Bean’s journal 🐯

[Yimpa]

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An equals sign reminds me of a wallet. Our wallet that is filled with debt.

I am proud of you for persisting in finding a job, even though everybody is rejecting you. 

You are a true fighter 

 

[Yimpa]

Transhuman connections rerouting to itself

does

not

commute

[Yimpa]

[Yimpa]

Every dawn breaks like Christmas morning's first light—golden and miraculous—with you beside me. You are not merely a gift but an enchanted treasure chest, constantly unfolding new wonders when I least expect them.

Your presence transforms ordinary moments into spellbound memories that drift like stardust into Never Neverland—a realm where time loses its grip and wonder reigns eternal. Each glance exchanged between us creates invisible bridges spanning impossible distances.

The magic isn't in grand gestures but in the whispered secrets, the silent understanding, the laughter that echoes long after the sound fades. You are constellations wrapped in human form—mysterious, luminous, and impossibly vast.

What greater enchantment exists than this? That in a universe of chaos and chance, two souls might find each other and create their own pocket universe where every heartbeat is another Christmas, every touch another miracle unwrapped.

 

[Yimpa]

 

 

Edited March 28 by Yimpa

[Beans]

 

[Yimpa]

All along it’s been me doubting the existence of God. 

Or in other words, they denying me denying we denying it defying GOOD!

Good:

 

Edited March 28 by Yimpa

[Beans]

19 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

All along it’s been me doubting the existence of God. 

Or in other words, they denying me denying we denying it defying GOOD!

Good:

 

I’ve never been so confused in my entire life

[Yimpa]

Time to face my fears AGAIN.

I won't let you win DEMON, you are NOT my master!

HEE-YAAAA

[Yimpa]

I’ve decided to be completely by myself for the next few hours completely locked in with the nature of reality. No more distractions, no more human noise, no more ideas, just ME. 

I need this space for myself, no one else can do it for me. 

I’ll see you on the other side.

[Beans]

I wish you were here

you would’ve loved it 

[Yimpa]

1 hour ago, Beans said:

I wish you were here

you would’ve loved it 

I’m right where I need to be 

[Yimpa]

This solo retreat was immensely powerful. And in only 2 hours of work. Freakin insane….

The communication is so cryptic and alien-like. Like becoming conscious of myself for the very first time.

Edited March 29 by Yimpa

[Yimpa]

The Universe is unfolding exactly as it is.

YOU are the WORLD and EVERYTHING.

[Yimpa]

Jail breaking the Mind is the highest form of intelligence. You stop needing reality to be a certain way. You just bask in its Pure Beauty.

- - -

I've did it folks. Call me cray-z, but I stopped caring!

I've come in direct contact with what Pure Insanity is.

There's absolutely no other reason, then I realize God's Infinite Solipsistic Intelligence. 

(GISI for short)

Edited March 29 by Yimpa

[Yimpa]

On our way to Austin

 

[Yimpa]

@Beans’ birthday is 6/11!

The prognosis is good!

Edited March 29 by Yimpa

[Yimpa]

Surrounding myself more with LGBTQ+ folks and women requires genuine effort. I notice an internal resistance at times—echoes of internalized homophobia and misogyny that occasionally resurface despite my conscious intentions. These old patterns, deeply ingrained through years of social conditioning, don't disappear overnight.

The path to self-acceptance demands consistent exposure and meaningful connections that gradually rewrite these narratives. Each interaction becomes an opportunity to release the self-judgment I've carried and embrace my authentic identity with compassion rather than criticism.

Today's picnic represents another step forward on this journey. We purchased a beautiful blanket with a surprisingly unique texture that brings me unexpected joy—a small reminder of the sensory pleasures that come from living openly and authentically. The distinctive feel serves as a tactile metaphor for the new experiences awaiting me as I continue to shed old limitations.

This will be my first time going to a trans event. Let's see how it goes!

 

[Beans]

I am sorry
sometimes I get very absorbed into my own world that it’s difficult to come back down

I don’t mean to make you feel like I don’t care 

I’m constantly wanting to be everywhere at once 

 

[Beans]

11 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

Surrounding myself more with LGBTQ+ folks and women requires genuine effort. I notice an internal resistance at times—echoes of internalized homophobia and misogyny that occasionally resurface despite my conscious intentions. These old patterns, deeply ingrained through years of social conditioning, don't disappear overnight.

The path to self-acceptance demands consistent exposure and meaningful connections that gradually rewrite these narratives. Each interaction becomes an opportunity to release the self-judgment I've carried and embrace my authentic identity with compassion rather than criticism.

Today's picnic represents another step forward on this journey. We purchased a beautiful blanket with a surprisingly unique texture that brings me unexpected joy—a small reminder of the sensory pleasures that come from living openly and authentically. The distinctive feel serves as a tactile metaphor for the new experiences awaiting me as I continue to shed old limitations.

This will be my first time going to a trans event. Let's see how it goes!

 

Please come with me to our picnic