Aha-Moment. Awakening to Thing(ness)

[Keryo Koffa]

I've become conscious/aware of what I'll call "force". This "force" can be seen as a center that creates homeostatic drives. I guess I could also call it self/object/thing/subject. I guess it's really actually ego or one could call it life also. It's a type of focus, a solidified structure, a bias/preference/distinction.

To make clear what I'm talking about, picture any object, it probably has a word/name it's codified under. We can look around and we can distinguish things through contrast, objects through barriers, through inside outside, surface,, strong color difference, properties.

Think of a metal ball and a wooden block. We associate the metal ball with its grey color, round shape, reflective surface, metallic touch sensation, heavy weight. We associate the wooden block with its blocky shape, edges, brown color, wood pattern texture, lighter weight/density.

Through our innate senses, we have distinguished patterns we associate to both and we can hold each individually, through these associations we have created the very thing I'm pointing towards, objects. And from here on out, we can start believing in the permanence/specificity of such objects. We have memorized the pattern and imbued it with significance (significance is a thing, huh? gotta contemplate that later). And so we created an object or subject, the difference is kind of arbitrary, and I guess that's how we created our own image or ego also. And through mechanisms/will of the mind/brain, we are continuously reinforcing such things to be things, even though they're an arbitrary relation of patterns that can be broken apart (probably).

I had been rather eager to share this aha-moment, but now I realize how much more there is to contemplate and awaken to, so I'll leave it at that before this paradigm itself solidifies too much.

Edited July 10, 2024 by Keryo Koffa