4 signs that determine how awake you are -Robert Adams

[Breakingthewall]

3 hours ago, Someone here said:

OK thanks . I understand what you mean.

No you are not being a smart ass...you are truly intelligent and this is obvious. it is not hypocrisy or giving you a blowjob to make you stick your nose in the sky but just stating a fact .

So anyways..let me ask you a fundamental question that im battling with recently..which holds more value to you  ..happiness or truth? 

In other words would you rather know the truth if it is mercilessly harsh and brutal or you prefer happiness that comes from delusion and ignorance? 

Do you understand the question? 

Thank you, a fellatio is always appreciated. I think the same about you.

As for your question...let's see, the first let's say mystical realizations that I had with psychedelics were absolutely horrible. Literally, absolute horror. this was simply being trapped alone in eternity. the fact of existing was total horror. Honestly, if this were all, I'd rather be deceived. But since all mystics said other things, I thought they were probably right and I was missing something. then I continued deepening until the eternal empty loneliness opened up. There is no better word to define it. The infinite void opens its heart and shows you what you are. Hallelujah! total existence free, bottomless, unthinkable. the love of infinite depth, from which springs a cry of total freedom. That's it, there is no more. there can't be more. more is not an option, same than better. Even the possibility is impossible. 

Over time you realize it was pretty obvious. What else could you be? Everything is within you. You have no bottom, but you are not alone for that very fact. "Alone" implies limitation. The idea of being alone is something that happens inside you, not what you are. what you are is the reality.

[Water by the River]

8 hours ago, Breakingthewall said:

The idea of being alone is something that happens inside you, not what you are. what you are is the reality.

Bingo 

[Keryo Koffa]

18 hours ago, Breakingthewall said:

this was simply being trapped alone in eternity

This is what I'm interested in, it seems unawareness is part of our current experience but I feel at some point, after everything becomes fully conscious, the ever tightening maslow's pyramid of needs reaches that singularity post self-actualization and inflects into a new inverse pyramid where we are fully aware of each aspect of our awareness and we start building things consciously remaining aware of them in this new state of mind, creating an entire universe of possibilities and personalities in the process, that we might already be unconsciously a part of in order to experience this particular individual perspective

Edited June 27 by Keryo Koffa

[shree]

If you want to determine how awake you are, spend a week with your in-laws.

[Breakingthewall]

2 hours ago, Keryo Koffa said:

This is what I'm interested in, it seems unawareness is part of our current experience but I feel at some point, after everything becomes fully conscious, the ever tightening maslow's pyramid of needs reaches that singularity post self-actualization and inflects into a new inverse pyramid where we are fully aware of each aspect of our awareness and we start building things consciously remaining aware of them in this new state of mind, creating an entire universe of possibilities and personalities in the process, that we might already be unconsciously a part of in order to experience this particular individual perspective

It is one thing to open yourself to total existence and another to understand something of what is happening and why. I would say that it is impossible, or it is simply infinite and this is what is happening, but everything seems to follow a certain pattern, a coherence, a continuity. Maybe some understanding is possible, I don't know.