Bye

[Joshe]

There is usually only 1 good reason to opt out of life, and that's if you're in unbearable, debilitating physical pain. 

If you're in a psychic hell, you have to figure out what you need to drop and then learn to drop it, which solves that problem. This usually means dropping conformist ideals, which is largely responsible for the majority of psychic hells we encounter. 

If you're not in debilitating, unbearable physical pain but still at rock bottom, it is ridiculous to opt out of life, IMO. 

At rock bottom, you're most free to do whatever you want. It makes no sense to off yourself when you're most free. If someone told me I was going to die next week, do you have any idea how many possibilities open up? And imagine if I followed up on some of those possibilities and were then told I wasn't going to die, and then I just kept living like that. Rock bottom is the best place to move up from. 

Maybe consider, for now, putting spirituality on the back burner and coming back to it later. And do not go into Islam. You will know you're being inauthentic and this will diminish your self-esteem even further. Now is time to build, not tear down. Spirituality is a serious project that involves tearing down but now might not be the best time for that.

You are now at a good place to move up but you have to drop the weights holding you down. 

I hope some of this is useful. 

I'm just one stranger here rooting for you, but if a million others knew about you and what you are dealing with, they would root for you too.

May you be healthy and happy.

Edited August 31, 2024 by Joshe

[Davino]

On 29/8/2024 at 6:25 AM, Loveeee said:

Many here believe infinity means "everything will happen" like some infinite monkey theorem

I had an Awakening once that I prefered to forget

Where I realized I will live through everything

Every possible experience

Every possible POV

Every possible creature

State of Consciousness

This is the unavoidable essence of Infinity

I was tripping looking at an insect crawling my finger

It was such a reincarnation experience, like flipping a thousand page book in an instant, therefore going through a whole strange loop of Infinity of all creatures in existence

It freaked me out quite a lot

So I decided to leave it to the side. Because I could see the ramifications this could take and also how much deeper the Awakening could get. I really thought about making a post and addressing the Awakening. As Leo had changed his mind quite a few times on this topic, but I decided to not go down that facet of Awakening yet because I don't feel that ready. It's really freaky to become conscious I am everything that could ever be and that's what Infinity is at the Highest levels, that's what I am