I'm curious, who else feels this way

[Moutushi]

Where I feel I am in life now, is in a non-judgmental place where I honestly don't hate anyone, for the most part outside of meeting my basic survival needs, I don't feel strongly driven towards any particular self biases. I just want to be left alone to observe, go through interactions with others, read when I feel called to read, and just simply experience and BE with everything around me, without taking action to alter it in any way that fosters my own survival so to speak. JUST DIVING DEEPER AND DEEPER EACH DAY INTO WHATEVER SHOWS UP IN MY DIRECT EXPERIENCE IS MY MAIN PURPOSE NOWADAYS

[Moutushi]

In the context of everything happening here locally in the US and globally in the world, and how polarized people are in different regions of the world, I feel like an absolute outsider (with what I shared above) almost everywhere I go except here on this forum, where I feel there is a chance I could connect with someone who can relate to what I am sharing, which is the purpose of my post <3

Edited August 8 by Moutushi

[puporing]

10 hours ago, Moutushi said:

feel like an absolute outsider

Likewise, and boyyy that degree of "outsiderness" you can reach...  Good that you try to keep an open mind though.

Edited August 9 by puporing

[gettoefl]

peace is

i dropped all grievances and judgements in the world

since 1. i know i am dreaming this up

and 2. non-peace is what harms me keeping the dream madness going

[Moutushi]

@puporing Ohh yep there's layers of depth to that feeling of "outsidedness" 

[Moutushi]

@gettoefl I agree, I'm curious what do you mean by non peace "keeping the dream madness going" ?

[Fadl]

Wait until something bad happens to you (God forbid) and "observe" if you stay calm or not. 

One trauma is on the way. Its inevitable.

[Moutushi]

@Fadl I'm already in the midst of "bad things", had a diagnosis of a disc herniation recently at the young age of 30 and may need surgery for it. Got depression, anxiety and the whole mix as a result of it. If it wasn't for the spiritual practice that I've started 10 years ago thanks to Leo's first few videos about meditation, I'm certain I would be suffering far much more, and would not be as capable of holding my emotional composure and keeping my calm as I am now.

Edited August 12 by Moutushi

[Ishanga]

9 hours ago, Moutushi said:

@Fadl I'm already in the midst of "bad things", had a diagnosis of a disc herniation recently at the young age of 30 and may need surgery for it. Got depression, anxiety and the whole mix as a result of it. If it wasn't for the spiritual practice that I've started 10 years ago thanks to Leo's first few videos about meditation, I'm certain I would be suffering far much more, and would not be as capable of holding my emotional composure and keeping my calm as I am now.

Sorry to hear about Your situation, and glad to hear that Your practices have helped You, it shows that these things, Practices/Methods/Techniques have value!

I feel the same, we all have to start or be at it where we are right now, that is so often a missed aspect on this forum, where the Absolute and Infinity rule lol!! Just go deeper into what is going on within You right now, stay with it, and see where it takes You, pain will arise always, but Suffering it is a choice!

[Moutushi]

@Ishanga Yes indeed, Cheers to diving deeper!