Looking for advice

[El Rio]

Hi Folks,

I am looking for some advice from the more advanced souls.

Chronologically, I'm an old geezer, 64 years.  About 3 years ago I began experimenting with medium-high doses of psilocybin mushrooms. This lead to multiple love awakenings and an entirely new path. Old story, new face.

But the deeper I get into this, the more I learn about everything in our current lives, being nothing more than a dream. This has been a shocker!

So, here's where I need the advice. In about 2018 I looked around at the condition of the world and decided that due to many factors, we are on the edge of imminent collapse. Financially, environmentally, militarily...you name it.  So, I set about making preparations for my 3, Grandsons whom I love dearly. Knowing, just how rich the food chain is in SE Alaska, I set about buying a property and building a home to gift to these Grandsons after my demise. Worldly thinking for their continued survival.

So, this is my retirement plan, and I love it here, but I'd always planned on retiring some place where I could scuba-dive like weekly if not daily. SE AK, is not the place for that I can assure you! Nor, does my wife want to live here in the long, dark winters.

So, did my worldly thinking blow it? When I die do all of these well-laid plans (and my Grandsons and my wife) vanish like my nightly dreams vanish?  Should I have chosen the path of the tropics and scuba-diving for myself and not the plan of planning for a refuge for my progeny?

After Leo's video on Solipsism along with parts of many other things I've recently studied I feel more than confused about exactly what the hell I was thinking. Still am thinking I guess.

 

Thanks in advance. I look forward to hearing a few perspectives.

 

ER

[Ishanga]

I would say You meant well, maybe You should have built the retirement home in more southernly places where its not so cold (I understand cold coming from Canada lol).

Don't be concerned with this Solipsism stuff, from my research on Spiritual matters this is what I know, that all experience happens within You and no place else, others are here, they have their Subjective Experience and that is all we really have, but to actually think/believe that only "I" exist and everything else is a dream I made up is ludicrous! We are here to experience basic Life as Individuals, but we also have the ability to experience Life as One Big Connected Unit, we are Like Bubbles of Air, we think we are the bubble part, the thin layer that surrounds the Air, but we are the Air, and when the Buddle is broken we merge with the rest of that Giant Air pocket we call the Atmosphere, but for now we have a bubble around it and its called Individuality, enjoy it while it lasts, and explore the rest of it via seeking and finding a good practice that allows you to enjoy both worlds!! 

Edited June 21 by Ishanga