Solipsists, how do you approach romantic relationships?

[LambdaDelta]

At this point I've had several deep awakenings to solipsism and its mechanisms, but perhaps at the cost of ever having a romantic/intimate relationship. It just feels so strange now. As to why this type of relationship specifically and not others, I can think of a couple reasons - one is simply force of habit, prior to the awakenings I've had lots of experience with family, friendship, and regular social interactions, but never anything beyond short-lived school crushes. Two is I never particularly craved that type of relationship to begin with, I'm 23 and never had a girlfriend, which doesn't bother me at all. Three is the unique intimacy these entail. I'm also highly introverted, but have no trouble interacting with people after doing lots of development work. I find it's generally simpler to talk to men, but women are just fine too in normal contexts. Whereas with 'game', after watching Leo's 3-part series and some other pickup advice out of curiosity, I've found no way to make it authentic for myself. Put together, these factors now make romantic relationships seem very alien (speaking from the dualistic human perspective here). I'm open to the possibility this is all a bias/limiting belief in my head, though I'm completely certain I have no hidden insecurities about my looks or social skills, so it's not that kind of problem. In my latest trip I pretty much accepted that it's a sacrifice I had to make to experience God's Love, one I'd gladly give a million times over as nothing 'earthly' can compare. 

Not looking for a solution per se, but I am interested how others with similar spiritual experiences handle this aspect of their lives, might give me a missing hint, as I wouldn't want to miss out on something potentially nice due to ignorance. Thanks for reading.

[Atb210201]

Leave some room to play as an other if it comes to that

And all the other times when you want to be loving towards your partner see them as yourself not some other

Or even see them as someone lovely why not leave some room for that also

Edited August 27, 2024 by Atb210201