Selling your soul and karma

[Hugo Oliveira]

Recently, I was presented with a job opportunity that, while promising significant financial gain, raised ethical concerns for me. Despite the allure of making good money, something inside me strongly opposed the idea. It felt as though accepting the offer would compromise my integrity – almost like bargaining away a piece of my soul.

Reflecting further on this inner conflict, I realize a similar discomfort surfaces when I contemplate aspects of pickup and sexuality. It's as if the pursuit of gratification through manipulation or self-serving actions contradicts a deeper sense of alignment. 

I once believed that these "dirty" desires were inherent aspects of my humanity. I thought it possible to indulge them partially and responsibly, guided by the idea of "burning through karma."

Now, however, I find myself unsure where to draw the line. I feel unable to fully let go of these desires yet struggle to satisfy them because of this intuitive feeling of evil. It seems like navigating some of my needs requires some form of subtle manipulation of reality, which troubles me deeply.

Does anyone else experience this internal struggle or have insights to share?

[Rafael Thundercat]

It looks like everybody have a Republican and  a Liberal figthing inside them all the time. the key is Balance.

[Keryo Koffa]

You should feel deeper into that side of yours, there is much conditioning that is not even necessarily your karma, but a societal norm that prescribes values and behaviors that you then believe to be your own or over a long period of time gaslight yourself into believing you need to engage in to satisfy otherwise insatiable desires.

The truth is within you, the same thing that points you away from these behaviors can show you their source and what you actually should do, which might be unrelated to begin with. Question these needs, for many they stem out of unconscious impulses gratified through manipulation, but just because others make it normal, does not make it right or even necessary or desirable or even meaningful.

Look at the people who do engage in these behaviors, who they are, who they become, when they stop or if they do, how it transforms them and if it ever even adds value to their life, beyond realizations of vanity. Go through a city and look at shops, look at the vanity, what is it all for, how did people live a thousand years ago. Are current societal needs in any way objective?

Find yourself within, start individuating, face your shadow, expand your consciousness, start thinking, start wondering, start questioning. Find yourself.