ADHD medication dilemma

[Wizardking]

I got diagnosed with ADHD about a year ago and after having tried several medications I found one that works for me, dextroamphetamine sulfate. It works really well. I feel like a normal person, Im able to be social, focus at work and in studies. My partner also says I'm much better while on it. But the issue is, if I take it for a couple days I feel completely brain dead when I take a day off. Zero energy, Can't focus on anything. Crave dopamine. I hate feeling dependent on this medicine and I fear becoming addicted to it. Before the diagnosis I have always self-medicated with caffeine. I quit it 3 years ago. But since then I've never felt normal and every time I try caffeine again I feel normal. So maybe it's just impossible for me to not be on stimulants... Anyone with experience in this? 

[Jannes]

Just started taking ADHD medications again and it's hard to live without them already. I mean life were hard without the meds so.. 

Well it's probably likely that you get a lot done on the day you take the drug? So maybe intentionally built in a rest day in between where you only do light work if any. 

[Wizardking]

41 minutes ago, Jannes said:

Just started taking ADHD medications again and it's hard to live without them already. I mean life were hard without the meds so.. 

Well it's probably likely that you get a lot done on the day you take the drug? So maybe intentionally built in a rest day in between where you only do light work if any. 

Yeah I get a lot done on it. I could take weekends off but then I won't have the energy to be social and do stuff with my partner. When I'm on the medication I feel like I am the person I want to be, but without it's like I have crippling depression. 

I just really hoped I would be able to fix it without medication but I've tried for four years without results and it has hurt my life progression to the point where my doctor and psychologist say it's time for me to accept that I need medication. I just hate feeling dependant on it. 

[Ulax]

@Wizardking Imo, just got to see taking meds for ADHD like taking insulin for diabetes. Its just a part of life now.

Key thing with ADHD is to make sure its actually ADHD. And if it is, then i think meds are definitely the way to go.