Random thoughts

[Yimpa]

20 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

No, it's mainly to please you, and because it's fun for me.

If I want to satisfy myself sexually, i manage to go back to my university and i can find myself a girlfriend in 2 weeks maximum.

 

[Schizophonia]

7 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

 

Lol

[Schizophonia]

14 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

I believe in you that you can.  You’re pretty solid. Have you ever considered it seriously? 

😂 You hope to get rid of me ?

At the moment i'm chilling in my hometown, i'm in no rush, next school year i'll see about moving back to my university town, i'll normally be more social.

 

Edited January 18 by Schizophonia

[Sugarcoat]

On 2025-01-18 at 10:10 PM, Schizophonia said:

😂 You hope to get rid of me ?

 

No, it can be funny sometimes your comment. Otherwise I feel pretty neutral about it. 

 

On 2025-01-18 at 10:10 PM, Schizophonia said:

 

At the moment i'm chilling in my hometown, i'm in no rush, next school year i'll see about moving back to my university town, i'll normally be more social.

 

I’d be glad for you if it went well with girls irl.

Edited Monday at 10:29 AM by Sugarcoat

[Sugarcoat]

60:

Sometimes I feel a little dumb. Like I don’t have proper access to my brain. My thoughts have a very low volume and are quite sparse like there’s a long gap between thoughts. I have a hard time getting into a flow while writing, because of this. Sometimes I wanna delete replies because they don’t sound “smart” enough. Yes I’m guilty, somehow I wanna seem deep and smart, to whom I don’t know, just in general, to myself too. I want my replies to have substance, that’s a good thing in a way, it’s good for the forum to wanna give good responses. I wonder if others think like this or if they just write. I find myself reading people’s responses and wondering how they come up with so much to say, and can compare to mine sometimes. lol guilty. 

[Sugarcoat]

61:

Sometimes I feel like that crazy scientist who has genuinely discovered something but that everyone just thinks is crazy

[Schizophonia]

14 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

60:

Sometimes I feel a little dumb. Like I don’t have proper access to my brain.

Don't take a SSRI and a neuroleptic in the same time.

 

[Schizophonia]

16 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

lol guilty. 

I sometimes spend a lot of time answering for this very reason and I think it's the same for most people.
I don't think most people here come out with very intelligent texts in one go or almost, unless they're particularly inspired and chill. 

[Sugarcoat]

1 minute ago, Schizophonia said:

Don't take a SSRI and a neuroleptic in the same time.

 

😹😹😹😹In February I will switch neuroleptic so I’ll see if it just gives me severe akathisia or if it’s good 

[Sugarcoat]

Just now, Schizophonia said:

I sometimes spend a lot of time answering for this very reason and I think it's the same for most people.
I don't think most people here come out with very intelligent texts in one go or almost, unless they're particularly inspired and chill. 

Thanks for your honesty. That makes sense since your responses can be very elaborate, plus I know you’ve studied stuff so that’s where you get some of it from right? Some seem to effortlessly write smart texts. But maybe they have a lot of work behind it like having done a lot of contemplation . I have some people I spontaneously can think of.

[Sugarcoat]

62:

I can’t get over the fact that in The Weeknd’s song timeless he literally sings “if I was you, I’d cut up my wrist” that is such a crazy lyrics to have 

[Schizophonia]

15 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

Thanks for your honesty.

That's normal.

15 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

That makes sense since your responses can be very elaborate, plus I know you’ve studied stuff so that’s where you get some of it from right?

Yes, essentially Freudo-Lacanian psychoanalysis, a bit of Jung, non-duality, and notions of neuroendocrinology; and i end up articulating all that to create a more or less holistic personalized jargon.

15 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

Some seem to effortlessly write smart texts.

But maybe they have a lot of work behind it like having done a lot of contemplation . I have some people I spontaneously can think of.

Razard, breaking the wall, keryo koffa and people like that think more quickly than me.

Leo is lazier, closer to us or even worse lol, and doesn't hesitate to essentially make little responses, often provocative or even trollish.

 

[Schizophonia]

27 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

😹😹😹😹In February I will switch neuroleptic so I’ll see if it just gives me severe akathisia or if it’s good 

Eheh.

Keep us posted.

4 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

62:

I can’t get over the fact that in The Weeknd’s song timeless he literally sings “if I was you, I’d cut up my wrist” that is such a crazy lyrics to have 

You know you need risperidone when you start to believe that the lyrics are addressed to you personally. 

[Schizophonia]

@Sugarcoat Enough simping for today i will let you alone.

 

I have to buy some LSD, (no joke lol).

Edited Monday at 08:15 PM by Schizophonia

[Sugarcoat]

54 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

That's normal.

I can hear this in your accent

55 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

Yes, essentially Freudo-Lacanian psychoanalysis, a bit of Jung, non-duality, and notions of neuroendocrinology; and i end up articulating all that to create a more or less holistic personalized jargon.

You have created your own style out of it

55 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

Razard, breaking the wall, keryo koffa and people like that think more quickly than me.

Leo is lazier, closer to us or even worse lol, and doesn't hesitate to essentially make little responses, often provocative or even trollish.

 

I was thinking of no self self too. Keryo I don’t even know if he understands what he writes himself. 
 

Leo is not lazy I feel he could come up with a deep response any time easily but actively keeps it short and writes only what’s necessary 

53 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

@Sugarcoat Enough simping for today i will let you alone.

 

Can you resist 😳

54 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

@Sugarcoat 

I have to buy some LSD, (no joke lol).

That’s so cool I want too

55 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

Eheh.

Keep us posted.

 

I will keep posting my stupid random thoughts 

55 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

 

You know you need risperidone when you start to believe that the lyrics are addressed to you personally. 

Haha

[Sugarcoat]

63:

I’m at a normal weight. I find it easy to maintain. Just eat healthy, two meals a day. But…..in order to get SKINTY. That’s not enough. You gotta take other measures. Like you gotta watch portion sizes, that I’m getting better at. Today I ate a salad and accidentally made a little too big portion but that’s fine I’m learning. You gotta watch out for certain calorie dense “healthy” foods like olive oil, nuts because they can easily add a lot of calories (I still include it because it’s delicious especially olive oil in dressings etc). So basically being normal weight is one thing, but being skinnnnty is another level. So this is gonna be a journey. 

[Salvijus]

13 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

Sometimes I feel a little dumb. Like I don’t have proper access to my brain. My thoughts have a very low volume and are quite sparse like there’s a long gap between thoughts. I have a hard time getting into a flow while writing, because of this. Sometimes I wanna delete replies because they don’t sound “smart” enough. Yes I’m guilty, somehow I wanna seem deep and smart, to whom I don’t know, just in general, to myself too. I want my replies to have substance, that’s a good thing in a way, it’s good for the forum to wanna give good responses. I wonder if others think like this or if they just write.

I usually abide in presence before I write and wait for the response to generate by itself. Depending on how complex the situation is, it can take considerable time sometimes to give birth to a response. But that way it's much more deeper and fruitful. I sometimes even treat this process as a spiritual practice. Especially if it's a heated, conflict situation. Learning to respond from presence is a delightful process full of gems. 

Edited Tuesday at 08:09 AM by Salvijus

[Salvijus]

11 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

63:

I’m at a normal weight. I find it easy to maintain. Just eat healthy, two meals a day. But…..in order to get SKINTY. That’s not enough. You gotta take other measures. Like you gotta watch portion sizes, that I’m getting better at. Today I ate a salad and accidentally made a little too big portion but that’s fine I’m learning. You gotta watch out for certain calorie dense “healthy” foods like olive oil, nuts because they can easily add a lot of calories (I still include it because it’s delicious especially olive oil in dressings etc). So basically being normal weight is one thing, but being skinnnnty is another level. So this is gonna be a journey. 

I eat twice a day without even trying to lose weight lol. 

[Candle]

13 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

60:

Sometimes I feel a little dumb. Like I don’t have proper access to my brain. My thoughts have a very low volume and are quite sparse like there’s a long gap between thoughts. I have a hard time getting into a flow while writing, because of this. Sometimes I wanna delete replies because they don’t sound “smart” enough.......

 

1. I think it's your biology or neuroscience. Nothing spiritual or paranormal. 
2. Maybe there are some drugs or technology that can help.
3. Maybe there exists some solution that you don't know yet. 

......

 

1. Now I understand why you write very short or single word answers.
2. While I was talking to you in PM, were you struggling to write things, I guess? But I was impressed by your writings and it felt very normal to me. Nothing abnormal I could detect. 
3. How on earth you managed to read my long messages in PM? God knows. 
4. Is it the same as Eckhart Tolle's thoughtless condition? Have you surrendered fully to the universe? 😆 
5. Some of your symptoms also seem similar to autism. 

 

Your thoughts have low volume. So you struggle to catch them, right? (I have the opposite : too many thoughts). My thinking is my problem. It's frustrating and depressing. 

 

Edited Tuesday at 09:23 AM by Candle

[Sugarcoat]

2 hours ago, Salvijus said:

I usually abide in presence before I write and wait for the response to generate by itself. Depending on how complex the situation is, it can take considerable time sometimes to give birth to a response. But that way it's much more deeper and fruitful. I sometimes even treat this process as a spiritual practice. Especially if it's a heated, conflict situation. Learning to respond from presence is a delightful process full of gems. 

That sounds good. Basically so I’m not the only one that can take time