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[Sabth]

Someone wants me to forget my past

[Sabth]

I don't wanna get into others mind which I already did and it ruined me. Too bad. 

I don't like being full. I don't like being skimpy & hungry either

Everything just doesn't feels right. 9:30

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I feel like I want to vomit. 

[Sabth]

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Edited November 11 by Sabth

[Sabth]

3:48AM I shouldn't be focusing on things that are, things that are actually pulling me away. I should be focusing on what I am supposed to do. But, 

I saw in my dream that they are throwing me away. Like showing me the traces. Acting as if we're going somewhere. Packing my things. There are a whole lot of things going on. When I'm facing the mirror. In this room. Etc. when I'm facing x. My father etc. one time there are many, so many pigeons wanting to get into the house. And im looking for somewhere to s. But there are many people that I can't do it comfortably. And yk, someone was showing me something. Actually, if an apocalypse were to happen, idk. 

 

My focus now are totally ruined. 

 

I don't wanna be stuck in that. 

They are going really backward. 

 

 

 

 

Feeling like vomiting. Seeing the face of someone I'm never supposed to see . Vs eating that yesterday. Whatever made me do. Just kill me. 

 

 

Is it still

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There is really like the dark side. When I went into my room, it felt like heaven. But idk. I'm worried about my father. Should I worried about my father or should I worried about myself? Or is it just me? 

 

 

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Now between me is two men , when before this it was two one of the same woman. And I should stop at myself. I am not meant to meet the other  extreme 

 

 

I wrote these yesterday. Idk why the mod wouldn't let me edit my topic. 

I went through a whole lot of crashes. 

 

Something that are in my mind right now : heart mind and soul

2. Heart. By t. 

It feels like something is pouring on me from above in my mind forcefully like rape and I lose myself. 

 

Edited Tuesday at 03:02 PM by Sabth