my horrible situation that is almost too outlandish to write about

[Ulax]

Could be dissociation

[Salvijus]

18 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

What happens when there is constant attention on the self? you start to dissolve. That's what happened to me. I gradually dissolved. And in November 2023, I ended up almost headless.

Being self centered, ego centric does not make you dissolve. Quite the opposite, it perpetuates the illusion. 

To be love centered, to be awareness centered, to be centered on helping others makes ego dissolve. 

Edited July 2 by Salvijus

[Salvijus]

4 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

i didn't mean full dissolution, I meant almost full, and between those is an infinite difference

I bet it was like 1% dissolution compared to what Buddhists go through. And they are fine without any of the simptoms you discribe

[Sugarcoat]

Just now, Salvijus said:

Being self centered, ego centric does not make you dissolve. Quite the opposite, it perpetuates the illusion. 

To be love. Centered, to be aware centered, to be centered on helping others makes ego dissolve. 

im not the only one who speaks of attention on the self, I think ive heard Rupert spira talk about it too.

yes it perpetrates the illusion, but it makes you dissolve to *almost* zero like it happened to me. The neurological mechanism of self-attention does that in my direct experience

i understand what doesn't fit into an existing paradigm and can be quite confusing but it is based in my direct experience

[Yimpa]

To discover that OTHERS are YOU! And explore that FOREVER! 

I am mentally ill, and that rocks! I love when a Buddhist sits on me 

[Sugarcoat]

Just now, Salvijus said:

I bet it was like 1% dissolution compared to what Buddhists go through. And they are fine without any of the simptoms you discribe

what im talking about is  the experience of separation being so thin the world looks almost 2d flat. That is severe

[Salvijus]

18 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

Due to all the dissolution I went through, there was a kind of disconnect in my brain/self.

I mean I picked up on that feeling of emptyness inside you before. That dissociation. It could a lost soul/trapped soul phenomena. Where because of some traumas or pain a soul dissociates from the body in order to avoid the pain and then doesn't return fully. 

Did you experience anything traumatic before these simptoms appeared? 

[Salvijus]

4 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

what im talking about is  the experience of separation being so thin the world looks almost 2d flat. That is severe

There could be more than one explanation to it. I'm telling you, unless you're the next Ramana Maharshi, it's not the ego dissolution at play. 

Edited July 2 by Salvijus

[Salvijus]

5 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

im not the only one who speaks of attention on the self, I think ive heard Rupert spira talk about it too.

Rupert is talking on attention on the Self. With the capital S. That means to focus on beyond the ego. 

[Yimpa]

Another perspective

 

[Salvijus]

19 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

Due to all the dissolution I went through, there was a kind of disconnect in my brain/self.

If you want to feel connected to the self. Connect to your heart. When you connect to your heart you won't feel flat or empty. You will feel full, complete, all pervasive etc. And it will organize and harmonize your brain activity aswell

Edited July 2 by Salvijus

[Yimpa]

Just now, Salvijus said:

If you want to feel connected to the self. Connect to your heart. When you connect to your heart you won't feel flat or empty. You will feel full, complete, all pervasive etc. 

[Salvijus]

19 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

forced to exercise to grow the connection. 

Does dancing help to feel connected to the self? Because by dancing you can connect with your heart. It's really good. 

Edited July 2 by Salvijus

[Salvijus]

1 minute ago, Yimpa said:

Group hug 🤗 

[Yimpa]

1 minute ago, Salvijus said:

Does dancing help to feel connected to the self? Because by dancing you can connect with your heart. It's really good. 

 

[Salvijus]

4 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

 

😅

I can't believe I remember watching this so many years ago on TV. 

Some SpongeBob wisdom right there. 

[Yimpa]

2 minutes ago, Salvijus said:

Some SpongeBob wisdom right there. 

Nondual Crocodiles be missing out on SpongeBob Awakening 

Edited July 2 by Yimpa

[Schizophonia]

5 minutes ago, Salvijus said:

Some SpongeBob wisdom right there. 

"God is talking to me through SpongeBob" 

 

[Salvijus]

5 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

Up to 3/4 sleepless nights per week for more than a year,

I would imagine if you had to drive a car overnight, you'd probably have no issues falling asleep. You'd probably feel drowsy like everyone else. 

If the above is true, it should give you an insight into the nature of your problem. My guess would be an overstimulated mind. 

Edited July 2 by Salvijus

[Schizophonia]

23 minutes ago, Salvijus said:

I would imagine if you had to drive a car overnight, you'd probably have no issues falling asleep. You'd probably feel drowsy like everyone else. 

If the above is true, it should give you an insight into the nature of your problem. My guess would be an overstimulated mind. 

Yes, because of high cortisol or something like that.

My mind tend tends to gravitate towards stressful objects.

Edited July 2 by Schizophonia