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Idk… i still feel disgusted by the food..

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though..

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I dream of this baby again : 

My baby nephew. And I was taking care of it. And a guy is looking at me from a far. Previously, he was in my dream too. And we’re over. 

And then, I dream of my sisters and my aunt. Both of them are older sisters. Older than me. And in this dream. It had to do with the university ceremony . Idk. Both of them are the top students, like one of the best. And they are continuing their studies. And my oldest sister told me like how, to be successful/ to graduate. Basically they are doing well in this area and my aunt was visiting/going to this ceremony. I didn’t graduate. I am no best student. It’s true that I went to this university because of their influence too.  But I didn’t graduate. It is my choice too. I didn’t attend some classes and some final examinations. So it was partially because of myself too. And so , this dream ends. While they could further their studies/going to the next stage, I couldn’t, because I didn’t graduate, 
 

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There had been many guys who had appeared in my dream these few days. 

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It wasn't me who cut this ties of fam . It was them who started it firs crossing the boundaries. By stealing my things. So I'm not practicing it either. 

They started it first. 

Edited September 18, 2024 by Sabth

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Today, I hadn't eat for almost three days. Yesterday I hadn't eat at all or drink. 

So today I made some chocolate drink. And I think I would want to eat. But idk. I reheat yesterday's dish and it wasn't fresh anymore. It felt rotten (giant 🦐) so I throw it away. And so, I eat whatever fruit that is in the fridge. 

Last night I was thinking of all the things that I wanna eat. Of course all of the good food. To fill my stomach after having not eat for a while. 

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Idk.  There is a weird things that is happening. I guess, this is a few years back, because when I decided to stop my university, my brother just went in. It was like this. He was a bit late for his age. My mom didn't put him in university after high school like we all. And I think it was a mistake . Back then. Like everyone elses would go into university. Like that was his right. Like he's too young to work still. He needed that which everybody got. But he didn't. And start quite late. (But this was years ago and now he had graduated.). And in this dream, the timeline was like that. My mom asked my bro if he really want to. She said it was what he chose. Because he said that it's a little difficult. To pray and to have schedules. Idk. So he get into it. And in this dream, I see my nephew and nieces are all precious. They are still young and like a baby. Playing with each other. They look so cute. I guess this was a few years ago?. Idk. And in this dream, my mom and my bro just came back from doing a volunteering work. Like we open the window, we can see someone from far away saying thank you. Idk. And in this place, in this house , though all the ambience was precious with those little kids growing up/playing,  this house was small. That's what I noticed about it. Like my sister bought something. And I see that our toilet is full. Full of things which made it seems like a very little toilet. And I felt like it's suffocating. I see that there are many toothbrush holder and each for everyone I guess? Idk. And then there are many people coming to our house. I don't know what that is. Or what it is. People I know and I don't. But I recognized one person. He didn't looked at me. There are many guys /man who are big. Idk who are they. And it seems like my sister aren't in good condition. I see them being poor. (Idk) Not my first sister. So there was that. And then there was some, sushi? Or something. But this, many guys (one man) asked me if we wanted it? There are many. And I said ok. There are several packages. I don't remember which one I got that have this : there was something in the food. Like a strepsil's pack. A tiny cut of it. And I give to the man . And this man said that this is unacceptable. He is like a man of power? Idk if these guys are a bodyguard or something. But it seems like it was their business. And this dream ended with this guy going out angry. Taking action

 . Idk. But my things was stolen back then . 

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I am doubting, if I should eat, or not. 

 

*He is the cause. He is the cause that my room was left unattended. For the first time ever. And that leads to my things being stolen. Hell it could even be him. He is even the suspect. Should I still take the food that he bought? 

Edited September 20, 2024 by Sabth

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13 hours ago, Sabth said:

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/Thinking about learning black magic/

I wish to learn black magic.
To send it to the people who steal my things. They think they could be me ? 

Teach me ☺️

12 September 2024.     12:36PM

 

👆🏻 Just a thought I had. 

 

Edited September 21, 2024 by Sabth

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I only like someone's music when it's good. 

 

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I want to be a good cook and I'm also craving a lot. But I couldn't cook. 

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Edited September 22, 2024 by Sabth

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At 3 something A M last night my father cook for me. I didn't eat at all yesterday and so I just took it. This shouldn't happen. 

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It should be me cooking what I like. I just need the ingredients. Then I can cook at night however I like. And I also needs some fruits. I'd rather eat my own cook than my father's. My mom's is okay but I've stopped for a week now. Just because.  

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And I dream, all sorts of things even though not as bad as yesterday's/last night. I don't know. Idk if I've done bad to my father. Or idk. F. Idk. 

We're in shopping mall. Then there was food. Someone told us to put it in the car. Then we went to the car. Suddenly it's me and my brother driving in his car. Something really dangerous had happened. We got out tracked into the horizon. Nah. Into the borderless body of water. Like in the distance. I believe there was another passenger behind us. I said I would never, wanna ride a car with him any longer. And he said his two friends will. It was just, crazy. The thing that we feared most, to be out tracked , happened. But somehow were back. Or I don't know. Suddenly were in this ground full of centipedes. And I told him not to stop. But he did. Anyway. So I was so close to come into contact with those creatures. The car was open somehow. Then I woke up. 

I also dream about other thing. I guess, yesterday, last night, I became really low. I had a nightmare with my other sister. Well, it wasn't good. I just hope that everything will went back to normal.