ve uncovered this morning as a consequence of my reflections on yesterdays events and this whole trip since Vietnam 🇻🇳 , it’ll change your life forever I promise you.

A sincere thank you ❤️ again to all of the staff at the hospital who are diligently working to serve the patients here, may your own travels stay true, safe and fortuitous.

Best Light, stay strong.

 

 

[Letho]

 

Magnitude Learning

 

 

 

Firstly, let's  get this out of the way, I’ll let the video do the talking concerning an update from the previous page. 

 

 

 

Video Shifting from:

(1) Scene of the crime
(2) Hospital
(3) Back in action, walking first then will slowly building to running.

 

As I said, don’t ask me how it’s possible, I honestly don’t know. I should at least have torn, fractured or properly injured something, however I haven’t, the so called football leg I mentioned seems like it was listening to Kanye West over the 5-6 hour period of my sleep in the hospital because the very next morning after I took off the bandages at little later, everything had calmed down significantly to the point where it only looked like I incurred a slight graze, I was utterly shocked more than I already was that I even survived.

Moving on, have changed my schedule now no longer running (when I’m functional again) at night only early in the morning and the afternoon and using the time in between for everything else in my life including meditation. 

Whatever you’re going through, stay strong, stay smart and stay committed. From the way our heart functions to the way it communicates with our brain to help forge our filters, sense and subsequent interpretations of reality, life is about momentum in the right directions as we experience the effects of our efforts years down the line looking back. 

 

 

 

 

 

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What is Magnitude Learning? 

Disclaimer: Bias towards those that can hold visual images in their mind. Simply change the example to one that serves your appropriate learning style.

Magnitude Learning is equivalent to the establishment of a hierarchy on the level to which one is deeply learning not only just about an object, phenomenon or perception of any kind, however as a process of making a subject out of magnitude learning, one is learning how to learn from the perspective of the overlap between (1) self-awareness, how they engage with experience and (2) their experience of consciousness, so the relationship between states of consciousness, experience of learning within that consciousness state and in doing so from a practical perspective, learning how to strategically prioritise states of consciousness for the benefit of one’s self-awareness and in doing so, their learning within consciousness and its experiences. 

Moving forward, instead of going through the ins and outs of a ducks ass on how a zombie-human learns about reality as a function of discussing the lowest ‘magnitudes’ or levels of learning, we’re instead going to get to the brass tax of everything by simply first and foremost focusing on a ground level solution level by level. 

In short, there are two primary qualities to focus on in deepening one’s magnitude of learning, “Emotional Filter of processing” and “Cognitive Filter of processing”. 

It is better to think of them as filters because then you can act practically about not only both the incorporation of intuition (i.e. “I’m sensing this”) and logic (i.e. “I clearly (don’t) see this”) on your experience, but also using the very same process of intuition and logic on both intuition (i.e. “where do I sense I may be biased here?) and logic (i.e. “I had x experience earlier today which has clearly impacted my judgement on y”) as the medium of their incremental advancement, which is precisely what this is about with that just being one of the layers of the same broader feedback loop between awareness and consciousness for self-development here. 

This naturally turns into a continuous feedback loop between “Identity Opening” to “Consciousness Closure” as the ego’s natural competition with awareness to define itself in awarenesses living space of indefinability. Remember, ‘ego’ is not bad, in fact that’s a very healthy function, it’s about where perspective meets relativity in defining absolutism in the balance between flow and solidarity, order and chaos. In this sense, let’s look at ego as your sail in the wind, the “consciousness placement” of your chosen closure in the context of the level of emotional and broader energetic openness you’re able to handle for this present level of your bioelectrical agency, or if you’re not familiar on this terminology as I’ve shared my coining of it before, the “psychological health” of your nervous system like that of your heart and gut, and in return, how this influences those filters that are subsequently forged by consciousness as a consequence of the principle of biopsychological cause and effect. This is why ‘ego’ is defined as a ‘survival function’ because your consciousness is literally closing on a position in the balance between the seemingly infinite and finite in order to give you your sense of ‘reality’, the matrix that sits in the middle of explaining your unique juxtaposition between consciousness bandwidth and capacity. More broadly then, ‘Magnitude Learning’ is not only going to provide the reader with an in depth understanding on the levels of learning its also going to help them understand how the intersection between learning, perception, experience and interpretation informs identity formation and how the medium between awareness (zero point of consciousness), intention (placement of consciousness) and agency (final closure of consciousness) can be leveraged for one’s consciousness evolution via achieving higher states of deeper learning. This is why its called “Magnitude Learning” and not “hierarchical learning”, as magnitude can more generally encompass the breath, scope, spectrum and depth of learning whereas “hierarchical learning” isn’t a category that would normally encompass multiple subject lines in this case, the exploration of the dynamic between ego, identity, consciousness and learning in a hierarchy representative of how a framework representative of their simultaneity can operate as a practical function that also serves progression up the hierarchy. “Spiral Dynamics” actually works in a similar way, so in a sense I could call it something similar to “Spiral Learning” however don’t we all love the Austin Powers film reference to “Liquid Magma” (humour for those unfamiliar)? 

 

Level 1

Establishing Ground Communication with Self-Consciousness:

Learning how the way we interpret the past informs the present.

• What is a cup?
• What is the way I am remembering the cup that comes to mind? 
• What are the emotional impulses that are coming up as I remember a specific cup?

As you engage with these three questions pay very close attention to the way that your ego functions in the context of your self-awareness to justify your own experiences relating to the simplicity of this experience. 

Notice how for example, you might feel:

• Frustrated by the triviality of the experiences
• Sad that you’re maybe not able to engage with the task at hand 
• Disappointed as you completely understand the task at hand but you were expecting something of much higher abstraction that was going to test your ability cognitize everything linguistically before you so far
• Superior as you enjoy the task and you’re interested in learning more however you don’t believe truly that this is going to benefit you as you’re already very intelligent and not many things challenge you
• Open, ready and curious about what’s ahead without any expectations thereby allowing you to act creatively as opposed to pre-emptively based on assumptive reasoning

We can refer to these as “Identity funnels” (as opposed to calling them “Ego funnels” we can refer to them as “Identity funnels” to refer to this process as representative of an aspect of Ego funnels and not necessarily the whole), because they have two components:

(1) Emotion or energy
(2) Underlying or conscious cognitization that is acting to positively reinforce the emotion thereby positively reinforcing the states of consciousness that create the identity to the point of becoming self-sustained “Identity-self-reinforcement” until we have “Egoic self-imprisonment”. 

“Egoic self-imprisonment” is basically when the ego now feels too threatened to question its own identity and therefore creates its own prison walls corresponding to the specific ego context. One of the biggest misconceptions in modern psychology is people perceive it as an “ego backlash” however its actually not, its more an “Identity backlash”, and its the identity that has basically taken the ego hostage to the point where its not able to entertain alternative energetic hypotheses, so cognitive or emotional, on “how reality is” whether internally/externally. This is given straightforward “truth-validity” by simply seeing how the ego feels more free after you pretend that the related identity doesn’t even exist after attempting to try something else, it reveals that there’s an “add 1” to ego rather than just merely being a contraction of the ego because the ego wants to serve its purpose, to help you survive and grow in this reality and the more you align with this truth rather than seeing it as a hindrance, your perceived opportunities for emotional and cognitive consciousness learning will open up dramatically. 

This “Identity-self-reinforcement” is the direct repetitive manipulation on the way the ego computes its final closure on reality, thereby representative of a “funnel” that moulds reality to positively reinforce the ego’s identity so it maintains ‘identity-consistency’ because the ego feels that it needs the temporary to long, partial to significant identity in order to help it survive. Awareness being the only direction to ‘self’, it provides the most organic modulation of that false-consistency where there becomes a natural shift to self-consistency through awareness rather than self-consistency via the illusion of achieving ‘identity-consistency’. The latter being what most sentiences without enough awareness or knowledge of how to employ to shift, change and adapt mathematically have no choice for better or for worse but to concede to its maladaption, like those awesome k-nine specimens attempting to chase me down at night while wanting to make friends with me during the day, there is ‘contextual modulation’, in this case, time of day, on their own ego structure that defines their temporal relationship to me and it of course, explains the to and throw of all other kinds of human relationship dynamics that occur, including too then, why a lion will love their trainer in one instance then as a result of being triggered by something unrelated to their owner, eats their trainer in the next; an example that perfectly explains why I am now devoting myself to spending so many hours in meditation each day so that I can employ as much agency as possible over these dynamics within my own personal egoic structure and its continual ‘fight for survival’ amidst my brief playful detachments when I venture back and forth from it when I visit infinity; not a pun on psychedelics, have not yet had. And after-all, concerning the lion and any other analogous example, what is maladaptive to awareness enhancement is not necessarily of course maladaptive to what is already an identity consciously or unconsciously developed that serves as an environmental adaptation based on its survival pressures, enter stage left “Rainbow Wolf” for humour as a reference to my first post of this journal.

Thus, moving back to “Learning how the way we interpret the past informs the present”. To further add, “learning how…”, even up to the way we re-perceive reality opens up the way we can shift awareness and in doing so, shift our identities to break open our consciousness. Inside this opening, like light piercing through a crack inside those noted old egoic prison walls that defined a self-reinforcing identity-structure previously thought unreproachable, new ‘true self space’ is created via this positive reactive formation of the ego. And inside this new space, this self auto-renewal because possible as a positive ego-reaction-formation. Consciousness organically becomes open to higher experiences with the past by the reimagining of phenomenological stimuli through the inspired instinctual curiosity that follows. A positive egoic reaction formation that expands the self and its consciousness learning into the subtlety of their phenomenological depth, thereby opening the gateway of continual re-learning that acts as an ongoing positive identity that renews the ego into the exploration of higher consciousness learning; greater magnitude learning. ‘Positive’ reaction formation here is the natural juxtaposition of the negative egoic reaction formation that you have probably already intuited is the ‘adaptive identity formation’ that was created to serve the ego for the environment at the time in which it served its context either evolutionarily or socially but is now ‘maladaptive’ relative to serving the environment of one’s consciousness and its environmental growth. 

Returning back to the example of the cup, we can now avoid misinterpreting our responses to how we re-perceive our memories of a cup in this context as either ‘wrong’ or ‘bad’ but simply whether they serve the environmental context of our understandings about the world. If our consciousness learning has been trained to the point where its normal for our neurology to positively reinforce a myopic perspective, at any level, then your response is not ‘wrong’ or ‘bad’ but instead adaptive for the ego’s environmental context, even if its counter to the ego’s growth and instead benefits its own self-destruction, its because a particular identity-belief matrix is being supported unknowingly or knowingly as ‘good’ that then to the sentience it becomes at least analogously a ‘moral good’ to serve the ego’s self-destruction in preservation of the identity. Moving forward, start thinking of ‘identity’ as a prosthetic and ego as natural to serving our original nature rather than ‘ego’ as the prosthetic to our awareness and you will be able to much more seamlessly add and subtract said prosthetics in the name of serving what your ego truly wants, its growth and survival. Understanding this first level of the dynamic between consciousness self-states (emotion + cognition and broader energy), consciousness perception (awareness + self-interpretative agency) and their subsequent feedback loop into higher growth or regression is the first stage to opening up one’s potential into this first level of magnitude learning. By learning to access the interpretation of emotion and cognition via both intuitive and logical lenses that self-inform their growth via meta-awareness, we can transform the simple achievement of meta-awareness into meta-ascendence via deeper magnitude learning that leverages dual-self-awareness of the feedback loops between how reality and ego self-inform and create one another within consciousness and its making. 

As a practical exercise into this first level, return to the cup you first imagined and begin to re-experience it following the taking in of this new information. How has your vision of the cup changed? Make that an important note, become self-aware of what underpinned that experience. Continue to identify the relates feelings and consciousness states you’re experiencing while imagining the cup. What are positive one’s, what are negative one’s? How does the fact that you’re learning this from me as the author affect your judgement of the cup and your interaction with the exercise? Can you separate the emotional experiences and synthesise them to a more enlightened one that enhances your perspective and subsequent engagement into the task? Let’s get more into the hidden intuitive processing that’s occurring, imagine a biographical memory that involves a cup, listen to your heart and gut as you engage within this memory, what happens to it? How does the change in context shape the way your heart and gut engages with the learning of the experience of the cup? At this level, we can begin to build an intuitive mental framework for how emotions and thoughts build and are built from nervous system responses like those created by our heart and gut and in return, bicreatively engineer the experience of the ego via the symbiotic interaction between identity along with the beliefs and frameworks that underlay it, using self-questioning and awareness as a symbiotic tool, the triad of awareness, imagination and consciousness begin to open and now we can begin to plant the seeds for identity reformation and subsequent egoic expansion to its higher spiritual limits. 

Further as we engage deeper and deeper into the simplicity of this task, what’s unfolding is the purity of your understanding of the spectrum of your emotional bandwidth on your phenomenological experiences that in return self-inform the subsequent cognitive exposure that you experience within your consciousness as either positive to negative stimulation to explore the cup further, where as you move down the emotional scale your cognitive spectrum of consciousness possibilities you can imagine for stimuli will weaken whereas as you move up the emotional scale, your subsequent cognitive spectrum will enhance and in return your consciousness bandwidth grow much more closer to the optimal balance between the limits of your cognitive capacities and their growth. As we move deeper into the levels of “Magnitude Learning” we’re opening up our understanding of where the spectrum of our emotional experience informs and is informed by our cognitive experiences via the limits of identity and freedoms of the ego both evolutionarily and more broadly biologically, and although I don’t necessarily agree with the model in its entirety its of course something we see perfectly emulated in the progression of the ego as it moves up the hierarchy of spiral dynamics. Emotion re-informs cognition which re-forms identity formation and ego boundaries relative to its potential. Through “Magnitude Learning” we’re simultaneously exploring those limits while enhancing them as close as possible to our potential in the moment and then deepening them overtime via the creation of a framework that’s self-serving to this path for the ego’s development and subsequent magnitude of its learning from, as and into consciousness. 

Our goal moving forward is to understand and utilise as many of the cognitive, emotional and broader energetic mechanisms that create consciousnesses perception of any one phenomenon like a ‘cup’ and then be able to genuinely plug into the Matrix’s Simulacrum (Virtual Reality Training Simulator that Neo was plugged into to learn karate really fast) to enhance our phenomenological experience of the phenomenon and our subsequent consciousness learning. In level, we’re only just learning to see how emotion influences our perception and subsequent cognitive and emotional engagement, to finish this level, you’re going to go from the beginnings of previously stated self-questioning, to shifting between cognitive and emotional lenses to entertain how different feelings and thoughts you can self-provoke on a phenomenon in return alter your experience and subsequent learning of the phenomenon thereby influencing the magnitude of your learning relating to the experience. So, in level 1 we’ve just received an intellectual toy that’s teaching us the beginnings of how we can convert a simple intellectual toy into eventually, a radical alteration in identity and subsequent way our ego builds its value hierarchy for what it deems adaptive to its survival vs maladaptive and in return, aligning the way our consciousness learns from our environment to intersect with the existential path that also evolves our consciousness.

Magnitude Learning is the answer to the question of how much of the true depth of our own emotional, cognitive and broader energetic experience is being maximised for the benefit of how our consciousness learns from our environment. In level 1, we touch on the feedback loop between emotion and thought where we begin to understand through that lens, how it informs the lens of identity formation and the subsequent limits of the ego and how it defines what positively or negatively informs its adaptation to its environment. In level 1 we’ve begun to imagine the possibility for how we can learn to prune and grow identity in a way in which ego is able to serve not only the immediate external environment as it pertains to survival but also our internal environment where its survival instead is more determined by our commitment to the growth and advancement of our consciousness. We’ve unplugged ourselves from a few untruths and blindspots for how to perceive the dynamic between perception, states of consciousness, ego, identity and how our greater overall energy of consciousness is in direct relationship with the magnitude of our consciousness learning while plugging into the beginnings of how we can plant the seeds to moving up the scale of magnitude learning as as both an indirect and direct pathway to consciousness evolution. By learning the beginnings of how we hold in mind a simple memory of a cup and how the energetic limits of our emotion and cognition are influencing our ego freedom vs identity limits, vice versa, and then learning to leverage awareness within the stability of the rest of our nervous system (i.e. your heart and gut) for self-questioning, we’re getting direct clear insight on the constrainment vs opening of our consciousness and subsequent freedom to experience life all around and within us, and subsequently, live the life of where heightened magnitude learning equals heightened maximum existential meaning.

The beginnings of this theoretical framework will serve as the foundation by which I share a deeper example of Magnitude Learning being in this case, my recent accident involving how I was struck by an uncoordinated motorcycle driver at night while running. Yes, while running, so that makes the physics regarding the outcome there even more interesting.

 

Best Light.

[Letho]

 

 

Let's recap: Day 15.

A recap that'll be 'Prime K9 Night Vision' on building your own emotional kinaesthetic's on what the beginnings of Deep "Magnitude Learning" will start to look like for you at a personal level, where biographical learning meets the progression of spiritual maturity.

Adventure totally on foot (except that brief small instance already shared, which I've already made up for arguably in light of the back and fourth following the hospital, not to mention the dogs right heh):
Ho Chi Minh City, District 1 to Bangkok.

Now that we're on Day 15 I think that given I'm only a few hours from my checkpoint, nows the perfect time to begin to paint the energetic psychological walls that I'll be staring at through my horse blinkers to focus the rest of my run, including too, the completion of my already begun theoretical frameworks in this journal.

 

Although I haven’t fully shifted back into running yet, it feels like the run has become a bridge between worlds I had a feeling before I started was going to occur, however not like this, at least, as what will be a theme for this entry, experienced flavours that lived on the side of both the possible and relative to my present ego structure, (now previously) 'impossible'. Every mile stretching behind me, every breath inhaled and exhaled into the tropical Cambodian warm air is a marker not just of distance but of some deeper, subtler shift within as I attempt to slowly master the deeper experiential and theoretical depths of my own innovated understanding of human bioelectrical agency. As I’ve expressed before I hadn’t anticipated how much running from Ho Chi Minh City to Bangkok would become such an intense process of undoing layers upon layers falling away as the body moves forward but the mind begins to unravel what’s been hidden for too long. It’s strange to say now that I thought this journey was about reaching some destination, crossing a finish line, but it’s never really been about arriving at my next checkpoint or even Bangkok, although its going to be totally badass of course when I finally do. The people, the atmosphere, making that transition from baring the nakedness of my cultural civility to to properly inhaling through all the potential fears and closures towards my own separation from the outer culture and going deeper into the reservoir of how existence is created, and more so here, at the emotional energetic level.  It’s been about untangling the knots inside with every new encounter while recovering from dads passing, running through the labyrinth of my own psyche as much as the highways between cities and the matrix of disorganised darkness of each towns construction of its own unique homeliness while somehow stretching their friendly unity amongst one another, even when its eyes are darkest as I’m “Running with, away and towards the wolves” at the pitch black of night; where ghosts in hospitals yet shared I’ve visited welcome… or don’t welcome my presence and have their way of showing it.

As I think about the accident, about the way time froze for just that brief moment, the motorbike flipping, my body airborne. And my own mind… always so eager to craft meaning… immediately pulled the logistical switch, convinced that everything in existence now boiled down to this single moment. My mind painted the worst, a potential broken leg that wrapped itself around my timeline to Bangkok like chains that I had no way of escaping other than through my own sense of humour. But reality was kinder than the mind’s projections; I was mostly just left with an eye injury, a cut to my vision but not to the journey itself. It was as if the accident was trying to slow me down, to force me into contemplation. And then I remembered my previous journal entries where I prayed to God to give me greater sight on my ventures, then I remembered how the very next night multiple bugs had flown faster than the motorcycle into the same injured eye multiple times, and then that same night, where as I’ve reflected I’m mostly being homeless until I can’t hack it anymore and I want a reboot in a nice hotel, I found myself unintentionally laying down for sleep surrounded by 5 statues in a buddhist garden centre that were praying towards another statue representative of the buddha adjacent to the other side of my now laying body, almost in the same pose. Two of those statues, with one closest to my head and the other my feet, covering their right eye, the one I had injured, symbolically revealing to me that for the majority of my life as God has been trying to reveal to me in what I will at least partially say are his answers to my prayers, that I have been walking around the majority of my life half blind from… Head to toe. That this injury is to teach me to slowly recover from walking to eventually running where I’m living in a way with both eyes fully open. Living with vision, both literally and figuratively, across all relevant dualities, like vision on the past and vision on the future, and more. 

As I reflect on previous posts in this journal, what have I been so afraid of concerning the other aspects of my consciousness? It is obvious that my subconscious, or as I have previously theorised including most pertinently in the post just prior, identities that have taken my consciousness and subsequent ego hostage. That for most of my life, unknowingly, these identities have held my being at gunpoint, arm wrapped around me, shooting at any potential truths that could break through their glass house to generate new light upon the shadows that lurked. While at the same time as I now allow the feeling of this existential search beyond my own lost past surge, I realise, the accident was a gift, a forced pause, a brief window into the fragility of illusionary control that I try to pierce the veil of solidarity to through humour all because I am still yet to fully understand the unfathomability of my own existence, a dual understanding that I must come to terms with, that is… That I can and must, and that I will never fully meet my own expectations and that is okay. And yet, even in spite of these false projections, where life began once more beyond the pause that defined every micro moment of my life right before the crash, my body proved itself stronger than my mind's predictions. The next day as I haven’t revealed yet, I ran. More than that, I’ve now started to achieve the level of bioelectrical agency that I have been pushing towards, starting to finally feel the electrical fire I’ve been craving, that infinite definitive line between the order and chaos of expressed potential in the feeling of agency over my body, an echo to my Super Sayin video I did for humour, but that the emotional veins that have grown through repeated exposure in my childhood say that there is a deeper truth to the cartoon series that reveals merit to my own related ambitions here that I partially disguise with humour that when everything is held in context, its again, partially, pretty easy to see through. And that, in itself, was a deeper revelation. That as much as I will never reach my own standards, the dual reality of where I will never do this and yet the possibility of me going much further beyond as evidenced by my recovery, still exists, and so my own resolve as I do it, including with my humour, is still the only sane pathway forward in growing towards… not my deeper potential, but my deeper limits, and turning my own minds capacity for projection, into instead of mirror of fear of the inside or even of other untapped areas of my own consciousness, the limits that I make both friends and sparring partners with, where their mirrors continuously break and reform with every projection to awareness to reformation to revolution that my being mind cooks up in the hot stove that sits above the untapped fiery electrical being that remains below, awaiting my deeper… sight.

In those early days leaving Ho Chi Minh City, the rhythm of the run was steady, almost methodical. There was something clean about it in spite of all the socialisation. My legs moving, breath cycling through, the body slipping into a comfortable cadence. It was mechanical at first, like a metronome counting out my existence which reminds me of an ontological temporal framework of self I’ve begun that I’ll share down the line, and then, the monotony of it began to crack into the darkness of my psyche. The ghosts of my past spoken through the barks of the dogs, the unspoken fears about my future held in the untamed smiles of the Vietnamese country people that treated me like I was family, and the unresolved tensions that sit like wet cement on the clothing of the mind, pressing and pressing to ensure the heat doesn’t harden my psyche the way it burns away at the sensitivity of my own skin. In this sense, there’s a purity in physical exhaustion that can’t be replicated in any other experience, it undoubtedly wears down the layers of ego, the hidden illusions we wear and look for a false mirror reflection on that can only be carried forward in my run as shards of glass left behind, never to even be looked at again outside the deeper resolve of my own sense of fragile vision I look to fully heal and grow into the way my father would want me to fully step into. Out here on the road, we can’t pretend anymore. All the jokes, all the humor, it all fades away into the crisp hot burning sun and into the wet soil of the tropical surroundings in the fit of echoing humid storms. The raw self, is all I now have the strength to survive with, remaining the architectures of what makes the ego to the point where I’ve now started to build an entire new  paradigm for imaging “Ideal Identity Structures” that align with the purpose of our ego, to survive and thrive, what altogether feels like a spiritual unity I’m achieving in this creation and its following that I’ve slowly begun.

I feel like this run was a way my unconscious has attempted to resolve the hidden tension between freedom and responsibility that I’m still grappling around family and greater social allegiances. The responsibility to fulfill the roles handed to me, to meet the expectations I was born into versus the desire to just live the self, for the self and live as naturally as possible from that point with respect to how its meant to unite with the previously postulated “Other” in this dichotomy of “Self” and “Other”. Running, in many ways, feels like the purest form of freedom… I get to own it, I get to own my choice to move beyond the desire to stop. It’s more than just a desire to grow my AMCC as I have previously shared scientific connections to, each step is mine, each breath is a testament to my own bioelectrical agency, slowly tracing the lines that remain previously hidden to me before in my incomplete attempts to finish my own theorisations here on the “Ontology of Meta-Ascendence, and remember, its ascendence now, not transcendence. The run teaches me to accept all of these life uncertainties as much as it is uncertain that I will complete that next step or remain totally out of reach of another potential motorbike accident, to both as I expressed, accept my control and my lack of it. To accept both the blurriness of life, temporally and otherwise, as well as my capacity for vision… and then to take that next step towards its natural ascendence, riding the natural passage of life towards my natural evolution, that wave that speaks to the completion of my earlier stated intention regarding the completion of a new theoretical conceptualisation of ego and identity through the lens of the ontological design of identity structures that only reflect the deepest truths of our essences, so that they can be set free to not only run, but to feel the full bioelectrical agency of their ability to CHOOSE to run, in the midst of chaos, to CHOOSE to immediately help a man that struck him with their motorbike even without knowing fully what had happened to themselves or even if the other man cared, still even indistinguishable to himself through the shock of the accident.

And that, for now, is enough. I know I said I wanted to share more about my injury as a case study for how to proceed up the levels of Magnitude Learning, however I needed to get all of this out of my system first as I re-digest what all of those levels are of Magnitude Learning. Finally, and I promise I’ll try to make it as brief as possible but there is a little bit more than just a bit more sorry to say, more theory on what is much more than an intellectual tool for biographical introspection but as a means of much more deeply mapping one’s ontological trajectory forward up the scales of human potential where learning meets renewed and literally regrown perception to unite with all of life.

That will be revealed next. After reading my next post, there will be zero remaining dissonance on why Magnitude Learning must now become a pivotal extra limb in your run forward to the depths of your own self-realisation, something that I feel incredibly humbled to both be given the intellectual insights to by God but also to have this space for its sharing. I hope my deeper efforts reflecting on my inner landscapes here on my greater journey since Vietnam will provide robust priming for conceptualising in your own way your own creatively unique pathway forward in turning this theory into daily practical exercise that becomes totally self-justifying in the self-enrichment it provides. Take your time with it, make it completely yours, and let my temporal self die with this post, now a part of the paradigm of continual seasonal renewal with you all on the uniqueness that we are all becoming; in control… while totally accepting and appreciative of the lessons of infinity. Thank you to the reader for any goodness I can give with this share, and to God, thank you for answering me if you did, and that you kept things humorous by pointing out my blindness (yes I already knew I was ignorant but like I said, thanks) while using my brains capacity for creativity to help me create the light of knowledge here.

Lastly, between now and Bangkok I’m going to be hiding away a little bit more of my external self, integrating my experiences here to create what is obviously the new pathway forward, on top of the great bridge to my own self-defined freedom that I’ve already created.

 

Best Light.

 

 

 

- Love you dad, miss you.

 

 

 

[Letho]

Brief Journal - so it doesn't count as "The Next Post":

For the first time yesterday at 2AM I felt real taste of actually waking up to my own personal reality hypnosis; that at a visceral level, it genuinely felt like something analogous to a computer simulation, that the only practical output to that understanding, is the obvious implications of optimising for signal to noise ratio. It also made me realise, there's only so much you can do when it comes to passing on second hand experiential knowledge that really require being embedded into that reality to really appreciate, especially as empathy, imagination and intelligence jointly decrease. For me now, I'm at the non-psychedelic (future vision and will disclose scientific stage by stage when I'm there) paradigm where it's really just about patterns of consciousness that I'm more and more concerning myself with and aligning with the re-categorisation of the environment around me that follows from that incremental levelling. It's totally inverted and or flatlined my reality questioning, building on its prior redundancy with a concrete fluidity I've never felt I belonged to, however strangely I felt it mirrored in external environmental instances. There's trainings I do that I haven't fully disclosed yet which pertain, though its only relevant after its experimentally valid to do so.

By the way, have finally learned to appreciate the true essence of balance and moderation (something my father always talked to me about as a kid), having my first blue cheese and packaged salmon that I made a childhood favourite after a month plus of non-western luxuries. It was... undeniably an incredible experience. In spite of this new growth curvature forming in and out of lower hidden identity structures, there's an unmistakable gap that exists still in my addiction to said luxuries and the curse this puts on my ability to thrive with gratitude and love towards the hardest environments that have me worried enough to still work diligently to redeem as much as possible before Ukraine, an environment that requires growth from me that is not merely seen one day, but where my efforts in one day of action mean so much more that they carry so much further into the future as well as being able to repeat this day to day. My own grandiosity aggressively reached for the intuition within that pressed me to just do this without any training or any thought inside half an hour of the the first thought of doing so, something which has now faired well in helping make even riskier judgements in the future as a consequence of the improvements in self-measurement that have followed in what arguably began as too foolhardy. I knew I wouldn't do it in the ten days, even within a few days thereafter however what I completely didn't consider was the amount of socialising and friendships that I was going to make along the way, and subsequently, the detours that would result here. It's no longer the case all in all that I'm "not yet the being I need to be in order to..." but now, with the resolves and learnings that have followed, its instead much more "after this I'm going to be", with the balance and moderation needed to intelligently calculate that into healthy self-trust, which we all must have in this journey forward of ours.

 

[Letho]

I will be away for at least 2 wks. Or just when I want to comment again.

 

Very simple message.

 

= My backpack was stolen. Inclusive of iPhone, Macbook and passport. All means of communication now lost other than right in this moment being able to accept the friendly gesture of a man from Holland to send this message. I am sitting across from his friend from Turkey right now where the same thing happened to him, including the struggle with immigration and his embassy as I am having the same issue with the Australian embassy.

 

I am not giving up on this challenge. I am still tracking on. I solely took the opportunity to send this message to inspire others not to give up either. I am almost forced to give in and just catch a plane to Bangkok, thats what everything in my nervous system almost is telling me to do. But I will not. I will accomplish what I set out to do no matter what. However, I will now have no means of reliable communication until I build up a new temporary home base in Bangkok. 

 

So whatever challenge you should be completing right now, whatever you have to do. Do not give in. Do not give up 

 

Find power in another level of inward silence where light is darkest before the dawn. 

 

If you didnt realise, that's your cue to now... Rise.

 

As always, 

 

Best Light

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Letho]

I am now... OFFICIALLY... in Bangkok!

Long story short, my guess is looking at all my injuries, that my backpack was stolen and the fact that I was going to be still doing a lot of tracking through urban areas where there's many unknown variables, my request to continue tracking to Thailand while receiving the aid of the Cambodian immigration was refused. Plainly stated, "Michael, I will not continue arguing with you, we have no idea how long its going to take you, 4 days, 7 days, or whatever you say excuse my English but we are not waiting around for you", and this is because she gave me an ultimatum, "If you continue to track to Thailand from Phnom Penh we will not help you receive the extra clearance you need because you now have a non-official emergency passport not a formal passport. You can choose to wait two weeks until everything is sorted with your embassy or you can cooperate with us. Be our guest though take the chance it us up to you but don't argue with us if you have issues at the border as we will not help you then and you will have to wait."

I took a bus as the airport would not clear me yet.

I am actually now glad, as I honestly believe I would have ended up seriously injured. I couldn't find a shoe store that had my shoe size so I had no choice but to rely on these sandles I previously pictured. I didn't think they were that bad but after I stepped out of the bus after our first break of the trip they now grip like slippery ice at the slightest give in the pavement forcing me to watch nearly every step depending on the unpredictable weather. If I tracked on, it would have been a terrible decision as tracking deeper into the rural from Phnom Penh that I'd argue isn't even a real city per se (but the people are really great and friendly, its just the poverty line that forces people to do things they wouldn't want to do) would have given me even less of a chance of finding shoes as they became increasingly worse, the worst of it of which would have been felt in the second or third day into again of which when would have likely spelt my end, with no one to contact still as like I said I'm cut off from all my social networks as they require phone verification and the only mobile number I bothered to learn off by heart was my fathers. Moreover, the Australian Embassy have only given me $200 US to work with, and that's a loan.

Entering into my first day here in Bangkok my body is utterly exhausted, moreover I've started to experience issues with my right ankle and left knee, on top of this the rest of my injuries from the motorcycle injuries are still healing and combined with the conscious choice to be homeless and not to mention all the mosquito bites that have come with that, she's done me a great favor by persuading me to take her side. I also had three boils that had grown on my back from the tropical weather the size of small golf balls that when put under the slightest pressure other than the comfort of a light breeze, caused a lot of pain. I figured that given I could tighten my bag up against my back I'd be able to minimise the pain however even if I became used to any temporary pain, they would have taken twice as long to heal and perhaps could have developed into something worse, at the very least pending a potentially inevitable infection. So here I am now just easing my body back into regular life, however as much as I can I'm now going back into theoretical mode for the evolution of bioelectrical agency now where I've started to both realise the practical benefits of training slightly more as well as the importance of, although I'm proud of myself for how far I came as its literally the furthest I've ever tracked or ran especially on zero training for years, making sure I'm prepared bioelectrically, of which I now have a lot more confidence and inspiration towards as I had moments where I was able to experience elevations I've never been able to achieve more. The exhaustion of the body is of course the clock reaching 12 midnight on realising that it now has time to properly rest where I'm not going to pressure it anymore and so "Now is the time to let Michael know that we're fucked!". Which is fair enough, I'm proud of both my mind and body, there's still tons for me to process, integrate and only some of which I'll be able to share, especially socially speaking. Oh yeah, on the latter front so I met this person don't want to reveal many dets but this around the back and fourth between embassy and immigration anyway but fuck, this person really did my head in haha and they wanted me to spend all of my time with them. They were super great towards me, however they would just not stop talking and talking and talking, which is not their fault as I've still got more to learn with respect to enforcing boundaries in this regard as we all know but it went like "Yeah, so let's take the conspiracy of..." I'd say, and this person would say "MATE! It's not a conspiracy, this is conspiracy FACT!" and now you know the kind of person I was speaking with. This person loves to go out and party so they showed me a good time however I think where my nervous system was at the time I just wasn't able to appreciate them as much as they perhaps deserved. I promised them I'd be back in Cambodia following the ending of some of my future travels where I'll also be going back to Vietnam, so we'll see how it goes I'll have more of a swing in my step I think so I'll be able to steer the ship more in our get together which is what I think it really needed. 

Anyhow, this was typed on the laptop of a friend I've recently made here in Bangkok, just thought I'd give an update so yal aren't running a false story in your head.

With respect to bioelectrical agency, start with the heart, then you learn to create this in the mind followed by the gut, then literally in every other energy center is where I'm experimenting with. Don't even bother trying it if you're not willing to devote at least an hour a day on the heart alone for two weeks, as that's how long it took me to start envisioning the greater depths that were possible with it and other areas of the body following my learnings from heartmath.com.

'Bioelectrical' may be changed to 'bioenergetics' however bioenergetics encompasses so much cool science stuff term now that it doesn't hit home base as much as I'd like even though its a more encompassing term, however the short end of that is to realise that 90+ percent of psychology is not purely replaceable or explainable by 'bioenergetics' but is instead just ancillary to and or that bioenergetics is the foundation to psychology. Practically speaking, any thought or emotion you have has more survival value to you if you understand that you both can understand it fully and have enough agency to change it fully (i.e. alchemy). Bioelectrical Agency is predicated on Understanding then Power then Ownership. Think of Bioelectrical Agency in the same way you would owning money, if you don't understand your money, then accurate proportional use is purely based on luck and saying you 'own your money' is like saying a squirrel owns a $50 US note, secondly if you don't have any power over its use, then relative to that lack of power especially when that lack is around misunderstanding how your psychology is influenced by the world around you to spend money, then saying you own your money is like saying a 9 year old spoilt brat brainwashed by reruns of the worst possible tik tok videos owns their money, or let's just take any sweatpants wearing Carls Jr. addict. They of course, don't 'Own' their money in the same way that they don't 'Own' their 'Bioelectricity' to be able to employ 'Agency' over it which is a combination of both understanding and power, balanced by the awareness to create and support it.

Great, so now you understand why the western world has no capitalistic incentive to monopolise its interests towards marketing to you how you can advance your bioelectrical agency to become a more 'empowered consumer', or Carl's Jr. regular. In the past, especially around Aristotle's era I predict that given the work of a guy like Aristotle and his intelligence, in light of it being on the ontology of values which intersects with agency and our employment of them in the instruction of our energy over our beings to me its perfectly rational to conclude that perhaps Aristotle even completed work in this area of 'Bioelectrical Agency' as I've authored it. Venn diagrammatically, the work is perfectly symmetrical with mine when you add in utilising awareness, areas of the body and directions to focus energy in its revolution towards a particular endpoint within the nervous system. The achievement of Aristotle's ideals at work is entirely predicated on the ability to instruct awareness towards a particular value driven and therefore energetic end. In fact, even the differentiation between that which was a value versus a vice requires so much awareness over the bodies energies and understanding towards that which enabled order towards "Aristotle's Mean" versus chaos, what I've realised is analogous to my own "Order vs Chaos" dichotomy I shared earlier, something that mirrors the vice/virtue sentiment. If I were a police investigator and I had to reach the most rational conclusion here, I would say that at a bare minimum here Aristotle's work on bioelectrical agency here has... ah.... coincidentally become... ah... lost... so to speak, at least in part... even if he had different words for it where much of his work is now for me to read as I'm only going by what I've connected in the last 24 hours as I've barely looked into anything of Aristotle's other than what I've passively learned over the years with many of the sayings that have been passed on to westerners like "Remember Aristotle's mean!". This means that Aristotle not only created his own energetic map of which the discernment of values is on what supported the epigenetic advancement of being versus that which did not when held in context with the most intelligent use of said map in the context of any correspondence with 'Bioelectrical Agency', but that he would have had maps on the relationships between awareness, agency and the movement vs creation and discernment of energy in the context of self-bio-evolution, however elementary those maps may have been doesn't matter, those maps predicate the invention of his value dichotomies and thus he must have invented the former first. In this sense, I don't really have anything more to teach you with respect to bioelectrical agency anymore, you should be able to work the rest out for yourself from here as that would better steer you anyway in making the connections I have made myself. The destruction of the demographics of the blind in western civilisation has come at the hands of falsely adhering to the freedoms of democracy while underplaying how much of a collectivist you are and at the same time having those freedoms stolen away from you more and more as you sell your ability to intelligently instruct your energy in a way that self-informs the order of said freedoms via understanding and power, that when combined create the unity that reflects the freedom that so many people take for granted while simultaneously don't realise is being more and more taken away. 

The best way to know something is an absolute, yes an absolute truth not relative one, is in how much it scales between the finite and 'infinite' (even if we only mean this term from a symbolic reference frame) relative to our best intelligence on the environment and ourselves. To point towards this being realised as an absolute then is as follows, in particular how I drew my analogy to the practical relationship with money.

Agency => Freedom => Ownership => Understanding => Power => Awareness.

Simply as follows, no awareness no power and from no power, at this point everything only becomes the illusion of understanding, which leads to illusions of ownership, which leads to illusions of freedom, which leads to illusions of agency. Now to finish that cycle relative to present knowledge, I'd put consciousness in front of agency to say that true consciousness cannot exist without being predicated by agency hence why we've created any hierarchy at all on consciousness i.e. low vs high, however for now we'll leave that where it is.

Now, back to where we were, doesn't that sound a little like what happens with what I said regarding money? People walking around believing THEY'VE go the agency to make THEIR OWN decisions while all the while through their over-confidence combined with a hidden inflated ignorance they instead just create massive gaps in the market that can only be filled by companies that are best at exploiting this, with casinos of course being the greatest examples on the disgust sensitivity end. 

I'm NOT getting into conspiracy stuff right now though haha in light of what I mentioned earlier regarding the person I met in my immigration-embassy back and fourth draining all of my energy during our encounter, so I'll leave the rest for you.

On a practical note though let's return back to "Agency => Freedom => Ownership => Understanding => Power => Awareness" just to see where it travels from the finite to the 'infinite', we have where the analogical use of money meets the 'currency, investment and growth' of bioelectricity in the finite materialistic reservoir of consciousness and then on the other side of that, at any level of consciousness growth and any attempt at increasing the perception of the scale of consciousness this matrix, even if they change in the complexity of the dynamics between them ("Agency => Freedom => Ownership => Understanding => Power => Awareness") there is both neither the experience of higher consciousness that is without this dynamic or system nor even with another to replace it that supersedes it, that we know of. There is direct correspondence between the dimensions of experiential consciousness and our understanding of our agency over the energy we have to use within it and how at the lower dimensions this also corresponds to the immediacy of the physics of the material world with the seemingly most insignificant of phenomena, like that of a Carls Jr. burger and its however superior counterpart, sweatpants wearing addict who's got two chubby kids in the back screaming their order to them as they as the Energetically Noble Aristotelian parents that they are gracefully placing their order to the lovely person on the other end of the speaker in the drive through if its not a sliding glass door communication between Bioelectrically and therefore Diplomatically FREE employee and customer, both unbeknownst to them, looking into the eyes of an unfamiliar prisoner with a painfully frustrated smile with both bellies that only know they can't be satiated as they've never been taught to have the agency to do so, thus... They have the whip and ball chain of capitalism to whip em into shape with their next craving!

Lights out for me, to humorously end to juxtapose the usual "Best Light" and to get a well deserved rest so I can enjoy the mind that'll return to me when I've achieved my full recovery heh, but only after a Carls Jr. soda. Shit, I forgot to get ice. Dang, I'll have to go back to the store. It's 30 minutes away, oh well, Carls Jr is worth it. See yal later on. But I do need to get some rest!

I've also run out of time on my friends laptop half drinking my third beer here heh!

But to finish as the synthesis as the recap, ever emotion and thought is now at what we can call just for fun but meant seriously an "Aristotelean Bioelectrical Value Intersection", this is because a personal value i.e. courage isn't just an energy, its the authoring and understanding of the energies between what makes up our nervous systems and what runs them to create agency as well as to expand it over our beings and subsequently, our bodies emotional and thought well-being as per what was the philosophical goal implied by "the Aristotelean mean".
 

[Letho]

 

The tale of the Fiery Green Eyed Doll and the Hyenas Manes of Centuries that tamed her under the Green Billed table of Consciousness.

 (Spontaneously decided to write this in a supermarket here in Bangkok just now.

The singularity of a particular 'woman' here is used symbolically)

 

The rain pours thunderingly
Eyes of green fire seen from a distance
Dancing hyenas with lion manes surrounding her through the looking glass of a voyeur room
A Thai woman finding her place in the cultural smoke and mirrors
Only taught to please those manes or find herself through the beauty she can achieve
Even if taught that this is for herself, it is again, for the manes
For the man has taught himself to be trapped just as much, via their fiery green gaze
So in as much as they believe themselves to have imprisoned the woman
Via that same volition, they ensnare themselves in a greater hurricane that traps them both within the voyeur palace
One behind the doll glass and the other, sound asleep in their untraced desire within the looking room
The looking glass that forever foretold many of these futures centuries behind this one and so then, not just this one too but also the spectrum of egoic idiocy that we see on both sides of sexes across the planet that keeps them still in their response, both trapped
Centuries of green tears
Bound by lustful monetary tiers
Cloaked in a disguise
That hinds a culture from the self that believes itself is the dark side of the moon
Now orbiting the artificial sun, to continue the cycle of life and death
To heroically triumph through the seasons, all in the name of future sun and daughter
That hold these green eyes at the alter, while all burn ablaze
Under and above, in a heaven made of hell
As the thai woman threatens to carve the cheeks of her beautiful face
And the hyenas manes calling her crazy
As she releases in confusion and they hold her 'lovingly', and give her a child
So they can both teach their son and daughter, how to love like this too
A cultural insane asylum, locked on a hidden mental island
With damage to the heart, enough too so that they can be exploited by the west and they can extend the deed of their enlightenment here too,
Thailand, the land of the free tears,
As they remain hidden among the thousands surrounding theirs,
Silent, with the highest oppression being the hidden acceptance of the hyenas manes
With their fiery green eyes, 
The diamonds of their soul
Computable only as a brief passing thought or emotion
An eyeglance towards the tiniest understanding of their secret stormy predicament
In it, a light switch goes off to release their energetic torment but then just as quickly
A robotic override,
A welcoming plastic smile
"Hello sir, how may I help you today? We have some lovely women coming for you, please wait a moment as they prepare for entering our display room"
And no, I didn't
I left

- Best Light

 

By the way running the following feedback loop for next few weeks that corresponds the scale I created from "Awareness to Agency" just above.

Firstly, I'm writing in a very awkward position at the moment as the counters are suited to people of smaller height and there's no appropriate chairs, aka don't have much time here:

1. Enhancing differentiation of internal energy, remember as lack of differentiation increases so too does the lack of ownership of that energy and therefore the lack of agency and free will (which we do have however has been poorly categorised). Internal energy is purely all that we experience, external is purely all that we experience on the incoming that becomes the internal. Differentiation is multi-layered and overlays between the computationally abstract and the very mechanical and straightforward, "I felt this experience created from my gut, to my heart to my mind, it has a signature that expresses itself as a projective consequence to those mechanics, etc, etc". There's chaotic multidimentiality that expresses itself as orderly relationality from the viewpoint of understanding, that until its held in full view by awareness, that awareness does not fully translate all the way up the scale to agency that spells out the meta-language of then escalation into potentially higher consciousness that just NATURALLY follows as that's just the NATURAL direction of true awareness, it wants more light and when it achieves it, this is when awareness starts to translate into epigenetic change from viewpoint of its meta-language, that is always evolutionary, a translation of what I meant by "it wants more light".

2. Enhancing the LTM (long term memory) mapping between information gathered from awareness into... going back to the noted scale... understanding that fuels how power can actualise itself back into then the symbiotic relationship between the two that translates into a naturally greater level of awareness. This is done via techniques I've self created that are outgrowths from my learnings of method of loci for example. The light within tells me, if its true, that God wanted me to get rid of my phone and computer so that I relied much more on my memory, so that I brought more strength to the accomplishment of this purpose and for any other reason there may be on a cultural level. By understanding the scale created one should by now understand that to the level there is a lack of understanding and or power, there is zero, and mean zero ownership over the energy and therefore responses within our responses and therefore you are purely a puppet by the limits of that phenomenological profile. This is something that one has to maturely accept in order to embrace the challenge of moving up the levels in the same way we would for exercise, as long as we have the right methods. I have some upcoming stuff down the line here but just so yal know where I am in what I'm prioritising in my movement forward. I'll take the same energy I brought running now to my progression here which will now give me a level of unprecedented will and focus I haven't experienced for a long time. It's ah, arguably perfect timing, synchronistically. The loss of the run, the new realisations, the opportunity to now captilise, so I'm lucky in many ways in this respect. Cheers big ears God for opening my eyes a little here as requested, you knew I wasn't going to stop my run so you stopped it for me as I'd learned the lessons I'd needed for now from exercise to take things further in meta-ascendence, returning to the original project.

 

I've run out of time to continue speaking here, will come another day. I've realised now though, and the deeper I go the more it impacts me to the core, that strikingly, its becoming more and more apparent that as the sophistication by which I understand how to become aware of, differentiate, influence, change and evolve my own energy (inclusive of all levels and manners of thought and emotion but not limited to) and the respective areas of the nervous system (i.e. not limited to areas of the brain) in which they're created, reside and have their power interdependently across the rest of our being (i.e. how a particular energy, no matter the kind or magnitude, experienced within the heart influences one to many in the gut, everywhere else and vice versa), the more I realise not only how I was a living, breathing biobot, programmed by the system, and that I, as a consequence of building the same powers that programmed the original state of my system am learning to breath beyond the abstract parameters that previously defined me as a being, but also how as a consequence of my cultural learnings then, how each core aspect of my nervous system has had tailor made hacking techniques specially created to successfully hack into each area so that I would believe that my decisions, hopes, dreams and desires were all mine and so I would stay as far away as possible from realising the core truths of the hacked spaces of my nervous system, and through that bridge, all of my consciousness and all of its possible levels. We're taught to falsely believe that a food craving is a real desire, and because of this we have an obesity crisis. We're taught to believe that a sex craving is a real desire, and because of this we have not an overpopulation issue per se but an overstupidity crisis. We're taught to believe that a dopaminergic urge to win is a true desire, which is why we have a narcissism epidemic. We're taught to believe that a sunken state is a true existential crises of depression of some kind and that the only solution for them is a pill or to 'find their true purpose' where their only choices are those artificially created by their culture that unbeknownst to them has fastly regressed into infantalism and that to choose between those will merely be a choosing between how their respective society has so far cleverly created a chemical treadmill of 'purpose' for them to run on as an alternative to realising that what literally all is needed is understanding of their own condition and like the kinaesthetic intelligence grown in one's hand with respect to catching a seemingly uncatchable ball they'll find bliss easily by just following the respective mind-body training that's needed. Moving back to the "Agency-Awareness" scale, we are OWNED by the external, our respective culture or otherwise, to the extent we do not own our own responses, if we do not embrace this truth by relative measure we simply won't make the appropriate strategically mature responses to find where the terrain of true self-awareness exists and therefore the ground of where true freedom exists that we need to track to. I've found a few more nuggets via my tracking from Vietnam to Phnom Penh and now as deeper cultural resolutions find my internal cognitive theatre room here in Bangkok as I deeper my relational understanding of the human condition and our historical progressions, what further ground will you make in more deeply realising your own? Not in malice, not in irrational campaigning, but in understanding who you truly are for what you are, how will you improve your intelligence to do so? At the end of the day, regardless of our overlap between one another, we must answer this question for ourselves to establish true ownership over who we are, one that isn't fettered by anything other than our deepest purity, analogous to a rebirth, untarnished by any poor faiths we keep with energies because we don't lead with understanding to enhance our power, and thus instead said power is purely of the previously noted identity structures that corrupt our genuinely very valuable, pure and good ego into the very falsity that masks those faiths into inner-created churches that are just smoke and mirrors that hide ourselves from our own true souls due to this self-ignorance as a natural fail-safe compensatory survival mechanism. 

 

Between now and when I'm back I'll have done a lot more research on Aristotle's work, among other. 

 

Who knows what else I should give you scoundrels tongue in cheek, to start with I'll make my next share the aforementioned promise "The Next Post" after I get more settled here in Bangkok.

 

 

 

 

 

[Letho]

 

Constructing first 'Temporal Identity'.

First principle of philosophy.

1. Never slap, stroke, or pull the schlong.

Man should not masturbate, woman should 'masturbate' the man. Man is a being that is meant to personify the epitome of creating order amidst the chaos. The epitome, not the average, not half way or a quarter way or three quarters of the way up the population ranks, the epitome. Epitome is his only understanding of equality and for everything else, it should be beneath him including equalizing everything that potentially harms his self-control, resilience and chance for liberation, with only its execution, literally or figuratively. Moreover, by allowing a woman to be the only one to truly explore it, he will only allow open channels within himself in which he encourages her to do so, so that he himself can be a part of that play rather than appearing as an 'expert'. This emboldens the sexual interaction with exploration and adds another light to the adventure, including how his increased strength carries over elsewhere in the journey with the right woman.

 

Okay, there's implicit grains of truth to that principle as I do adhere to it consequentially regardless, however its of course not what I'm talking about.

'Temporal Identity' is the understanding of Identity creation via a higher functional perspective, predicating the ego's nature drive to Identity via attachment and learning with intelligently defined parameters that create a higher ground by which structural identities are created. What differentiates a structural from a functional identity is that the former is purely informational aka everything that is destroying the west in the form of Identity Politics, whereas the latter is purely the 'how' on the movement of computing information, which is the crux of the various levels of achievement that follow Bioelectrical Agency, hierarchically. I've been working over a year to being able to achieve this so it's a significant leap in my progress now that the wires are starting to spark together, something that'll take me a few weeks to become an unconscious habit given its a literal gymnastics action that's performed when it comes to generating functional identities, a bunch of different movements (i.e. all the brain areas, gut, heart, etc stuff I've been talking about). 

The biggest issue with cultural politics these days is that we're not working from the ground level of how identity is even formed and the ego's healthy desire for identity, because of this, we end up with two or more groups fighting with one another who's group identities are not only predicated under false understanding of how their beings work and what they want but as a natural consequence to this, totally inaccurate beliefs that because they have grains of truth to them, they're able to leverage the highest and worst aspects of human nature to fight for the least truthful aspects of their beliefs under the mask of that grain of truth, then being able to stamp it and call that 'Good Patriotism' figuratively or literally, for LGBT or international war, or even down to the micro politics when it comes to the nonsense we see hear and there in divorce courts.

'Temporal Identity' is revolutionary where its entirely predicated by a new and far more accurate temporal understanding of human nature and identity formation that forms the structural lenses that govern our belief paradigms, where the cycles of brain cognition informed by biography to the working memory of the present moment that juxtaposes itself via the self-computation of gut bacteria and alchemical agency employed by the heart as a conscious response, its a grounded practical solution to at least my relationship to the rest of the humanity that whoever learns it along the way, will join me in that freedom. Only at level 1 tier 1 of that, but I'm the savant constructing it so I should be down the ways there over the weeks to months ahead; we've got plenty of bridges to this paradigm from neurofeedback to CBT to tDCs and plenty, plenty more, however they're philosophically dumbstruck when it comes to putting it altogether into a palatable philosophy that can become a self-employed bioelectrical authorship and that's because they're entirely predicated on the enduser not being the technology that creates the comparable change but instead dependent on the technology in doing so. In this paradigm, after hours and hours of training and advancement up the tiers, you are the technology, free from LGBT+++ propaganda outside of creating your own occasional fart joke regarding thereto including for all of the inversions of that from war, religion and everything else. 

Functional Philosophy (the how of 'how life works' aka our inner natures) is the future to Structural Philosophy, and the first way to realize this truth is in understanding how it has always been the 'how' regarding how our natures work that explains how any philosophizing including the various kinds were ever created at all. Imagine any increase/decrease in any main area of our nervous system that impacts our functionality and we will see a proportional change in the lenses that makeup our perception of reality and subsequent characteristics that are formed in the construction of our philosophies about life, analogously and literally, just as 'personality' has been ordered into something that is either more or less suited to a certain external profession is to understand then the many unique relationships brought by function to understanding structure and its subsequent creation of structure that speaks to philosophy that one or more persons adhere to and or advance. Functional Philosophy not only explains degenerate structural philosophy but also explains the challenges brought to challenging those degenerate philosophies themselves because as a functional sentient unit decreases for the ego to compensate it relies more and more on the most self-protective and therefore sometimes most self-sabotaging aspects of itself either for a self-preservation that does or doesn't lead to self-destruction in the one and or the many, where even if there are social feedback loops, because their resolution on the information created from the level of their functional philosophy is so low, they're consequently forced to be increasingly more rigid on the truth/falseness of the structural philosophy generated. In order to ‘save’ lower functional sentient units, they must be indoctrinated into as much peace as possible and or their functionality must be repaired and or upgraded, there is no other option. Both options as we know, are what have been circulated in many ways, on that latter note we’ve already heard enough about the brainwashing we receive on NeuraLink. To the former here in Thailand for example, the average IQ is less than 90 whereas in Cambodia they’re even higher than Australia, Cambodians have more functionality on one level however because their disgust sensitivity isn’t as high as some areas like I mentioned regarding the lack of cleanliness in many areas and therefore the need to have your own toilet paper, below their poverty line ‘sneaky crime’ that I’m sure I don’t need to bring up examples of are much less looked down upon and by the way I’m just hoping the person that stole my stuff including my thousands of dollars uses it to good use for their health and prosperity I couldn’t care less outside of that and learning from my experiences, even though as I’ve expressed, they’re very, very good people, over-nourished even when it comes to the Buddhist faith their taking ranch as beautifully as it has. On that note, I never got to see Angkor Wat but it’s highly, highly recommended, absolutely amazing. In Thailand, as made very visible by the artificial beauty standards they have here, they on the other hand even though that mechanism of functionality is a little twisted and extremely damaging with how shallow its expressed in their culture on certain ends as depicted in my previous post, especially where there’s a lack of disgust sensitivity where there should be some in a way that enhances that damaging effect, look down on the lower classes here in certain ways especially with respect to crimes of all kinds, and do not at all go out of their way like you may see in Cambodia they do when it comes to helping those below the poverty line. Both have the Buddha on a pedestal, however because of the unhealthy indoctrination of the West into Thailand, in the ways shared in the previous post, the way disgust sensitivity has presented itself in their culture has manifested very differently compared to the Cambodian’s, however a little smarter they are when it comes to being that little bit more sneaky. In the future, I'm both worried and excited for both countries with respect to how they evolve philosophically and how their respective positions right now change in that motion which will include the continual influx of cultures around the world, from China especially into Cambodia and the West's ongoing influence on the self-esteem of Thailand's mask, and concerning Vietnam, I see them as a combination of both Cambodia and Thailand where although Vietnam has suffered from the West's influence, they have a stronger affiliation with the self through Buddhism and even the spiritual practices they've inherited from China, so much of the sacredness that's preserved by the Cambodian's in rural areas is likely going to be kept strong in the way it is in China moving forward. However, as a lay opinion, I expect to see Bangkok to more and more become the bridge for the west into the rest of Asia as it has over the last couple of decades has opened up to via male Westerners being attracted to wedding the Thai women here. Still lots to integrate, however functionally using these three cultures as an example, even though Thailand is going to become more and more techy and in return advance its education in many new ways, with respect to Functional Philosophy we're going to very much see a stalemate between the three cultures because of how larger continents are going to landlock that conversation, out of the three though I expect to see Vietnam become more and more of the world around them and maybe even along with the Cambodians, become more philosophically astute, especially functionally because of their roots in being more body centered via Buddhism. On that note, even though we have the scientism I'm predicting to take more root in Thailand, that's only going to have more of a degrading impact on preserving the sacredness of their roots and at least right now at this point, I don't see how its possible that Thailand isn't going to simply turn into a 'Second West', which is what China used to be at risk of. Outside of previously being a casual appetizer I've only just started when it comes to analyzing and integrating other cultures, however I predict its going to be like a second arm to future philosophizing for me that'll only deepen the scope and breadth of my sharing's here that I look forward to. 

 

[Letho]

 

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The West is totally overrated by the way, none of the countries shouldn't be anywhere near the top in terms of places to visit because of all the brainwashing, etc. Europe and Asia are where its at even though of got many soft and strong positive vibes with niches in the West that I'll always hold sacred, because sacredness is where its at and what a country needs to preserve which is all that I'm disappointed by really and is where all disharmony resides from in the world, psychologically <-> culturally and all sociological dynamics in every which way that you can make out of that.

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Something I've been thinking about.
 

So as I've made pretty clear, working to be a dad and start a strong family, that being said along the way there's going to be a lot of strategic grounded adventures that I'm happy being open minded about to be a positive endorsement for ethical relations when it comes to negotiating the process of having many relationships with the opposite sex. 

Although right now 'Project Temporal Identity' takes precedence, as soon as I've established myself in level 1 there I'll be moving to Project Conquer ___insert country here___, where Thailand is of course, first on the list. My goal will be to form ethical relationships with 50 women per country I visit from now on each of which will only count if they're seeded with the potential or already established for being a some variant of a LTR, learning the language as I go along enough for basic conversation that can organically grow overtime.

 

My goal with this project is to establish a core rich understanding based on personal experience on:

(1) relationship dynamics so I can build a truly multidimensional imaginative landscape for how I imagine the future family I'm building  
(2) the dynamics of what I want
(3) designing, learning and teaching parenting dynamics
(4) deepening my existential grounding on life and what our human condition is
(5) how to go after what I want as maximally and ethically as possible in way that is mutually beneficial and where its solely built on a grounding of trust
(6) and of course, teach my son and daughter from the perspective of a gentleman that has truly seen it all. 

 

So THAT'S in the works.

 

My father was a true traditional alpha male indoctrinated by the system to be the loyal bread winner that fought for his woman as protectively and dominantly as possible, he passed that onto me and its arguably in our genes as all my brothers are the same. I really love my dad and I love the wisdom that exists in that, however those same dynamics that were able to survive in the past in a much less complex world because of the increased multidimensionality, over-complications, drama and indoctrinations now show too many of their blindspots that its now dangerous to operate under the same traditional horse blinkers. For me, this is a 'you can have your cake and eat it too' situation where I get to preserve the past while simply creating my own intellectualized complex dating system whereby thin and reduce the signal to noise ratio as much as possible while respecting and sharing positive experiences with the opposite sex. For me, this would be a really positive project for me to do in light of it being a core need amongst both sexes that need to be filled, so that men on the one side understand my own strategic decision making when it comes to creating the most intelligent road to building my own family that I personally want to envision and on the other hand, to help reduce the bias of any female readers when it comes to a man focusing on quantity in this respect to give her an opportunity to discriminate between men that focus on quantity because they're purely looking at women as an object and game versus men that are genuinely looking for a certain kind of woman while creating an adventure along the way which is as ethical as possible and in that process, done where there's the minimum of suffering and maximum positive. This will help encourage both sides to begin to think about how they could operate strategically and objectively as well to help them move away from societal brainwashing while moving towards those true home grown values that truly make a society strong as it concerns remembering that family is the bedrock of civilization, as its family that creates the people and its the people that create the country that makes it a great place to visit, not the cloning of other countries, their cultures or the strategic brainwashing for capitalistic ends to create pseudo home away from homes that don't broaden cultures horizons for the betterment of our mutual collective inward development. 

 

Will translate from 'Something I've been thinking about' to:

Something I'm now doing.

In a matter of weeks.

 

50 may seem like a lot however for Bangkok, its really not. The 'quantity' changes from location to location based on my evaluation of each culture. Moreover, you should never try to 'match me' that's not what this is about, we are completely different people with different abilities, opportunities, goals and futures, you need to focus on building your future while I focus on building mine, and do so as strategically as possible. 

You have to remember that I'm not going to fit into anyone's definition of 'Woke', at the end of the day you have to remember that I have a male brain, '50' is just a number that gives my brain something to focus on, a goal, an ambition to accomplish, the humanism is in the process I actualize to achieve that, not the result, the result is in the impact I have on every interaction including how you maturely appraise this project. 

 

 

 

So here's to potentially (MOST LIKELY) upcoming...

 

Project Conquer Thailand.

 

 

 

[Letho]

On 30/9/2567 at 8:25 AM, Letho said:

 

 

I wrote the following on two hours of sleep just now, an echo of the solution screaming from my subconscious based on learning I guess it gave itself on the fly based on patterns its picked up over the last week and a bit. 

In short, its brought great resolution to my adventure challenge even though that I now need to apply the described dynamics to specific life situations now including both my running and all of my obstacles that we all know about along the achievement of that path haha. 

There's layers of patterns I still need to abstract further on top of this writing, i.e. boundaries between self and other still need to be differentiated further and in that, the balance between self-originated ego versus the socially reinforced ego, including too the brief overlaps mentioned concerning the historical context of self versus other relative to cultural progressions which was rather sloppily introduced including relations to animals and related analogies there that could have been more deeply integrated with the writing, however its a considerable foundation for me to work with that'll be a complement to how my psyche continues to evolve through this challenge and beyond.

Anyhow, may it feed your own creativity.

 

Best Light.

 

 

Title: The frustration of the ego: paradox and instability versus its opposites.

Who am I not, who am I to be, am I to be, am I actualising that which is me and that which is right versus avoiding that which is wrong? And when these realities find their environmental feedback, how are they resolved and by what confusion versus fluidity in understanding versus learning in between and in their balance, are the questions resolved by the unconscious further still? 

Solution versus the ambiguity of the unknown that still must be acted upon, is the invariable terrain where the muscle that supports this decision network is what resolves this paradox of the ego’s instability via stability functions of either chaotic or more orderly value. The latter concerning becoming of more orderly value contributing to the beings “Reality Esteem” (aka one’s confidence to act in reality and usually matches with one’s competence) which is to me a more accurate term compared to “self-esteem” where behaviours are either of potentialisation or actualisation. potentialisation being the reflection of behaviours that bring safety to present “Reality Esteem” whereas actualisation (calculated risk) is potentialisation (stable risk) into the unknown that usually accompanies some kind of calculated risk. The former however doing its opposite, something which can co-occur, where instead decisions are uncalculated and risky but not evaluated as a part of a truth value where they may even be considered risks (incompetence), or they are however the esteem is not accurate and therefore they act irrationally.

It is because of their co-occurrence where the frustration often exists as well given the ego is attempting to find its resolve, experiences incongruence however cannot resolve this because its own inaccurate esteem or inaccurate competence in a certain area has not been brought to light and placed under the light of understanding. It is understanding that shapes accurate competence and therefore resolves the ego’s feeling of self-incongruence, however it is action met with success that best resolves the ego’s sense of competence towards self-congruence in that area. In the pairing of both, the ego experiences a sense of excellence in this area of reality and thus where the experience of becoming a teacher, student and master are the culmination of the ego finding resolve in the related experiences. 

These new adventures surrounding this deep challenge have allowed me to highlight areas of the ego within the self that have previously eluded me but have needed light shed upon them. The measurement of social connection weighed against achieving a sense of accomplishment for self-individuality versus hidden leverage for social affiliation has been of notable frustration for me in ways I have not noticed before. As a part of the ego’s “Reality Esteem”, in light of our psyche evolutionarily finding balance via social affiliation there is often the replacement of self-evaluation for the evaluation of others, whether that critique is good or bad, and it is often a measurement of an aspect of our maturity to the level we can both make it our own critique and one that is accurate while self-fulfilling. Writing now, I understand within myself that I am yet to reach a sense of mastery in this area of my psyche but that if I do contextualise this categorisation with the breadth of understanding why I haven’t achieved this yet and combine it with the breath of actions that preserve its future development, “Ego-congruence” will be a replacement for “Reality-esteem” until proper “Reality-esteem” is achieved in this area. By taking a focused approach to this particular area, I can withstand the pressure of holding a greater degree of subtlety in the patience I have for its actualisation, allowing me to then spot and avoid previously hidden “chaotic values” because in ways I ways unconscious of I believed them to provide me with “Reality-Esteem” however in actuality, it was just “False Ego-Congruence” as a way of managing hidden “Ego-incongruence” and the frustration that surfaces within this. Something like this can result as a simple consequence of unknowingly following social conditioning that’s usually a combination of three kinds that one has unconsciously adapted to (1) social feedback (positive/negative)(2) environmental feedback (skewed/precise) (3) role model emulation (known/unknown). The ratio (i.e. positive/negative, skewed/precise, known/unknown) of their outcomes is the precise intersection of understanding where the balance of false versus accurate ego incongruence vs congruence in the context of stable vs unstable “Reality Esteem” are going to be understood, we will call this category for this writing a positive or negative ego-triad.

From a self-aware point of view, understanding these factors provides the working memory by which the self can move in the balance between providing resolution versus moderation for the ego. The former is where strategic action can be initiated as a grounded solution for the ego in providing it with positive ego-congruence that gives it the tertiary to higher foundation for establishing genuine “Reality-Esteem” for the related area and for its general contributive benefit to one’s overall level here. The latter becomes the space of where the self, especially that which is primary to awareness, will need to continually feedback loop on the known versus unknown spaces of consciousness around this problematic area until a stable potentialisation versus actualisation space is generated, where if not, this is where unstable functions become unconsciously employed where one becomes on the side of a negative ego-triad, shifting more to a chaotic-value metric, who’s value matrix of orderly versus chaotic is going to be a mechanism that engineers the general unhappiness versus unhappiness of a being. In this case then, “Reality Esteem” where there is a combination of alignment and judgement on the metrics of competence and esteem in the context of chaotic versus orderly values structures that contribute to or take away from actualisation (calculated risk) and potentialisation (stable risk) and therefore create a more/less chaotic/orderly, is a “Happiness and Sanity Calculator” simultaneously. For the more an ego is frustrated and is unable to find resolve, the more unhappiness and insanity will invariably result, however the more solutions to problems which mirror the paired stability of competence and esteem, naturally more balanced happiness and sanity will result. ‘Balance’ here being the key operative word in both separating and uniting “Reality” and “Esteem”, for we have the joining and separation of “Self” in “Esteem” and “Other” in “Reality”, something which is done at varying levels of consciousness thresholds and bandwidths, for example, a typical ape, dolphin or orca whale has the same divide between “Reality” and “Esteem” to resolve, however it is only in their balance relative to those thresholds and bandwidths that have any weight on happiness and sanity, if for example, their bandwidths outweigh their thresholds of consciousness potential, this will for example be met with the outcome of completing the evolutionary heuristic that leads to a subsequent decrease in happiness and sanity to the extent the self in the ego does not have the ability to find at the very least, ego-congruence if not “reality-esteem” and to the extent the related sentience is not impeded by a negative-ego-triad for the leading to “false-ego-congruence”. False-ego-congruence, where its opposite “Truth” is meant to be the building block for “Reality-Esteem”, is like a mouse continually trying the same strategy towards removing cheese from a trap but instead of its success it instead continually receives an electrical shock as a failed form of punishment to deter the behaviour. Unfortunately, we see this markedly play-out in our social dynamics within western society in multiple unhealthy ways (1) where we create psychological illusions to mask failure for people “tomorrow is another day you can try again and everything will be alright” rather than getting to the root of the issue (2) create ego schisms where we install implicit punishments for when we do not perform socially well irrespective as to whether this has any benefit to how we actually respond to reality, thereby leveraging our desire for social connection, affiliations of which we’re evolutionarily designed to have as it aided our survival as only those affiliations that stayed genuinely aided said survival (3) positively reinforce unhealthy escapes via similar to number two, ego closure from dependencies that are demographically supported, “It’s cool to where a ‘G’ chain to look cool. One, two and three along with more that could be mentioned there combined with a negative-ego-triad are of course in large part where most of our issues in the balance between human psychology and human society have become, largely imbalanced, and where we’ve reached such a point of delusion that it becomes too ‘uncool’ to be identifying these psychological traps for the regression of our collective ego into the “Naive-Realism” of false-ego-congruence via the collective support of individuality that equals said ‘G’ chain where anyone with this chain has the implicit authority to manipulate reality to serve the illusion, aka take a Donald Trump and politics for example. “Naive-Realism” is effectively what both modern society and materialism has become simultaneously, built on a foundation of false-ego-congruence that supports instead a narcissistic philosophy predicated on the illusion of “Reality-Esteem” rather than its actuality. The ‘G’ chain is symbolic of both false-ego-congruence, that is, the ego’s attempts to find stability via delusion, an escape from reality aka the opposite of “Reality-Esteem”, and how it is socially supported to do so because it overlaps with a materialistic paradigm, giving the illusion of evolutionary value when in reality, it leads to the degeneration of evolutionary value and especially where it is a part of a hierarchical societal structure based on a materialistic class system, the fundamental core diagrammatic overlap with both unhappiness and insanity in a given society, which in todays modern times, mostly represents western society, with certain constrained outgrowths in the east, in particular China, however to a much lesser extent Thailand, Cambodia and Vietnam where these countries find a more even divide in uniting the individual with the tribe/collective, even though they’re indirectly affected. 

In coming full circle, in todays modern times the ego needs to go through a metamorphic process by which it slowly shifts from a state of partial to entranced “Naive Realism” that serves as the basis of false-ego-congruence to replace the confidence for the achievement and something that is reflective of genuine “Reality Esteem” to a self-awareness that generates the genuine stated “Ego-congruence”, the stated foundation for our goal in resolving the paradoxes and instabilities of the ego’s relationship to the environment. Where further, the divide between those two words of “self-awareness” is inclusive of “Other” in “awareness”. “Other” to ensure the self in “self-awareness” moves naturally into understanding its place in its environment and in doing so, is able to move seamlessly from existential position, i.e. as started with “who am I not, who am I to be” etc to a state of existential direction to finding stability in this temporal picture to the point of achieving existential momentum until said temporal closure is met with the environmental success that stabilises the ego with higher “Reality-esteem”. So remove the mousetrap, sit back and observe the self and become the self in observation. Understand the layers of behaviour in the context of resolving the described “happiness-sanity metric” via the balance of the intersecting truth versus falsehood in how the self establishes its next movement from “Reality Esteem” adjacent to either a positive or negative ego-triad, find and ride the wave of understandings that meet you with orderly reality values versus chaotic ones and live in the space of actualisation and potential rather than frustration and the resulting ego’s regression. 

 

 

As per reminder of the post above, every post corresponds with a humorous self-analysis while courting my own mind, trying to get its attention, woo it, etc with whatever pickup line I can come up with, just remember that. 

 

 

 

Scratch 60+ points off my IQ and this is literally where it's at haha, who knows maybe I'd still do okay in Thailand. Anyhow, humor aside, this is just another layer to my appointment with evolving what I'm now terming as a new philosophy 'Temporalism'. It's the best overlap I've ever fathomed between the two comment noted ago, Functional Philosophy and Structural Philosophy.

With intelligence, when it exists as a counterpoint to one's frustrations you have to remember its so easy to fuel a false identity with it rather than utilize it to truly make ground in one's own self-awareness and greater wisdom of the universe. It pays then to remember, no really, on that note let's run a game right now. Imagine you had to choose between either for every centimeter you lost in height or some other characteristic, you would gain in IQ and for every point you lost in IQ you would gain a centimeter in height, how far would you take it just for the sake of speculation? Now for the sake of speculation, let's drop your IQ by those noted 60+ IQ points and hit the big Dr. Evil Red Button for nuclear weapons on what instead activated your sex drive, or some other drive, can you now feel more empathy for the state of various relationship dynamics in the world and where you extend it to different drives activated across our Freudian-Jungian analyses, where else can you extend your empathy to develop your own spiritual intelligence on the present moment? Now let's say I am actually 60+ IQ points deficient in this moment and I had to live my life this way for the rest of my life, with the loss and fractioning of any identity I had with intelligence that my ego attached itself to, where would I find my humility? How does it reveal other aspects of my shadow that I haven't seen yet? How about for you? If not intelligence, try it for many other areas. How about a 100 IQ point increase? Continue the same exercise and work to move towards deepening your groundedness rather than getting carried away like many false self-help gurus tell you to do when they make it a part of your Law of Attraction process to just "GO WILD" in your imagination for what you want, while forgetting all the limitations to that even though there is some use to it. 

Temporalism, gentlemen and ladies, is a philosophy that I'll be advertising here when I want to as something that serves as a solution to relationship issues through the lens of those that are capable of energetically (cognitively and emotionally) actualising it, that'll be the best way to relay its learning exercises. "Yo dude, imagine if you reached level 1 to temporalism, that'd be all your social anxiety, inhibitions and need for validation wiped away while preserving that tear of beauty now liberating itself down your cheek for achieving this on top of what we now call your empathy, the thing that connects you to yourself as much as another", to me that's the beginning to a much more culturally stable way of relaying my ideas rather than just entirely restricting it to the rigid intellectualism of something that's even a cognitive imposition on what something like heart-math can handle. It's still not palatable for people who haven't done the training that they're able to create a powerful symbiotic energy that they can use in so many cool ways by aligning their activated connection with their hearts, minds and guts as a tertiary foundation. "You saying my gut has secret powers? It just tells me when I want Pepsi, Cheeto's and whether my momma is lying to me about whether she stole the last one!", yes I am. The gut has so much more I'm still discovering, Temporalism, is the understanding of this triad and the greater nervous system through their rhythms and how via their rhythms their harmonies create the channels that generate what we know as our felt experiences of emotions and thoughts, however... That is just the beginning kiddos and you'll have to give me a few weeks more for all of my wounds to heal, yep I have to go to the hospital daily now just to get my eye cleaned now that I have my stitches out; yep, its infected. Like I told yah, God was pushin for the endin and that immigration officer called it as she did, I'd be right now peeing in the pushes with puss oozing from my eye right now wondering where I was going to sleep at night as I looked both ways down the wrong seeing nothing for the bare 100's of meters that I could eye either way down the highway if I didn't listen. And that's an interesting process in the context of this work isn't it, where the listening was and what I was reading from my body layered in the context of the minds wants and wishes paired with the assertions of what wanted to Will here in the context of our underlying conversation on free will and determinism here regarding choice. Conscious Choice is already figured out, I've neatly defined it inside the clever confines of simply saying "free will is proportional to awareness and everything else is determinism", however in the context of Intuitive Choice, well now, that's an entirely different kettle of tea to boil isn't it aye! But that which Temporalism of course, overlaps in answering. "But I still don't fully understand what Temporalism is!" Good, because I don't want you yet, it'll come on the next page of this journal for a more formal presentation down the road heh!

 

 

 

[Letho]

 

 

 

Chad stops by.

IQ points slowly returning after motorbike accident to the head.

 

 

 

Take in the learning salt in the link above, splash it against those demonic entities presently holding you hostage from the light of Chad's glory and Chad will give you a personalized Blue Steel that'll make old tampons spontaneously want to take a visit to the maternity ward.

 

 

 

 

 

[Letho]

 

 

 

Heading Denmark today so much earlier than expected, backpacking with a friend don’t want to miss the opportunity. I’ll be away for while, will hit back here around Christmas time.

 

With respect to earlier promised release stuff just remember I had my backpack stolen and with that everything on my Mac so just use some commonsense there. I actually don't want to buy another Mac or iPhone following with the pursuit of completing the rest of this obstacle that I think God's thrown my way as a challenge towards improving my own memory and creativity, so we'll see how long that lasts but regardless when I return, everything promised will return where it should be here.

 

 

Wanted to write this post quickly before I left for the airport heh! So it's a little rushed but... valuable (areas in which will bring a lot of clarity for where I see a lot of need here for this spiritual demographic).

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This post will be deleted when I return due to parts of my own personal experiences that I’d rather keep private.

What is a man vs a woman, at its spiritual core? 

As a man, your mastery is oneness, in fluid solidarity. 

As a woman, your mastery is togetherness, in solid fluidity. 

This is an absolute truth, there is zero deviation in your destiny outside of prior epigenetic failures which have been camouflaged in ‘spectrum of genderism’, when’s something has become an ‘ism’ as I’ve just for the first time coined it as it has when it has strict division to how it even exists, that thing no longer exists as an originating causality, instead just as has now become the case, ‘ism’ is coined to denote words that prioritize change in them, aka the introduction of the feminine into fluidity, which should never be allowed in the politics of science. There is a place for the feminine in science, however at its core it is a strictly masculine profession in light of its objectivity where mature femininity is where there is complementarity, such is the case with Dr. Dian Fossey. Dr. Magnus Hirschfeld, an openly gay physician, is an example of how when the feminine has perceived authority and they’re given the power to voice their opinion it can lead to disastrous cultural implications down the road. Viewing this in a traditionally biased way is how the identity politics of how ‘sexism’ conflicts with reality, where somehow because there’s not equal fairness in opinion due to gender differences that must therefore be wrong, when this of course couldn’t be further from the truth. Everyone has an equal and fair right to an opinion, however zero persons should be given an equal weighting and allowing the energy of either the masculine or the feminine more weighting than what it deserves for a context, is demonstrably unfair, when weighted against an objective appraisal of the observed reality in which we’re attempting to create visible lines of logical discrimination that equal maximum freedom for all relative to their actual makeup as a being. Being ‘better’ than a male as a ‘female’ scientist is not an argument for their authority, nor is being gay, everything must be simply weighted against the reality of the circumstances, not against the hypothetical simulated politics of ‘better and worse’. The infection of the feminine, including an over-emphasis on introducing social politics into science is what has invariably led to its downfall where the masculine objective presence is silenced in all ways possible including in the worst of places being the cornerstone of what science is for, objective analysis that fuels creativity and innovation that progresses humankind towards the furthering of our alignment with reality through the evolution of our potential inclusive of the enhancement of our understanding of the world around us. The feminine in a woman that’s been indoctrinated is literally programmed to makeup a plausible story to believe something different as its become a part of her identity to feel empowered by this false narrative against ‘the oppression of the man’ that doesn’t nearly exist as much as it used to in the whole but is instead found in demographic weaknesses, moreover, an indoctrinated man or genuinely gay, homosexual or trans man in their feminine will when feel threatened by this truth, also spew out lies as what in their mind is objective but is just a defensive mechanism for short term inward politics that has long term disastrous cultural consequences. This is not a speech against women, gays, homosexuals or trans, this is about understanding the consequences of energetic divisions and where the masculine versus the feminine is designed by nature to serve, and let me say it here, when a man or woman’s truest energy is not in service to their and therefore natures deepest good, they are solely in service to their ego, usually the result of some trauma of which we can include now brainwashing as a definite form of trauma that most people have in some way gone through on some level, we won’t emphasize the word ‘trauma’ here though in light of how its been used as a tool of manipulation by the feminine by both males, females, trans and every other genderism now. 

Remove the fluidity from a man, and you have is anger, rage, numbness and dissociation. Remove the solidarity from a man and you have the perfect reflection of how a man’s cultural upbringing has been infiltrated to make the feminine more dominant in his energetic matrix. 

Remove the solidarity of a woman, and you have just the same reflected as what is the case with a man, the only difference is that she will compensate for her lack of solidarity in trying to be over-masculine in different situations, which is often in todays era expressed in hyper-sexuality as her only lease on life in which she gets to feel ‘empowered’ over men that are feminizing themselves. A man outside of monetary expressions will usually not have this compensatory backlash where he overextends in trying to be feminine unless he has severe trauma. 

A man must find his fluidity via his solidarity, a woman must find their solidarity via their fluidity. Here the man learns to become the rocks in the river that guide the motion of the water that the woman fluidly runs her course through, aka he builds the home and then she builds the nest within it. his is not about ‘traditionalism’ vs ‘modernism’, it’s a false dichotomy where the latter only represents the deterioration of the true nature of man and woman via a process of sociopolitical incrementalism that corrupts the man and woman’s original natural pathway towards procreation and raising a family by disrupting the masculine/feminine dynamics which in the end destroys the family to have the children relying on the state and the parents dissociated from their roles as parents either via genuine apathy or via single parenting that in return does not give the child proper role models to follow on how their energies are to naturally develop; as one consequence, either sex that is forced to be in their opposite energy more than their natural masculine/feminine will in return create offspring that overtime as they mature if their isn’t an energetic balance in their environment, will incur some related trauma there with where a single parent woman is forced to be more masculine creates on average more feminine men as one example. All of this gender politics nonsense that we see in the USA, Australia and I don’t know much about the UK so I won’t say anything there is rooted in the disruption of the family unit when it comes to the state surreptitiously allowing the rise of big business and artistry that through its marketing with the passive consumption from uninformed parents leading directly to the indoctrination of children without the state or related government even having to ask for consent as the children invisibly fall into their hands totally non the wiser. Through this means, there has been a slow severing of the sacredness between child and parent across the stomach of the body that is family that makes a civilization stable and great for the long term future of humankind for the purpose of the government prioritising long term control over the long term prosperity. Through the marketing of business and art in the west we have seen the advertising of the illusion of freedom via individuality found in self-expression against any form of perceived oppression, which has destroyed the true collectivism of the family unit that when healthy naturally fuels a balanced state of individuality only to in the end fall into the hands of the oppressive collectivism that was drilled into us we were avoiding all the while people destroying the strength of the sacredness of their family unit in the process so that when they look around them after this realization, they’re without the proper strength of the family unit to fall back on as is often intelligently nurtured in many eastern countries here. This mainly effects low to middle class families that are not only forced to be wage slaves or some variety thereof but are indoctrinated to the extent that their pathway is unable to be any other way to the point where their family dynamic becomes an absolute truth that they just have to ‘deal with’ rather than imagining that its underpinned by long term generational dynamics that their children will add to when they’ve left the home. When you truly understand the ‘Energy of Family’ you will understand and accept the purpose of energy dynamics and therefore accept what is your own unique role to play in the world concerning the true energy that you were blessed with. I’ve decisively articulated the division of that for you above in order to emulate as far as possible in your life so that you can be a part of the cultural war in a totally passive way not out there trying to fight imaginary phantoms from society but instead just focusing on how you can be a part of the natural creation of life through your own energy which may or may not include the building of a strong family with the right partner. A right parnter that isn’t indoctrinated by this societal mess or at the very least understands the role they must play in combatting it, which is by simply living their life. They nor you ever again have to even turn on the radio, YouTube, television, TikTok or whatever else ever again where all they’re listening to is the echo of these damaging effects to our energetic dynamics (ED), it has absolutely nothing to do with the issues people complain about themselves and entirely to do with ED, not to mention all the nonsense distractions people talk about on this forum where we see even crueler versions of how the true power in the collectivism of family and the sacred structure that it is meant to help embolden offspring into the world has been so usurped by religious dogma that children are instead eventually as adults or younger become the bullets to be fired at the end of someone else’s or a group of persons selfish lust for power, greed and control.

What you are fighting against if there is any fight at all at the inward level, is purely unhealthy narcissism in a nutshell, for of course, what do we get as a byproduct of being sold the illusion of individuality that falls into the hands of collectivism? We get delusional forms of narcissism whether they’re pro collectivism in the form of dangerous ‘religious like’ orders or they’re pro ‘fake individuality’. Where although the former has more nuance from the east to be added, concerning the latter which is more dedicative of our condition in the west because become so entrenched in falsity of what truly makes them connect with another human that the only truth they’re able to establish in the idea of connection is when their soul has been taken over by the fictional sense of self they create about themselves in their own minds projective landscape. Totally disconnected from the rest of their nervous systems similar in the way I have partially taught here in my positive endorsement concerning increasing the sensitivity with the rest of the most important regions of our nervous system like the heart, mind, gut and as you grow in sophistication, their various parts and interactions. What is your response to this unhealthy narcissism? The healthy kind. Your ego must become attached to an identity that believes in its true worth, ability to create and value relative to the energetic structure of your being and therefore those regions of the nervous system that are their to be activated so that your healthy narcissism can show its greatest light. Why? Because the state or government has told you that it should actually be the one that’s meant to be your narcissism, that its meant to create the laws, rules and provide you with all the opportunities that you’re capable of generating, which is completely false obviously and you shouldn’t trust them in light of todays identity politics that have completely gone array, but nor should you distrust. Healthy narcissism means as one value differentiator there, and I recommend studying Aristotles work more in the areas of balance, values and ethics, means balanced trust. I you’re too naive and unquestioning, you’ll be gullible the way they want you to be, if you’re too cynical you’ll be some variant of being too rebellious, which is what they also want, as they simply want a lack of balance as a lack of balance is what eventually destroys your family unit in the future if you bless yourself enough to create one. In the past, you would hand over your personal narcissism to the tribal leader, and you would do this based on an intrinsic sense of intuitive trust among likemindedness. It had a lot of flaws, but it got us by for a lot of generations. Your false individuality, and I say its false as I hardly doubt most readers have matured their level of ethics, sense of values, responsibility, freedom and sovereignty to the level they need to be in order to be a true reflection of balanced individuality, was meant to be a counterpunch to the tribal leader, aka your parents or true role models so that you would run into the ideological cage that you’re likely trapped in by some level, and if you’re not, all props to you. Now that you’ve seen the underlying relationships at play here though, you need to take off that fake warm clothing of freedom and individual expression that we see with guys going blindly trans and whatever else because its an ‘expression of individuality’, and simply stand naked under the light of reality then just take an honest look at what you are, who you are and how you are at the core of things without all the noise of societies dishonest words. 

From here, if you’re a man, fluid solidarity. Which means as shortly as possible, you should mostly only view your time as something that is another brick to add onto your castle; that’s what you most as strongly as possible build as much healthy narcissistic pride around as you can where you only define yourself through the next action you take towards achieving your challenge rather than pontificating about whether when you were a child you actually wanted to be a female and this is why your life turned out wrong. You don’t try and fight the state or government unless it is in alignment with your true intelligence which for most of you its not, its not a part of your purpose, just focus on the true dynamics that make you and therefore a family great that then in return is the blessing you give to future civilization. Lastly, as a man you have to realize that there’s never a point in which you should ever not be a man. Whether it’s acting or not acting, an actor needs to realize that done too much in the absence of balance if he’s pretending to be a woman he’s doing damage to his energetic ecosystem; minor pretending, can be beneficial for both man and woman. To get past the brainwashing a man has received to be more feminine implicitly or explicitly, he just needs to understand that every moment is a moment of the masculine to override and overcome where in the context of time, this is learned to be done with increasingly greater more sophistication and maturity. Whether he’s dealing with children, sweeping the floor, a manager of a bank, milking a fucking cow, it must be recognized that a man is not defined by the type of the challenge but his masculine energy towards the challenge itself. Look at most men around you, many use the ease of a task to define the weakness they have towards it to the point where for many men if they’re not in a gym, you won’t see anything remotely close to a masculine energy. In the pavlovian sense, he’s ‘switched off’ from being a man and this is where YouTube and the rest of the media bullshit world gets to turn him into a feminine puppet twisting and courting his belief systems into becoming a supplicating pouting pigeon pouncing on the next bread feed of the next passerby. You’re a man 24 hours a day, 7 days a week and the masculine energy is something that should be positively self-reinforcing meaning its something that you become fueled by rather than tired by as so many men are these days when it comes to simply being who they were born to be because of how their energy systems have been fucked with.

And if you’re a woman, solid fluidity. Which means as shortly as possible, you’re totally preoccupied with the environment you’re in or wish to be a part of with respect to nurturing the values of harmony, peace and the maturity of the greater sacredness of life. That’s not sexist for me to say that, that’s literally what the feminines drive is designed for and for anything, however subtly, to say or dictate otherwise is damage to and the eventual destruction of the feminine as we now see in society today, including too with the masculine which for either one could say its a byproduct of the destruction of the other. You can be a scientist if you want again I’m not saying you shouldn’t look at Dr. Dian Fossey, her entire work was dedicated to nurturing the apes environment and too via the learning and wisdom she sought to courageously invoke towards the surrounding over masculine narrative towards great apes. It even brings a tear to my eye her work is so beautiful to me. She was intelligent and wise enough to have her femininity complement the masculinity she needed to pair it with in the profession of science that is as stated a masculine profession at the core of things, she is the perfect example then of what many women should aspire to emulate in their own way.

Now, what do you do if you have disruptions to your energetic system? For me, my heart and my gut were destroyed growing up by my unstable familial environment and many of these traumas (i.e. actively, so on a conscious level, practicing to dissociate while my mother was yelling absurdities at me as a small body because I wasn’t able to handle the emotional impact it had on me) remained hidden beneath my own natural genetic resilience. However after much dedicated effort to reawaken my hearts connection with the rest of my nervous system as one example, I haven’t experienced the dissociative symptoms I used to experience with respect to feeling cut off from parts of my body for over a year now. And to be vulnerable for a moment, these two improvisations ( https://www.youtube.com/@puremusiconly3645 ) that I created off the cuff a few years ago both in their own way reflect what I was going through underneath, and ‘Awaken The True War’ actually came at the aftermath of an energetic release that spontaneously came to me in the middle of the night at 2am or so, where I just new something mystical was rushing through me and I had to express it. Today, I felt motivated to share this with you as I became aware of the pains that still existed within me as shared with me by the ‘invisible gut that lived behind my gut’ when late at night my sleeping was disrupted by two French women that had decided to stay in my room at the hostel I was staying in. When they came into my room I was almost fast asleep so my judgement was semi-conscious which no doubt impacted the vulnerability of the rest of my system however in saying that, I almost immediately within the span of the few minutes they were there started to get a crush on one of them even though I hadn’t even seen them I’d just heard their feminine voices that were equally as beautiful as one another. After they were informed they were in the wrong room and left, my gut for spontaneously experienced a strong sense of abandonment. So here we have an analysis, (1) vulnerable state (2) environmental sense of reward (3) taken away (4) bodily trigger (5) emotional overcoming. What needs to be stressed here as a priority is that it’s a bodily trigger first and foremost, not an emotional one and especially not a thought. You may say, ‘Oh I feel x, y, z and it creates w, t, j’ and that’s all well and good but its actually irrelevant if you don’t understand and or cannot connect with where its occurring in the body, something which is totally and utterly just, absurdly wrong in most of the field of ‘therapeutic psychology’, “because well of course, if you’re disconnected from your body then we can just feed you some pills and say it has more to do with your thoughts and emotions than your body, especially in the prioritization of an overemphasis of brain”. That ‘soft pain’ in my gut revealed to me how I’m still very disconnected in this area of my body regardless as to how much more connected I may be than the average person in certain areas, it reveals the profound realization as well that the solution to isolated psychological events do not live in isolated locations within the body, that as much as I can do work on the heart as I have, the gut, the brain too, etc, eventually not only do I need to enhance the level of connection to my gut as I have with my heart, at a holistic level as I have been hinting I’ve been achieving, I need to activate all of these regions of the body in simultaneity as an all encompassing healing process, again start at heartmath.com if you’re a novice. Concerning the future, this IS a future cornerstone to the therapeutic process if not the entire stone house itself the more people advance up the hierarchy of bioelectrical agency as I am working to design the castle of completion for myself here. All in all, that brief encounter with the lovely French women that I never even got to meet have opened up a truth inside of me that I’ve still got a lot of work to do but that I welcome the challenge with the tenacity that’s inspired by the power I’ll be able to experience and accomplish even more once I’ve inhaled the new level it takes me to. 

Returning back to my sentiment pertaining to how a man is defined not by the type of challenge but by the quality of his approach to life (to express slightly differently as I don’t precisely remember what I said) and this endeavor towards my own energetic work here is no different. Men have been brainwashed into believing that resilience in the absence of sensitivity to what is real in their body occurring as an energetic pain, is somehow good and masculine, when in reality, its purely the compensation of the ego’s ignorance when it comes to understanding what a man is. See the man keeps going in the face of obstacles, however no where in our manual does it ever say that when we stop we shouldn’t understand our beings to ensure we mature ourselves to a higher level so we’re more likely to operate the next progression on our next training interval, they’ve been taught by the feminine to falsely either italicize their feelings into bullshit narratives so they act like the irrational imbalanced feminine monkeys that damage both the sacred feminine and masculine, be ashamed of that core or to simply ‘ignore it and push on’ which then puts them into a schism as to what to believe they should do. This only results in the creation of various kinds of dysfunctional childish narcissism from the male as a way to compensate where his true spiritual sovereignty towards his highest actualised narcissism becomes damaged, and unfortunately, is never truly realized. This should never be a case of ‘pick your poison’ which in culture it is in light of ignorance being commonplace, where guys energetically choose between either suffering in silence to the finish line while they positively reinforce a false not positive ego that becomes increasingly more distorted the more disconnected it is, and because like machines they’re still ticking the boxes, going to work and putting the hours in, that’s still ‘good’ as its ‘good’ for societies bottom line at the mechanical level and therefore better than if they were to take the poison o the delusional fake feeling narrative world of the feminine, where they turn every little ache and pain into a soap opera of beauty and the femibeast. Down to the core then, as men, part of our mastery then towards ‘fluid solidarity’ as I’ve coined it is in understanding all of the processes of our being that give rise to the creation and transformation of energy so that we can as effectively and creatively as possible convert our energy into the best next move forward for the legacy that we’re ideally leaving behind in some way, that’s it. A part of that then is in now relying upon ourselves to understand ourselves via the model of part-process-connection-system when it comes to understanding how thoughts and emotions are even made to best engineer both paths of the masculine and the feminine to their highest potential, that’s how we act as a scientist upon ourselves and therefore as a natural byproduct a benefit for the worlds self-understanding of its nature. ‘Bioelectrical Agency’ as I’ve coined it is a man’s natural destiny as a consequence from his self-understanding translating over into an increasingly more evolved energetic state produced as a consequence of the energy systems within his body communicating more intelligently, aka a collective grouping of the highest energies like love, power, unity, balance, order, fun, excitement, courage all coming together to forge into the oneness that makes his ‘fluid solidarity’. More negative, less fluid. More positive, more fluid. More positively masculine and we have positive narcissism that builds for one’s respective community in some way and for a positive feminine that is the contribution and harmonizing of what is build by the masculine, whereas if it’s more negative it’ll do a combination of either self-inflate and self-explode as we see in unhealthy narcissism. Both males and females these days are just as narcissistic as one another and that’s something I learned from Sam Vaknin who’s much more into the science there where its his belief that there’s more female narcissists than females these days. Just in case you’re unsure, ‘positive narcissism’ versus ‘negative narcissism’ is discriminated in the scientific literature as something that is either a personality disorder or not, in this case narcissistic personality disorder. What I’ve realized, is that given there’s such a strong relationship between energetic dynamics overlapping with the presentation of a unique profile when it comes to cases that represent narcissistic personality disorder, this work I’m doing that I hope collectively continues much more strongly outside of me eventually leads to an inevitable cure for all unhealthy forms of narcissism which I believe it is. The problem of course being, the very reason why we needed a solution to the epidemic to begin with, bringing us back to of course both the symptom and the cause being ‘pseudo-individuality’ propagated as a false freedom to the lower-mid population demographics, including all of its outgrowths. 

As a man, your mastery is oneness, in fluid solidarity. 

As a woman, your mastery is togetherness, in solid fluidity. 

 

[Letho]

 

Do you like bullying people for no reason @LoseYourvelf?

That's fine, you're lucky this isn't a primary school, high school, university or workplace 'classroom' mate, as I've made it my livelihood to take care of bullies, its a part of my genetic makeup now as I stare intensely into the eyes of of a bully while I slowly rip their emotional skin off. Politely, change your tune on this forum, this is not your place to dump your neural acid made of the purposeless trash pushed by the infantalism of UK underculture, yes I've been catching up on your commenting history on your profile. Never comment on manuel's journal or anyone else's again outside of them feeling the warmth of the enlightenment you've achieved beyond the satirical historical trash that's played by your governmental politics, thank you. You've got my last name now, but would you have the balls to give me yours? Move on please and treat everyone, especially in the journals section, with the utmost respect or at the very least, back your words up with more than the acidostupedo that presently plagues the progress of our collective human race beyond the narcissistic-apathetic-cyborgism of our youngest generations coming through that at best, cement the position of the downfall of most of western civilisation outside of the best of the remaining outgrowths post its inevitable self-imploding cultural apocalypse. Or start a journal, be positive, be respectful and watch people change as quickly as they see you fall into alignment with love of truth, truth of love; true freedom.

 

 

 

Plane's been delayed yal! We're sleeping at the airport tonight heh, which isn't so bad I've done it before! My friends just got the blankets you should see its humorous, I'd show but no phone still of course eh.

 

Ha. This makes for an interesting last comment before I'm back but aye!

Rock out.

Stay safe, stay peaceful, stay protective, supportive and wise of the good, true and what we want humanity to best emulate.