Random Writing

[Marcel]

Whenever I think I understand the depths of manipulation I am taught a masterclass.

Its incredible how a person can switch, seemingly within minutes. 

I greatly need to increase my capacity and understanding of evil, every form of it.

I thought I was already set up well, but life taught me im woefully underprepared.

The problems is that someone rotten to the core can conceive of plans you can’t. Their imagination goes further. They have a deeper reach into hell. Their senses are wilder, more beastly and you don’t know how much you underestimate this aspect until you are already trapped in the spiders net. 

Appearances be what they may, life has proven to me again and again that healthy paranoia is absolutely a quality worth having, developing, sharpening and mastering.

You don’t know how vulnerable you are, until you actually think it through. We are so easily attackable from every conceivable angle.

[Marcel]

Yesterday was a very long day and today will be so presumably as well. 

I keep realising how much I unconsciously avoid to be present. A whole host of uncomfortable feelings knock at the door of my in the moment presence. 

This may explain why I get lost in my thoughts so often and drift off. It’s a distraction I fall into, almost like a safety valve, because feeling everything at once may be too painful.

Well. A lot of positivity and lovely feelings have also entered the picture, still old baggage wants its fair share of attention.

 I am improving steadily

 

 

[Whitney Edwards]

1 hour ago, Marcel said:

Yesterday was a very long day and today will be so presumably as well. 

I keep realising how much I unconsciously avoid to be present. A whole host of uncomfortable feelings knock at the door of my in the moment presence. 

This may explain why I get lost in my thoughts so often and drift off. It’s a distraction I fall into, almost like a safety valve, because feeling everything at once may be too painful.

Well. A lot of positivity and lovely feelings have also entered the picture, still old baggage wants its fair share of attention.

 I am improving steadily

 

 

Love emoji.. 

[Whitney Edwards]

A cat and yarn. 

[Marcel]

20 hours ago, Buck Edwards said:

A cat and yarn. 

I love it hun 

Such a lucky cat, to have so many yarns🧶 to play with, large ones too. Great work ❤️

Edited December 2, 2024 by Marcel

[Marcel]

I sometimes forgot that progress doesn’t just look like a straight line that continually goes upward. There are bumps on this ride.

Either fuel for further and higher flight or a downhill snowball of regression, depending on ones attitude.

Edited December 1, 2024 by Marcel

[Marcel]

How do you know? 

This question keeps mesmerising me. 

How do you know? Or in other words and more specifically: „What is the thought process / reasoning / which method did you use,  that lead you to this specific conclusion and what exactly makes you so certain that your thought process / reasoning / method and conclusion(s) are “correct”? 

At what point is something correct, meaning something genuinely being an exact way instead of another?At what point can you definitively know x to be true? 

Or in other words: “How do you know you know and haven’t deluded yourself, in one way or the other, leading to distorted, incomplete or inaccurate results along the way”?

Questions are fascinating tools. You can always keep asking. Curiosity, for better or worse, has no end. Or has it? 

Edited December 10, 2024 by Marcel

[josemar]

"My dad and my grandma never talked and still don’t. For example while eating a meal or even in general, they just sat/sit in silence and only talk/ed if something organisational has to be discussed. "

 

Plot twist: they are enlightened and don't put much value into intrusive thoughts or the need for validation 🥹

[Marcel]

7 minutes ago, josemar said:

"My dad and my grandma never talked and still don’t. For example while eating a meal or even in general, they just sat/sit in silence and only talk/ed if something organisational has to be discussed. "

 

Plot twist: they are enlightened and don't put much value into intrusive thoughts or the need for validation 🥹

Interesting interpretation lol 

[Whitney Edwards]

@Marcel don't mind some people. They can't mind their own business. I love you. 

[Marcel]

1 minute ago, Buck Edwards said:

@Marcel don't mind some people. They can't mind their own business. I love you. 

Yeah. I guess so. Can’t help but respond.

Thanks hun. I love you 

[Marcel]

Everything is working out. Every day in every way my life is improving. Miracles all around.

Truly remarkably that this year started out awful and will end on an incredible high note. 

I’m so excited for the years to come. 🤩

[Whitney Edwards]

Merry Christmas to the most wonderful man in my life. 

 

[Marcel]

2 hours ago, Buck Edwards said:

Merry Christmas to the most wonderful man in my life. 

 

Merry Christmas my wonderful wife ❤️

[Marcel]

Persistence is to the character of man as carbon is to steel - Napoleon Hill 

The backbone of any undertaking is persistence. It doesn’t matter the starting point, nearly as much as staying on the path and reaching the destination. 

There may be a lot of stumbling on the path, falling off of it at times, going in circles or serendipitous detours, but as long as the general direction is forward, without or at least little going backward and stand still, as long as adjustments are made on the way the path will make itself known. 

 

 

[Marcel]

I am massive over thinker. Which has benefits, like spotting blindspots other people miss, but also disadvantages like being stuck in my thoughts which often doesn’t translate to action. 

It translates into changes of attitudes, ideas and emotional stability, but not in an increase of productivity. 

In a way I’m daydreaming too much. Maybe I’m addicted to thinking as a form of escapism, or a past coping mechanism that I haven’t quite got in check yet. 
 

[Whitney Edwards]

4 minutes ago, Marcel said:

I am massive over thinker. Which has benefits, like spotting blindspots other people miss, but also disadvantages like being stuck in my thoughts which often doesn’t translate to action. 

It translates into changes of attitudes, ideas and emotional stability, but not in an increase of productivity. 

In a way I’m daydreaming too much. Maybe I’m addicted to thinking as a form of escapism, or a past coping mechanism that I haven’t quite got in check yet. 
 

Do you sometimes think from your heart too? 

[Marcel]

Just now, Buck Edwards said:

Do you sometimes think from your heart too? 

Do you mean listening to my intuition?

[Whitney Edwards]

Just now, Marcel said:

Do you mean listening to my intuition?

Yea. 

[Marcel]

@Buck EdwardsWell yes. I do, that’s how I get my ideas in the first place and then I follow them while analysing the hell out of them.